so I wrote this after the the season finalie. I was listening to Happiness by the Fray, and I guess something just clicked. I finally typed up the story, and decided to post it on my Fanfic Day! Yeah, I feel ike when I say Fanfic Day! I should jump in the air and do the little thing where you have your fist up, and you- nevermind, enjoy the stoy!
Tony sat behind his desk, pen in hand, ready to write his report for his latest case. The tip of his pen rested on the first line and didn't move. He was focused on her desk. Three months, two weeks, and six days now. He counted.
Happiness was just outside my window
He'd been replaying the whole scene in his head. The scene that caused him to lose her.
I thought it'd crash
It happened so quick.
Blowing eighty miles an hour
He found himself often wishing he could take it all back. Maybe she'd be here. Maybe she'd be happy. He didn't want this.
But happiness is a little more like knocking
But this… jealousy, pain, drama… they came in; and they tore his world apart.
On your door, and you just let it in
Was this how it was supposed to be? Was this how they are supposed to be.
Happiness feels a lot like sorrow
Was he supposed to be without her?
Let it be, you can't make it come or go
Gibbs said she would be back. Abby was sure of it. She would be back.
But you are gone, not for good, but for now
But why did it feel to him… like she was never coming back?
And gone for now feels a lot like gone for good
He nibbled on the clicker of his pen and folded his arms, leaning back in his chair. This was bound to blow up in his face.
Happiness is a fire cracker sitting on my headboard.
When he finally finds someone who he thinks could mean more than just anyone to him…
Happiness was never mine to hold
… she'd fall for another,
Careful child, light the fuse and get away
And he destroyed her happiness.
Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks
He hated happiness. They were supposed to be happy. DiNozzo & David, Tony & Ziva! Where were they?
Happiness damn near destroys you
There was no "they," and he was a broken man.
Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor
He was just a shell of who he used to be.
So you tell yourself 'That's enough for now.'
She was gone, and in a way, he was too.
But happiness
And it was his fault.
Has a violent roar
He supposed he was never meant to have it. Happiness.
Happiness, it's like the old man told me
Just as well. It didn't exist anyway. Not to him.
But let it go, live your life and leave it
She didn't love him, and she was never coming back.
Then one day you'll wake up and she'll be… home
He took the pen out of his mouth and started his report.
Home…
The elevator dinged.
She'll be…
The doors opened. He normally looked to see, but not this time.
She'll be…
"Tony," he heard McGee call.
She'll be home…
"Not now, Probie," he replied.
Tony focused on his paperwork.
She'll be home…
"But Tony."
"McGee," he warned.
She'll be home…
"DiNozzo," said Gibbs, "Look up."
Tony looked up in frustration.
She'll be home…
Frustration quickly left as he locked eyes with her. Ziva…
She'll be home…
She was bruised up a bit, which made him angry, but something took him over. A feeling.
She will be home.
Happiness…
She'll be home.
He stood from his desk and walked towards her. He could see tears form in her eyes. That hurt him.
Shell be home.
He wiped them away and kissed her lips gently, forgetting rule 12.
She'll be.
She hugged him and cried into his blazer. He held her.
"It's okay."
He kissed the top of her head.
"I'm here for you."
"Tony…"
"I'm here for you, Ziva," he whispered, "I'm always here. I'm so sorry."
"Don't be."
So that song was Happiness by the Fray, a really good song, and I can't wait for Christmas. October, Noveber and December are my favoite months or the year. I bet you can't guess why:0)