Family always comes first. Being leader of my four obnoxious little brothers means I always have to stay focused, mature, strong and fearless. They don't understand me sometimes because though I am always telling them what to do it is really for their own good. To them I am the "boring one" out of us four but really it seems like I am the one who puts up with all the arguments and is always involved in their childish fights. They are my life, and in my life I don't have time for things like becoming good at electronics like Donatello, or partying like Michelangelo and I defiantly don't have time to get a girlfriend like Raphael. I am to busy putting up with getting them focused on what is important and following sensei's orders and meditating and doing what is best for the family and keeping all my scared and immature stupid feelings about someone I shouldn't have feelings for locked away till I die. I clearly don't have anytime for a life of my own. Because its like I said, family always comes first.

My day always starts the same. I wake up at 4:30 every morning, eat breakfast, start my personal training, wake up my brothers at 5:30, meditate, get instructions from Sensei, stop what ever Raph and Mikey are arguing about, go on my night run, grab some pepperoni pizza and maybe stop some purple dragons or krangs with my team, spar training, then back to bed at 11:30. But for some reason today was different. It all started when I woke up.

* earlier today *

Leonardo's eyes shoot open, his whole body covered in sweat. Springing out of bed he runs into the kitchen and sticks his head under the sink drinking as much water as he can. "You look like you got hit by a bus." Raphael chuckles. "You okay Leo?" Leo's face still under the foist, his eyes get bigger. 'Great just the turtle I wanted to see.' Leonardo thinks as he leans against the sink wiping his face down with his hand. "I'm fine Raph. Just a weird dream." Sitting at the table Raphael looks at Leo like he is trying to study a book. Which is weird because Raphael hates studying. "How weird?" Raph rubs his chin with his finger. "Just weird Raph okay! I don't want to talk about it." Leo snaps at Raph."Why are you up this early anyway?!" Raphael puts his feet up on the table and pulls out his Shell Cell " I've been texting my girlfriend all night and decided to eat some pizza when you come in here freaking out so I thought I'd be nice for once and see what the crap is wrong with you when you decide to blow up in my freakin face!" Raphael slams his fist on the table which catches Leo by surprise.

Leo didn't realize how angry he was. And it was all because of that stupid dream he had.

(Leo's P.O.V)

It was like Raphael just punched me in the face. Normally I'd try to argue my case to Raph but that would mean I would have to tell him what my dream was and there is no way in hell anyone is hearing about what I dreamt about last night. I just have to try and forget about it.

Taking a deep breath trying to cool down I turn and face Raphael. "Sorry I snapped at you. I know your not a morning person."

"When has Raph ever been a morning person?" Michelangelo laughs walking into the kitchen and starts making an omelet. "And since when have you apologized to Raph, Leo?"

"Agh I am just not in the mood to argue today Mikey." I rub my head trying to get that dumb dream out of my thoughts.

"Rough night?" Donatello walks into the kitchen. "Yes. And why are you all up this early? Its 4:20! Am I missing something?"

"Sensei told us last night to wake up early today..." Donatello gets interrupted by Sensei standing right behind him "We are going to be practicing all day today Leonardo. And we are going to start with some sparring."

Great maybe sparring will help get my mind off things. It normally helps me get rid off my anger and clear my head. Raph is the one with anger problems but I'm next in line in this family. I mostly just keep my anger in which helps me more in fights. But that stupid dream isn't helping me today. I just cant stop thinking about how damn good it felt. And it all felt so real. I guess the reason why I'm mad about it is because it's not real. And it never will be. The fact that I'm having these feelings is pissing me off.

"Leonardo you will spar with Raphael today." Splinter says. Ahh Shell. Why do I have to be paired with Raphael?! He is already pissed off and he didn't sleep at all last night! "Raphael! Wake up!" Master Splinter yells at Raph who is knocked out on the table. "AHHH what?!" Raph jumps in the air and lands on the table in fighting position ready to attack. "Why are you so tired, Raphael?" Splinter asks. "Umm well.." Raph scratches his head. "You weren't texting your girlfriend all night now were you?" Master Splinter looks at Raph who is now off of the table. "You told on me!?" Raphael shoots a look at me. Which causes my face to turn red "What? No! Why would I tell on you?!"

Mikey just sits there eating his omelet. "Man sometimes, I think our family could have our own reality T.V show."

"Not now Mikey!" Raph glares at him. "Raphael, Leonardo didn't tell me anything. Do you really think you can get away with texting your girlfriend all night long with out me knowing about it especially when your phone had the sound on?" Raphael leans his head in his hand "Aghh. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid." He whispers to himself. "Sorry Sensei."

"I'm not the one you should be apologizing to. You know how much your anger gets to you and that's why you need sleep. I'm taking away your phone until you learn to use it wisely." Master Splinter grabs Raphael's shell cell from the table.

"Yes Mater Splinter." Raphael mumbles. "And sorry Leo." Raphael mumbles even quieter. "Good. Know where was I? Oh that's right. So Raphael you'll be sparring with Leonardo and Donatello your with Michelangelo."

"BOYACASHA!" Mikey fist pumps in the air and jumps on the kitchen table. "You are going DOWN Donnie!" Mikey points to Donatello. "Not if I have anything to do about that." Donnie smirks at Mikey. "Sensei" Mikey says with out taking his eyes off of Donnie "Is it cool if we start now?"

"Yes Michelangelo." Sensei pauses. "As long as your in the dojo." Splinter and I say simultaneously. I look at Splinter and blink. Raph gives me a weird look. Great. I'll hear about this later. "You two may start now too." Splinter says. "Yes sensei. Common dufous." I grab Raphs strong muscular arm and head to the dojo. Once we get in there Donnie and Mikey are really going at it. "Look whose going down now Mikey. I got you right where I want you." Donnie smirks with Mikey right underneath him. But Mickey knees him in the plastron causing Donnie to fly into the wall. "That's what you think." Mikey laughs while they keep sparring.

I turn around to see Raph patiently waiting for me to get to the matts. "Ready when you are Leo." Raph smirks at me. Yup he is still mad. I walk over to the matt and we start by taking a bow and going around the matt in circles waiting for the other to make the first move. I run up to Raph and he runs up to me. He swinged at my face but I grabbed his hand and he grabbed my other hand. We are in each others faces battling over strength. "Ya know Leo, I get all tingly when you and Splinter say the same thing at the same time." His smirk peaks on his lips. "You guys could be twins!" I knew he would bring that up. His face is so close to mine we are practically touching. I cant help but stare at those lips of his. Ahh snap out of it Leo! Next thing ya know I'm on the floor and Raph is on top of me. Legs on both sides of my plastron. "Why are you so quiet all the sudden Leo? You sure were on one this morning." Raphael laughs sarcastically.

* present *

So here I am underneath my pain in the ass little brother blusing and not being able to come up with words. "Givng in yet Leo?" His smirk gets bigger with ever word he says. "I am gonna knock that smirk right off your face!" I sass to him trying not to blush anymore than I already am. "Considering the position you are in big brother, I don't think that's gonna happen." He pauses "You seem more angry than usual. Maybe if you fess up what's wrong with you I'll let you go nice and easy." Raphael gets closer to my face. There is no way in hell I'm telling him! "Listen Raphy, last time I checked your not my therapist. So I aint tellin you jack." I close my eyes turning my head away from him. "Then you might want to get comfy." Raphael leans down next to my ear and whispers "I could do this all day."

"Man Leo I didn't think you we're the giving up type of guy." Mikey looks down at me dusting himself off from his match with Donnie.

He is right! What am I doing just sitting here. I am the freakin leader of this team and I'm just sitting here laying on the floor getting my ass whooped by my little brother! I cant let these stupid feelings get in the way of my training. I look at Raph "You're right Mikey, I'm not the giving up type." I've been sweating so much because I got a little nervous being in this weird position for so long that I just slipped my way out of Raphael's grasp and set my arms free punching Raph right in the face knocking him right off of me. I returned the smirk back to Raphael who know looks even more pissed than before. "I was only taking it easy on my baby brother." Raph reaches behind him and pulls out his daggers "Lets do this then, bitch." Running towards him I pull out my katana's "Bring it jerk!"

"That is enough!" Master Splinter yells at us causing me to drop my weapons. "I paired you two together because I thought it would help you work out your problems. Apparently we need to take a different aim at this problem. Donatello, come here son." Donnie walks up to Splinter and whispers something in his ear Causing Donnie to leave the room. Raph puts his Daggers back glaring at me. Donnie comes back with something in his hands. "If you guys cant learn to get along.." Donnie comes behind me shoving me onto a table on my stomach and grabs my wrist and something tight grips onto it. Mikey does the same to Raph. "Agh not this shit again." Raph mumbles. We are handcuffed together. "... then you'll have to spend time together until you do. I get to decide when those cuffs come off." Splinter leaves the room.

"Maybe if we don't talk to each other then we wont argue then Splinter will take the cuffs off faster.." I suggest. " I'm so sick of taking stupid orders from you! You are the reason we are in this mess!" Raph argues. "And your talking." I put my free hand on my forehead. "This is gonna be a long day." I walk into the living room with Raph right behind me still complaining as we plop onto the couch. "You don't know how damn frustrating this is! First I got my phone taken away and now I'm handcuffed to an idiot! I swear all this bad stuff always happens to me..." Raphael continues on but I just phase him out. He isn't wrong though. This is all my fault. I'm the one who had that dream. I'm the one who has these feelings. Why do I have to be so complicated?! Why do I have to feel this way about my brother?! Nothing is ever going to happen between us! No matter how much I want it to I cant let it. If anyone ever found out I have a crush on Raphael I would be kicked out and the family would never be the same! And Raph.. He would be so disgusted. He wouldn't be able to look at me or speak to me ever again. I hate myself for feeling this way. I have to act as if I never had that dream and nothing is or ever will be different. He is my brother.

Family always comes first.

Authors note:

So there is chapter 1! It took me all day to write this. I'm not even sure if I like it that much but lately I have really gotten into this show and movie so I hope you guys like it! There will be more chapters to come later! Review and let me know any ideas you have (: