FEAR.
[based of the 1996 movie] / starring: Kelly Kelly & Miz
What happends when the guy of your dreams turns into your worse nightmare?
The Beggining.
Kelly's POV
Another night came to an end. Another match without any bit of excitment. Honestly I'm so tired of watching Michelle walking around with that championship. She so .. ugh, I don't even know. Girls say she changed a lot since she won her first tittle. To be honest I don't know, I really didn't know her before. I knew Layla though. How I miss Extreme Expose days.. I miss our sleepovers & talking about boys all night. Since they decided to form Lay-Cool she hasn't been the same anymore. I can't even call her cause she's always with Michelle. I just feel so alone here on SmackDown... Tiff left and now is just me standing here. I feel like everyone's careers are moving foward and I'm still in the same place. Yeah, things changed since ECW days but moving to Smackdown was probably the worst thing EVER. I miss my girls.. Mickie, Mel, Candice.. They are all on Raw and I'm here, alone, stuck with those two.
Everyone says I look sad, tired lately. To be honest they're right. I try to hide it but I'm not happy in a while now. I don't even remember the last time I flahsed a honest smile. This seems so silly to say since I always look so smiley and happy on tv. I guess the whole beauty pagent thing was good for something: faking a smile. The great thing is that the draft is next Monday. Damn I can't wait for that! I need a change, I need to get out of here because deep down I feel like breaking down at any moment. I love this bussiness, I love everything about it but what's the point of going out there & pretend to be this happy and perfect Kelly when she's not there? I'm not happy and things or me are definately not perfect. Everything is a mess. This is not what I want for me or for my career. I don't wanna live a lie.
Wow I feel like I don't even know myself anymore. I used to have everything I always wanted. The good career, the amazing friends, the good boyfriend.. Boyfriend. Better not even go there. Can't even remember the last time I actually had a date with someone. Guess I kinda have to blame myself for that. Since the whole Jason & the cheating thing that I just can't trust any guy anymore. I prefer to be alone that heartbroken again. But I can't lie. I do wish to find someone. That one guy that treats me right & loves me for me. Not that girl on tv. This girl here, outside the screen. But who am I kidding? Guys only care about looks, about what they can touch. Meaning: one night stands. Sorry but I pass on that one. I'm done with Jason wannabees. God.. I better stop thinking about prince charmings that will never show up or people that will never change and focus on things that can actually happend. Who knows? Maybe a simple Monday night can change everything.