I made this for my Twinny's birthday, and she wanted an emo one, so that's what she gets. Hope you enjoy this!

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Aerith's PoV

If I told him what I was to do, then I'm sure he would have stopped me one way or another. And I didn't want that, I needed to leave him, I needed to do what I did. So I left, while he slept after battling Jenova inside his head. Even in his dreams, his brows are furrowed, and he grimaces. He needed redemption, and he still does. He can't forget or forgive what he did, even in his sleep. I suppose his dreams are just darkness, an eternal abyss. There's no light, never was, never will be.

I remember walking backwards and forwards, getting things ready while trying to be as silent as I could be. Once or twice I dropped something, as my hands were shaking so much. Cursing myself as he once or twice shifted in his sleep, but never once opening his eyes. It's funny in a way, I was grateful that he never woke up, but at the same time I was angry. I think I wanted to be stopped, to have his arms around me, telling me never to do that ever again. I wanted to be saved. If that makes any sense.

But, he never did...

Cloud's Pov

broken broken

shattered inside

heart

forever

broken

I hurt her.

She'll...

She'll kill me

She'll be the end of me.

But I deserve it.

Into the abyss

I will r u n

I turn away from it...

Re demp tion

I don't want my light. I'll just taint her anyway.

Aerith's PoV

I kept my silence, I held my tongue. As much as I didn't want to. I realize now that I wanted to shout from the rooftops, how much I was hurting at that moment. I would have screamed how much I loved him, or should I say love him, and if he woke up, then I would say it to his face, and to hell if he rejected me, at least I would have got that huge weight of my chest, and died without regrets. But, I didn't proclaim my love, and I didn't tell the world of my pain, I kept it myself, like I always did. How could I tell anyone, how could I tell him? But then? It all came out. Those tears of hurt finally came.

Cloud's PoV

What's this I hear?

Tears?

Is that?

Oh God.

Aerith

I've tainted her already.

I made my mark.

He face is bruised.

Because of my...

My unloving fist

Aerith's PoV

I raised my hand to my cheek, remembered the pain that blasted when Cloud's fist connected with my face. Then I cried some more. Of course I did, I felt sorry for him, not for myself. He was the one being controlled, not me. But then again, I think I was being controlled myself. If I was my normal self, I would have never gone there by myself, I would have waited. But I didn't, I let him sleep.

So instead, I got ready to leave. I walked to the tents doorway, and I looked back. He looked so peaceful this time, the only time that I've ever seen him peaceful. And I couldn't leave him like that, I really wouldn't. So I went to him, dropped my bag on the floor, and knelt beside him. I brushed one of those wonderful blonde spikes out of his eyes, and I smiled through my tears. I couldn't help what I did next, I really couldn't.

I kissed him.

And I'm glad I did. I told him without words.

But know now Cloud, I had to leave you. I had to run away, even though everyone now calls what I did suicide. But I could never let you die, I love you too goddamn much.

And I really don't care, if that was my suicide kiss.

I saved the planet, I saved everyone on it. I saved you.

I'm glad.