CHAPTER 1
KARMA POV
I am sitting here dumbfounded having finally gotten a slot as a mentor on The Voice. I had literally just put my phone down after receiving a call from none other than Adam Levine himself. I have been feeling so bored lately after my tour finished that I have been looking for a new challenge. No matter how busy I keep, I am still haunted by those piercing blue eyes and the last look I ever got directly from her the day she decided to get on that tour bus. It has been 5 years since the day I made the biggest mistake in my life, but I can't exactly complain considering that I owe my entire singing career to the heartache that followed that day. I wonder sometimes how things would have turned out had I just said what I always felt, but could never admit to myself. After crying myself to sleep nearly every night for those 3 months, I finally decided to concentrate on my music and songwriting to channel the hurt and crushing disappointment I felt and once Shane convinced me to start uploading from there, things started moving pretty fast. Myself and Shane had gotten pretty close while lifeguarding together. He was his usual cocky self at first, but soon realised how damaged I was after me running off in tears on more than one occasion and he calmed down after that and we used each other as emotional crutches on a regular basis after that. My life has been consumed with paparazzi, tours and recording for the past 5 years during the day and sometimes nights, but every now and then I still managed to stalk Amy on social media. After she came back from the tour, she basically packed up for UCLA and I never saw or heard from her again. I was devastated. I picked up the phone a million times, but chickened out every time before I even got a dial tone. Its amazing how you can go from being best friends one second and nothing the next. She was doing pretty well for herself in the entertainment industry. She always used to say how she wanted to do documentaries, but her time with Pussy Explosion had obviously shown her that her talents were meant for bigger things as she became quite a name in Hollywood as the Director of choice for the rich and famous ranging from music videos to talent shows and exclusive interviews on the red carpet. What hurts me the most though is that she was linked to many starlets and models over the years, but especially the 23rd of September last year when her then girlfriend Reagan had publicly asked Amy to marry her at an awards show and she had said yes. I got so hammered that night that I woke up in my car in front of my house not remembering how I got there. I have literally not dated a single person in the last 5 years and just concentrated on music and touring. Everytime I wanted to, I saw those eyes again. The utter hurt and disappointment that I knew I could never get over. Looking on the bright side, I finally have something to look forward to. I cannot believe that I finally got the oppurtunity to mentor and nurture fresh, raw talent. I am so excited that I almost forget about her. ALMOST.