Everything We Ever Wanted
Title: Everything We Ever Wanted
Pairing: Faye/Diana (Fayana)
Rating: NC-17
Written by: Nanda_SC & ari_dushku
Disclaimer: The characters Faye Chamberlain and Diana Meade are not ours. We do not own, nor have any official association with The Secret Circle, The CW or any other profit making entity. No infringement is intended.
Summary: "When destiny really wants to accomplish something, it can't do it alone. You still have to build a bridge... to the one you love."
A/N: AU. Sequel to Careless Whisper. Follow the story of Faye and Diana after the events that changed their lives forever.
A/N: In this AU, Faye and Diana have been friends since kindergarten. Only Faye, Diana, Melissa and Cassie are witches. Adam, Nick and Jake are not part of the circle. Still set in the present days, the girls are around 16. Diana and Adam were together for some time, but it was over once she realized she wanted more. Faye and Jake have had a thing in the past, but it's also over now.
A/N: There will be lots of angst, lots of fluff and lots of smut. Don't like, don't read it.
A/N: Reviews are very much appreciated!
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{Chapter 1 - Prisoner}
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It had been over a week - nearly two - since Faye's life had been turned upside down. From hooking up with her best friend, to ending up in hell – literally - and to get back to this word without remembering who she was, it was good to have her life finally falling back into its place, at least partially.
It had been almost a week since Faye finally left the hospital. Her health seemed to be as good as it could get and when medical care was no longer necessary she was more than glad to leave that place, wishing she didn't have to go back there in no time in the near future.
She felt completely recovered, mostly due to a few spells performed by Diana – which were incredibly difficult to explain to the doctors how Faye's condition seemed to improve so quickly. In her medical reports they would explain it as a 'fast metabolism', although she knew they wanted to find out what was really going on, another reason to try to get out of there as soon as possible.
One would think that leaving the hospital would be the end of Faye's torment. Except it wasn't. Since she came back home her mother asked for a school leave so she could take care of Faye - much to the girl's despair. Faye enjoyed her freedom and independency way too much to be spoiled like a little child.
She knew her mom had been worried and had every reason to be, but she was okay now and she just wanted her life back. She wanted to go back to school, wear her tiniest skirt and most revealing shirt, turn all eyes to her again, just like before, when everything was somehow 'normal'.
Instead, she had to settle now with Diana's daily visits bringing her homework and the notes of every class she has been missing. She appreciated the girl's effort, but for Faye, that was not the important thing about school - at all. She wanted to see people, their faces, even though she hated them all, even if it was just to despise them all.
The girl was lying on her bed - like she had done every day, all day long, during the whole damn week – trying to survive this house arrest while listening to one of her favorite album of The Donnas on her iPod, back to her old self and all. As the music filled her ears - songs that talked about partying, dancing, getting wasted and having fun flirting with everybody in the party, all things that she has been missing, - Faye barely missed her mother calling out for her from the hall heading to her room.
"Faye, do you want some tea?" Dawn asked from the hall.
"For the millionth time, no…!" Faye muffled against her pillow, covering her head with it.
"Do you?" Dawn stood by the door with a hopeful smile on her face.
None of her offers seemed to please her daughter today. Or the previous days. She was trying her best, but Faye had already made very clear she just wanted to go back to school, get her life back. Except Dawn didn't feel she was prepared to do so just yet, which caused a few disagreements in the past couple days.
"Can I go to school tomorrow?" Faye changed the subject while taking her headphones off "I'm feeling so much better, really. And spending all this time in bed is making my back hurt." She complained stretching.
"You certainly can't. Remember I told you your grandfather is coming to see you tomorrow?"
"Ah, great" Faye rolled her eyes "Can you ask him not to come? That I'll give him a call or something? I'm missing important subjects at school, you should know."
"Faye" Dawn said in a firm tone "I appreciate your recent concern with school, but you're not going until I say so. And no, I'm not telling your grandfather he can't come visit his granddaughter. You know how much he cares about you." Dawn was clearly irritated by Faye's behavior in the past couple days, when she was just trying her best to provide Faye everything she needed to get better as soon as possible.
"Oh, yeah. I really feel loved, being treated like a prisoner!" Faye raised her voice and crossed her arms against her chest, her mouth forming a frown.
"Prisoner? Need I remind you that you were in a coma 2 weeks ago? Excuse me for being a responsible parent and not letting you risk your health by leaving home!" Dawn's speech was interrupted by the sound of the doorbell.
"That would be Diana" Faye said, not sounding so excited.
"I know. I'll go open the door for her, but this discussion is not finished." Dawn pointed out and left the room after that.
"Great" Faye faked a smile.
A few seconds later she overheard Diana downstairs talking to her mother. The same conversation they had every single day. If Faye was okay, if she was eating well, if she was sleeping well, if she was staying in bed like she should.
Faye felt more irritated than moments ago. She didn't need a second mother right now, so she decided she would pretend to be sleeping so she wouldn't have to talk to Diana. When she heard Diana's steps on the corridor, she closed her eyes and turned her back to the door.
"Hi, Faye" Diana knocked lightly twice on the already opened door, making her presence be known by the girl on the bed. "I know you're awake, sleepy head. I just talked to your mom."
Faye didn't make a move. She tried to lightly breathe like she was really in deep sleep. She was willing fake for as long as it took. But suddenly Diana was already by the side of her bed, and even with her eyes closed, Faye could feel the girl's warm smile.
Just like she did every day, Diana leaned in caressing Faye's shoulder and kissed her cheek, and that was the end of faking sleep as she winced with the light brush of the girl's lips against her skin.
Faye tried her best to ignore the fluttering feeling all over her stomach and not show how Diana's presences always made her feel better, since she should be pissed right now.
"Yeah, I forgot you two are BFF's now. Maybe you should take turns on watching your prisoner here." She said with her back still turned to Diana.
"Prisoner?" Diana frowned "What are you talking about?" She could tell by Faye's attitude the girl was angry at something, and knowing Faye all too well, she had years of experience to prove that nothing good would come out of this conversation, but Diana was always one to try to sort problems out.
"Nothing, whatever…" Faye sighed as she turned around to face Diana. She didn't intend to let her anger out on Diana - or even her mother for that matter - but she was so easily irritated these days she could not control her nerves.
"No, Faye, I can see something is bothering you… You know you can trust me, talk to me. What is going on?" Diana sat beside her on the bed, leaving her books and notes by the nightstand.
"You see, that's the problem!" Faye angrily got up "All of sudden everyone wants to know what is going on with me, how I'm feeling, if I need something. Mom, you, Cassie, Melissa, my grandfather. Even people from school who I was not friends with! I'm not used to that and I don't like it! I'm fine now, I just want my life back and put this all behind me!"
Diana looked like someone had just stabbed her puppy. She was used to Faye's explosive behavior, but she didn't expect it coming so soon. Especially not now after they had started walking on a more romantic direction. She wasn't delusional to think Faye would turn into a princess for her, but she did want to be treated with a little more care now.
"Well I'm sorry if you have people in your life who worry about you, Faye" She fixed her gaze at Faye before continuing "I know how you love being independent, but you being in a coma… It was hard on all of us too. Every day we would walk into that hospital only to find you in a worse condition. Now that we have you back, we worry. 'Cause we… I know what is like not having you in my life. And it's the worst feeling ever." Diana held back tears.
Seeing Diana's hurt face made Faye feel bad for lashing out on her like that "Well you won't lose me again." She decided to answer, trying to control her bitchy mood but failing miserably "So why can't I just go back to my routine, go to school, have my so loved personal space?" She asked looking away.
Diana started to get up with that "Okay, I got the hint. I'll give you your so loved personal space." She picked her own books but left a folder full of notes to Faye "Those are for you, you know, just like the other days…" Diana wanted to scream right now, but she managed to keep her cool and started to walk towards the door, stopping and turning around when she reached the door knob "You know, I spend all day counting down the minutes to see you. Eventually even the seconds." Diana confessed, taking a deep breath "'Cause coming in here and seeing you, makes every day worth it. Sorry if the things you need to be happy right now are not in this room." she said and walked away, the tears she was holding now falling down her cheeks, yet she quickly wiped them away, in case she ran into Dawn on her way out.
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Dawn was just finishing doing the dishes when she overheard sniffing and fast pacing through the corridor. Was Diana already leaving? She asked herself.
She turned around just in time to see Diana closing the door behind her, but Dawn was able to get a glimpse of the girl's flushed cheeks and reddened eyes.
She opened her mouth to call for Diana, but closed it the second after. Those two had been closer than ever lately. Diana seemed happier than she'd ever been with Faye finally out of that hospital.
Knowing her daughter, Dawn was sure Faye had managed to say something really mean to poor Diana in a matter of few minutes, like she had eventually done a few times before, - the few times they got into a silly fight - but Diana never got this upset before. Then she wondered: What could have possibly happened with those two to upset Diana this much?
Faye immediately regretted acting so stupidly. Diana was always so nice to her and she just acted like a perfect jerk. She was about to protest, but Diana walked out so quickly she did not get a chance, kicking herself mentally for letting her go away. The thought of calling her right away, apologizing and asking Diana to come back crossed her mind, but being as stubborn as she was, she decided to go back to her original plan and get some sleep to see if her bitchiness would wear off.
The last image she saw before drifting away to sleep was of the notes Diana left her, a few small red hearts drawn on the front of the white folder, highlighting 'Faye's notes' in the middle.
Dawn came in minutes later to check on her daughter, so they could finish their previous talk and to also ask why Diana seemed to be crying on her way out, but once she saw Faye peacefully sleeping, she changed her mind, putting the folded clothes she had brought inside Faye's closet.
She acknowledged the girl had a point and it wasn't right keeping her at home when she was already feeling well, but she just needed some more bounding time after everything that had happened in the past few weeks. It's what every mother would do in a situation like this.
Not wanting to disturb her daughter's rest, Dawn quietly left her room, waiting for her to awake so they could finally have a decent conversation.
Faye woke up startled as the sound of a strong thunder filled her room. It was pouring down outside. She didn't even notice that the weather had started to change before she fell asleep hours ago.
After rubbing her eyes, she checked her clock, showing it was past 9pm. For one second she thought that her arguing with Diana was nothing but a bad dream. But she was wrong. That had happened, and while sleep took place, her regret grew stronger.
She was just a train wreck, sabotaging her own relationship with Diana. She shouldn't be pissed about being treated like a little girl, when she was actually acting like one. She wished she could once and for all grow the hell up already. Finally realizing how stupid she had been acting, Faye decided to make things right with her mom first, and then planning an escape to go apologize to Diana.
Faye was about to get up when Dawn opened the door. "Oh, you are awake already. I was coming to check on you, I thought you would be hungry."
"Yep, starving." Faye said, nodding.
"Great. I'll be back with your meal in a bit." Dawn said half way out of Faye's room.
"Mom, please. I can have dinner with you downstairs. It's not like I can't walk, you know." Faye stated, already leaving her bed.
"I know, I'm sorry. I'm sorry about our argument earlier. I understand you, I do. I just hope you can understand me too when I say I almost lost my only daughter and it's hard for me to separate from you again, even if it's just for a few hours." Dawn sincerely explained.
"Mom, you're the school principal. You could check on me whenever you want to, just like you did so many times before." Faye laughed inside, her mom's excuse was the worst, but definitely showed how much she cared about her.
"I know, but here you're my only concern. There I'd have to be working and dealing with other kids, other problems… It's been so long since I got to take care of you like this, you grew up so fast, Faye…"
"Oh no, not the 'you grew up so fast' talk! Food's getting cold, shall we?" Faye said playfully, pushing her mom out of her room.
When they were half way down the hall when Faye broke the silence between them "I'm sorry about what I said before. Thank you for caring." she looked down, as she always did when not too comfortable with displaying her feelings.
"I'm sorry too. I know you're going through a lot and I don't mean to make it any harder on you. I just worry, that's all. Now more than ever." Dawn said, caressing her daughter's hand in a protective gesture.
The evening remained uneventful at the Chamberlain's, as mother and daughter had dinner together and decided to watch a movie afterwards, continuing with Dawn's bounding plans. Dawn had decided to watch 'The Iron Lady', and although Faye stated, more than once, it was not her kind of movie, she agreed to watch it with her mother in the end.
Already in the first minutes, Faye sighed, realizing she was already lost in the confusing scenes going back and forth between Margaret Thatcher's life. Perhaps she should even have paid more attention to History classes so she would know who Margaret Thatcher was.
Dawn looked at her daughter's bored expression and broke the silence "So, did something happened with you and Diana today?" she questioned.
"Uh, today? No, why?" Faye answered hurriedly, afraid Diana had said something to her mother.
"Nothing, she just stormed out of the house so quickly. I thought she could be crying even." Dawn shrugged. She was sure Diana was crying, but if something was happening she hoped Faye would tell her. Or she would figure out a way to find out.
"Ah, no. She wanted to have some boy talk and I was not in the mood, so…" Faye said sharply, trying to kill the conversation right that instant before her mother got into further questions.
Besides that small conversation, with Dawn trying to find out what had happened, they remained silent almost till the end of the movie. Faye actually had a good time with her mother, and kind of regretted that it took such extreme events to make her realize just how spending time with her mother could be fun.
As the scene of a government meeting went on, Faye realized how much Margareth Thatcher resembled her own mother.
Her firm speech, how gracefully she could silence all the men in the room, making her opinions known and accepted, how she affirmed that things would be done her way and no other way, not even leaving room for discussion. Yet, when her speech was done, she would gracefully offer tea like nothing had happened, leaving nothing but dropped mouths in the room.
"This Thatcher chick is a lot like you, mom" Faye said, impressed.
"I hope you mean that as a compliment, and in that case, thank you" Dawn said, her eyes not leaving the TV screen. Faye could tell she was loving the movie so she decided not to talk to her till the end of it. The last thing she wanted was to piss her mother off once again.
With the movie ending and after taking her night medicines, Faye started to feel tired again, even though she had woke up from a long nap just a few hours ago. She excused herself and went back to her room, throwing herself onto her bed and resting her head on her pillow afterwards. She felt really tired, but she was just actually tired of doing nothing. She was beyond bored. Her mind was filled by thoughts of Diana and how badly she had treated the girl.
Seating straighter on her bed, she collected the closer object that reminded her of Diana - the white folder on her nightstand. Of course she wasn't gathering the notes to study or see what she had been missing at school. She went through the pages smiling at how adorable Diana could be, even in just writing notes, with her colored pens schematic and her perfectly shaped letters.
While going through several pages, one in particular caught Faye's attention. She puzzled looked at a page that was totally out of school topic, full with random words that didn't make sense scribbled down together and some deformed doodles. It seemed like a kid's first learning to write piece of art. This definitely must be what Diana did during Mr. Cummings' boring Historyclass, Faye thought chuckling a little. The only thing funny about that class was making dirty jokes about the teacher's surname. Obviously Diana always tried her best to pay attention to the old man's class – like the perfect student she was – but seemed like she had been getting bored without Faye by her side lately.
Giving another look at the page in hand, what first seemed like just senseless scribbled things, suddenly started gaining another form. Words magically rearranged themselves, and within few seconds Faye could clearly distinguish that that whole page was about Diana's notes about spells and rituals. What a tricky girl! Faye thought, impressed with Diana's new trick to hide witchcraft from non-witches.
It was yet to be born a person who was more dedicated to magic than Diana was. She wasn't the coven's leader by chance. From their coven, Diana was the one who had the larger knowledge on witchcraft, since one of her favorite pastime was spending an amount of time lost between bookshelves at the town's library searching through hidden books, rereading her family's Book of Shadows and conjuring new spells.
Faye read the whole page with Diana's notes about some kind of Thanking Ritual for the Goddesses. Giving thanks for having her back, she supposed. Diana probably was coming that afternoon to discuss about that with her.
When her eyes hit the left bottom of that page, Faye could see very small notes, but so meaningful at the same time. In red small letters she read 'Faye + Diana = 3' and their scribbled down names together 'Daye' and 'Fayana' - it looked like that Diana was trying to see how their 'ship name would be like.
"'Fayana', huh?" She said reading out loud the name Diana had chosen by scratching the first name and underlining that one. "I like it." She added with a smiling tugging at her lips. And Faye thought Diana couldn't get any cuter. Her heart melted right that second and she shook her head at how stupid she had been with her earlier that day.
Swiftly in bed, she opened her drawer on the nightstand, searching for a paper she left there three nights after she dreamt about fire. Bored beyond words like she had been lately, she simply wrote down the verses that seemed to have come from that dream. Now as she read it again, she noticed how dark it had turned out to be, but it was still pretty lame. She had considered burning it then, but now she was thankful she didn't.
After taking a final read to it, she laughed to herself. Diana Meade, what are you doing to me? After all, Faye Chamberlain was not one to write poems. Especially not one to admit her love to someone, or even talk about her feelings so openly in such a lame way. But after seeing Diana's lame affect demonstration, she changed her mind. Yes, she would play the lame type too. And yes, she had to apologize for being a jerk. Tonight.
She quickly hopped off her bed and changed her pajamas into a skin tight black jeans, purple blouse and her favorite black leather jacket - loving the feel of her cool leather back on against her bare arms. She stood in front of her mirror, adjusting her blouse to reveal some more of her boobs and fixing her hair a little. Her final touch was to apply her black eyeliner, also to mask her sleepy face, and her cherry flavor lip gloss. Oh it feels so good to be back, she thought with a wicked smile spread across her face.
The adrenaline of what she was about to do soon rushed into Faye's veins. It was certainly not the first time she would sneak out of her house to Diana's, more like the billionth time. But this time was different. She knew her mother would be beyond pissed off if she realized Faye was gone, so she lit a candle and chanted a spell she had learned from Diana's family Book of Shadows.
"To represent me
Let my body be
Be safe and be free
A clone shall appear"
Faye smiled as a perfect replica of herself appeared, lying on her bed covered in her soft sheets, looking like it was having the most peaceful of sleeps. Piece of cake. It wasn't like she hadn't done that spell before.
"Be a good girl while I'm gone." She whispered to her clone self who was heavily sleeping, taking the poem, folding it and put it inside her jacket's pocket. As she did so, Faye could hear someone at the door downstairs. Who would show up this late?
She paused her sneaking out to hear if it was Diana, but instead she heard a male voice, that at that moment, she couldn't quite discern whom it belonged to. "How is she?"
"Thanks god she's all better, and actually back to her normal self." She could even hear her mother replying. "She said she was tired when she went upstairs about half an hour ago. She's probably sleeping by now, so she won't come downstairs. Don't worry about it."
"Is she sleeping?"
Whoever that was, Faye couldn't bother to try discovering his identity now. She had her own love life to take care of now, but she certainly wouldn't let that go. If her mom was dating someone, considering the promise of privacy to the guy, she would find out, soon.
So she got back into her sneaking out plan, and tiptoed to her window and got out gently in the drizzling rain, crawling carefully till the ladder resting by the end of the slippery roof on the back of the house. When she finally got to the ground safely, she went straight to the street, tuning left to go to Diana's house, located only a few blocks from her place.
Diana spent the rest of that day moping about what happened earlier at Faye's. All she wanted was to make things easier for the other girl, help her adjust faster. Help her so she wouldn't get behind with school, keep her company, but most importantly, she wanted to be around Faye. She nearly lost her forever, so the last thing she wanted right now was leave the girl's side.
Things were okay the first few days Faye stayed at home. Diana went to Faye's every day after school. They kept talking for hours and caught up on their favorite TV shows during the rest of the afternoon. Eventually Diana tried to make Faye study a little as they snuggled in bed when they knew Dawn wouldn't show up all of the sudden, but every time they ended up kissing and there went their concentration. She stayed with Faye until pretty late on those days and Dawn would call Charles to let him know that she invited his daughter to stay over. If it were Diana calling, she was sure her dad wouldn't let her stay. But somehow Dawn could make that happen, and Diana was more than happy to sleep next to Faye, loving how they would warm each other up in those chilly nights.
Things were going great, but like everything in their lives, that didn't last for long. Not when Faye gets bored. She was used to Faye's bitchiness, but she was being worse than her bitchy self lately. She thought Faye was happy with her spending all her spare time with her. They were always inseparable when they were just friends, now more than ever, Diana thought that that was what Faye wanted. But apparently she was wrong.
When her crying finally faded, Diana tried to get her mind away from Faye by studying more about the Thanking Ritual she intended to do. She went through her books and bag looking for her witchcraft notes, only to realize that she didn't had it with her – it was inside the folder she left at Faye's.
Diana thought about going back there to collect it, since that page contained more than just her random notes. She couldn't help herself if all she thought about lately was Faye, which ended up reflecting in some silly doodles and hearts she would do involving the girl. She felt a slight shred of embarrassment with the thought of Faye finding that paper, reading all the way down to find how childish she was. Faye would find her so lame now.
There you go, Diana. I thought you were trying to not think about Faye for a change. She thought to herself sighing in response. Not think of Faye was like fighting a losing battle.
So she decided then that it was better to get change to go to bed, since it was the only thing she could do by that time.
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Walking through the silent streets of their neighborhood in the chilly weather, Faye quickly found herself in front of Diana's house, her legs feeling tired like she had just run a marathon even though she walked just a 5 minutes' walk. She was definitely not used to walking anymore due to all the time she had been spending lying on a bed.
She climbed gently the ladder on the back of the Meade's house that went straight to Diana's room, minding the slippery steps from the recent rain. After taking a few steps, she was facing Diana's bedroom window, the curtains closed but her room still illuminated by the light of Diana's bedside lamp. She gave their secret knock on the window, hoping that Diana would still be up and not fell asleep while reading a book, like she'd seen the girl doing several times before.
Their secret knock on the window startled Diana who was just about to fall asleep. She hm'ed annoyed, and thought about ignoring Faye's call, since she was still not pleased with what happened earlier, but then she thought about that Faye would probably be freeze outside if she didn't let her in.
Sighing heavily, Diana crawled out of layers of sheets and blankets, almost falling in the process of getting up, and closed the distance between her bed and window in a few seconds. Her heart skipped a beat when she opened the curtains to find Faye with her black hair slightly wet, rain droplets gathering over her leather jacket and nose and cheeks reddened from the cold.
"Is it still drizzling outside? Faye, what are you thinking? You could get a cold! Get in here!" She whispered in an anger tone.
"Nah, I'm okay. My badass leather jacket wouldn't let me get sick." Faye proudly stated, getting inside Diana's room, fixing her hair and shaking her sleeves to let some of the collected water fall from her jacket.
On her way inside the room, Faye's eyes just now scanned Diana's outfit. The girl wore nothing but a comfortable white t-shirt and white panties, her mouth watering at the sight as Diana turned around to close the window, her perfectly round butt so in display. Faye wanted to tease Diana about her choice of sleeping clothing, being that it was such a chilly night, but she had so many dirty thoughts racing through her mind at that moment, that if she tried to speak, probably nothing good would come out of it, so she decided to just silently enjoy the beautiful sight in front of her.
"I came baring gifts, which may ruin my badass look, but…" Faye finally broke the silent, reaching out for her back pocket, holding a red rose she had picked up on the Robertson's yard on her way there, and searched her jacket pockets for a folded paper, giving both to Diana once she found it "It's a peace offer. I'm sorry for acting like a douche today…" she looked down, not sure how to act when giving a woman flowers, considering she had never done it before.
Diana stood there speechless after been handed over a rose and folded paper. If Faye thought she would be bought by just a romantic gesture… she was right. Never in her life had she thought she would receive flowers from Faye. Much less what seemed like a love letter. Faye Chamberlain, being all romantic? Who'd have thought?
But she wasn't going to let the other girl know that her plan had succeeded already. No. Diana got her seriously mad face on, crossing her arms above her chest to finally reply "You think that's what it's gonna take? A rose and a letter? After treating me like that?" She said in a serious tone taking a pause, searching for Faye's eyes, as she dropped her hopeful gaze to the floor.
It pained Diana to see that look on Faye's eyes faintly fade away. The girl really hoped to make things right with her. Deciding stop with the other girl's misery, Diana added in a much calmer tone "I love it."
She watched as Faye's head snapped up with her eyebrows rising in surprise with her sudden change of heart. Diana closed the distance between them, throwing her arms around Faye's neck and kissing her softly on the lips.
"Well, it's a poem actually." Faye scratched her neck and looked away when the kiss ended.
"You wrote me a poem? A poem?" Diana asked stunned to say the least, instantly leaning away so she could read the poem inside the folded paper in her hands.
"Yeah, well, let's not make a big deal out of it, it's silly." Faye said, placing her hand above Diana's and closing the paper again "Could you read it when I'm gone? 'Cause I'm gonna feel stupid if you read it now…" the girl asked.
"Nah-uh! I wanna know what it says!" Diana said while slipping away from Faye's embrace so she could read her poem with Faye standing right there. "Oh, wait… On a second thought… You should be the one to read it out loud to me." She added turning around to face Faye.
"What? No way!" Faye looked offended even. She felt like she had done her part - first writing it and now even giving it to Diana. Her work as being romantic and shit was done!
"If you want to apologize, you should do it right." Diana teased narrowing her eyes to the other girl.
"I won't do it, Diana." Faye shook her head, putting on her resolved face.
"If you don't read it now, I will then!" she took a deep breath and started "I dream about the fire…"
Rushing to Diana's side, Faye pulled the paper rapidly off Diana's hand, crumpling it in the process "Please don't mock me! I know I deserve it, I was a jerk. But you know it's not usual for me to write poems, or give someone flowers. I don't even know what I'm doing, I'm just hoping it wor-…" Faye's words were cut by an intense kiss.
"You make me go insane, Faye." Diana breathed out against the other girl's lips "One minute you're treating me like trash the other you're acting like the perfect gentleme-... woman? And yes, I know this isn't like you, but I know you're trying your best to please me. And you reading it would reeeeally really please me! I could forget this afternoon ever happened…" Diana said almost in a baby voice, her pouted lip teasing Faye.
"Gosh, just give this shit to me already!" Faye rolled her eyes and took a deep breath before reading it out loud. "If it's really shitty, you promise you won't laugh? Just ask me to stop and I will, I don't wanna torture you with some lame poetry."
"I promise." Diana said, doubting she would laugh, even if it really sucked. She was too infatuated with Faye right now to make fun of her.
"Ugh, here goes nothing. Literally." Faye said and cleared her throat, before reading lazily the words written in the paper in her hands.
"I dream about the fire. Wow… That is so Faye...
Tongues of flame licking me.
My hair burns like a torch; my body burns for you.
Touch my skin and your fingers will stick.
You'll blacken like cinder.
But you'll die smiling; then you'll be part of my fire too."
"You promised you wouldn't laugh!" Faye protested, smacking Diana lightly on the arm.
"Aw, brute!" Diana laughed, rubbing her hand where Faye smacked, although it didn't hurt at all "I'm not! Really!" Diana replied still chuckling a little.
"That sounded like a laugh to me!" Faye crossed her arms against her chest and bit her lower lip, looking away.
"Hey, hey, baby", Diana closed the distance between them once again, holding Faye's face in her hands, "Look at me… I'm not laughing at you or your poem. I mean it. I just found it so like you. Intense, passionate." Diana stated, shifting her gaze from the girl's green eyes to her full lips. "You just earned yourself a hot make out session." Diana said biting her lips in return, a devilish smile spread across her face, one Faye would not see very often.
"You think that is what it's gonna take? A promise of a hot make out session? After mocking my poetry?" Faye said, echoing Diana's words from a few minutes ago "You know me pretty well." Faye laid Diana on the bed, getting on top of her and kissing her while running her soft hands all over Diana's sides.
Diana pulled Faye closer by tangling her arms behind the girl's neck, deepening their kiss. The feeling of the other girl's hand running up and down over her, as for their bodies pressed together, sent chills down her spine. It wasn't their first make out session, but this one felt a lot hotter than any of the previous ones. Maybe the tension was accumulating every time things would get hot like this, which would soon become unbearable, like a time bomb ready to explode.
Faye was certain that things hadn't got this heated before between her and Diana, not without the influence of that fatidic spell anyways. And as much she wanted to enjoy this loosy Diana, one thing bothered her, though "where's your dad?" Faye asked, interrupting the kiss, but still massaging Diana's scalp with her long fingers, trailing kisses on the girl's neck and torso.
Diana sighed reveling in the sensation of Faye's lips spreading kisses along her skin, before she replied "I don't know… Out? He has been doing that a lot lately. He has also been coming home pretty late after work. I feel like he is dating... Dating your mom, actually. I know, sounds weird, right?" She added with a chocked laugh.
Since they lost one of their parents when both girls were still pretty young, they always wished that their living parents would end up getting married. They always wanted to be as closer as they could, and with their parents dating and then marrying, they would become sisters – just as close as they always wanted to be once ago. But now… Now things had changed. Now it felt more than weird to even think about the possibility of their parents dating, since their daughters were somehow hooking up.
"Our parents? Ew!" Faye made a disgusted face, stopping her kisses for a while and thinking about the possibility presented by Diana. But then realization hit her. That man talking to my mom moments ago… "Oh shit, your dad was at my house right before I sneak out…! Ugh, EW, gross! We gotta go there, now, imagine the things they could be doing!" Faye said already getting up, but then she thought about the possibility for a moment "No, don't imagine! Oh, hell, do not imagine no matter what you do. No, no, no, get the image out of my heeead!"
"Yeah, 'cause that's smart! 'Hi Ms. Chamberlain, dad, Faye heard you two when she was sneaking out to my place and we came here to tell you that you two can't date 'cause we're doing that already…'" Diana teased pulling Faye down on top of her. As if she was sharing her thoughts with Faye, Diana couldn't help her own mind from picturing something about their parents doing... Yeah, it wasn't pleasant. "Oh, Faye…! Why would you make me imagine something like that?" She said hiding her face under Faye's neck. "And why does this feels so weird? It's not such a taboo, is it?" Diana asked slightly confused.
"No, it's not a taboo, since we don't share blood or anything, but… I don't want us to become sisters! At least not anymore." Faye resumed her kissing, her right hand full on Diana's bare thigh "'Cause let's just say all of the thoughts racing through my mind right now would be illegal in case we end up sisters." She said, kissing Diana hard on the lips.
As their tongues danced against each other, Faye's hand began to move from over Diana's thigh, going under her t-shirt, stopping at her belly, her fingers teasing around her navel, and the edge of her panties, causing Diana to freeze."Faaaye, stop…" Diana breathed out against the girl's lips, stopping the girl's hand from going any further. "I can't. I mean, we shouldn't..."
Faye opened her eyes and took a deep breath as soon as Diana's words hit her "I-I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't…" her words trailed, she was not known for herself control, but she respected Diana too much to push things with her, especially when she didn't want to screw everything up again "it's just hard, when we're together…" Faye couldn't even finish her sentences, almost as if she was slowly getting down from whichever cloud she was just in.
"I know… I feel the same." Diana replied, her eyes darting to Faye's inviting lips, trying too hard to not start kissing the other girl again "It's just that...There's still too much going on. You, our parents, how to deal with them, how to act in school… I think we should take things slow with… I mean, I don't even know what we have." Diana avoided eye contact with Faye now, not wanting to seem like she was intimating her, because she definitely wasn't. She just wanted to know if they were already on the 'calling each other girlfriend' stage.
"Hmm, something special?" Faye replied in her playful tone and chuckled, still not sure herself what they really had.
"I'm serious, Faye. We've been doing this for some time now, don't you think it's time we talk about what it actually means?" Diana hopefully asked. She knew it wasn't Faye's favorite kind of talk, but especially after today, she needed to know on what ground she was standing on.
"Yeah, I guess" Faye said, getting off Diana's lap and sitting beside her, leaving a strange space between them.
Diana analyzed Faye's uncomfortable movements, but decided to move on "Do you want to be with other people, beside me?"
"What? No!" Faye answered immediately, looking somewhat offended Diana would even ask that. "Why, do you?"
"Of course I don't! I'm just asking 'cause… If we're gonna be together, we're together, and that's it. I don't want to share you with no one else." Diana said, lowering her voice, almost ashamed of how jealous she could be when it came to Faye.
"What makes you think you're gonna have to?" Faye caressed the other girl's hand, now realizing what this was really about "Hey… Something you wanna tell me?"
"Not reall…" Diana shook her head but was interrupted by Faye's word.
"Diana, I know you. Spill."
Diana rolled her eyes. It was true, Faye knew her too well "Well, it's just, I saw today how anxious you are to getting back to school and 'getting your life back'" she air quoted, almost mocking Faye's words, showing how much they hurt her "And I know what school really means to you. Dressing provocatively and teasing boys and…" Diana paused and looked down "If you did that now, it would hurt me."
"Oh, so that what this is about…" Faye got up, walking in circles in Diana's room. This was not the kind of talk she used to have, not ever. "First of all, that's not why I want to get back. I just can't stand being in my room lying all day long. Second, of course I would not 'tease boys'" Faye air quoted in return "all day, get back home and make out with you all night. I'm not that insensitive, you know?" Faye saw Diana's mouth opening but continued anyway "So no, I don't want to be with anybody else, I don't wanna tease anybody else, and yes, I wanna be with you. Whatever that means and no matter what we have to deal with afterwards. All I know is that being with you makes me happier than I've ever thought I could be, and… I don't want it to go away…" Faye said honestly, her gaze fixed in Diana's lovely face. "So, if you want to, I want to…"
"Be my girlfriend?" Diana jumped off her bed and stood in front of Faye, her hopeful smile spread across her face, her dimples showing.
"Yes, I do. But the real question is, do YOU want to be my girlfriend, Miss Meade?" Faye held Diana's hips and brought them closer together.
"Yes, of course I do, baby" Diana kissed Faye passionately on the lips, hearing Faye chuckle lightly, probably by being called 'baby'.
Faye smiled into the kiss thinking how on earth could she get so damn lucky. She'd finally got herself someone who loved her, who cared for her, who wouldn't hurt her feelings. For once in life Faye wouldn't have to always keep her guard so up. She knew Diana, she loved Diana, since ever. So she made a silent promise to herself to make this relationship work and to make Diana the happiest girl alive.
"I just have one question…" Faye said when the kiss ended, her face still close to Diana's.
"What is it?" Diana asked, worried Faye was having second thoughts.
"I can still wear the slutty outfits though, right?" Faye asked, pushing her shirt down, revealing some more of her cleavage. "I do have a hot girlfriend I want to impress now."
"I'm already impressed…" Diana said, looking at Faye's boobs, unconsciously licking her lips "We can discuss that later, but… Please try keeping the slutiness to a minimum, I'm not sure I can beat up every guy that looks at you. Or maybe I should just stamp 'Diana Meade's property' on your ass" Diana said playfully, kissing Faye again while her hands softly caressed Faye's back, teasing her ass by the end.
Diana closed her eyes and simply enjoyed how overwhelmed she was with all these feelings, her heart still beating fast, her skin warm from being this close to Faye, every cell of her body telling her that's where she belonged - with Faye. Silence fell between them for a few minutes, as they just stood there, holding each other, when Faye spoke up "Being like this with you, makes me feel…"
"Whole?" Diana completed her sentence.
"Yes…" Faye whispered, holding Diana tighter.
"There's so many things I'm still afraid of. Like how we're going to deal with our parents. I mean, we can't keep sneaking around forever… But I feel so strong when I'm with you, like Wonder Woman, like we can accomplish anything." Diana said, resting her head on Faye's neck and taking in her sweet scent.
"Wonder Woman? I like it. Do we get to fly an invisible jet and have badass whips?" Faye raised her eyebrow when Diana's body flinched at the simple mention of the word 'whip'. "I'm just kidding. So, girlfriend… From now on, I'm walking blind here. What's our next step?" Faye asked, trying to make her whip joke go unnoticed.
"Well, you still own me a date, don't you think I'd forget about that…" Diana said, narrowing her eyes to the girl in front of her.
"Okaay, a date. Got that. Anything else, madam?" Faye kissed her girlfriend's cheek.
"Well, you could always spend the night… I sleep better when I'm with you…" Diana said trying to make it sound the least dirty possible, as she headed to her bed, her cheeks burning at her confession.
"Hmm, tempting…" Faye licked her lips when Diana already started pulling her towards the bed "But I shouldn't. Quite honestly, I'm having a hard time controlling myself just standing here next to you, especially when you're wearing…" Faye thought it wasn't necessary finishing her sentence, Diana's panties and t-shirt were self-explanatory.
"What? You know I don't like wearing pants to sleep." Diana said in an innocent tone, kneeling down her bed.
"Oh yes, I so do. And for that I'll forever be grateful for the rest of my life. But not right now, 'cause…" She found herself already taking steps towards Diana on the bed "Ugh, no-no-no! I wanna do this right! I promised that, remember? So, I'm gonna head home. I made that clone spell and well, we never know. Besides your dad could get back home and if my mom awakes that clone, things could get really messed up…" Faye started babbling, trying to get her mind off Diana thighs, but it was clear she was struggling with Diana's rule to take things slow.
Diana, in return, found Faye's attitude nothing but adorable, how she stumbled in words and tried to remove her eyes from her thighs but simply couldn't. In a gentle movement, she got out of bed and cupped her girlfriend's face, leaving a sweet kiss on her lips "I understand. Thank you." Diana simply said, letting Faye know how grateful she was that she was trying to resist her urges, but not saying she also had a devilish little voice inside her telling her to simply push Faye into her bed and make love to her already.
"Yeah, yeah." Faye shrugged and smiled "C'mon, I'll tuck you into bed so I can give you a proper goodnight kiss." she said, leading Diana back into her bed and pulling the covers so the girl was warm and comfy in bed. "Goodnight, girlfriend." Faye leaned and kissed Diana passionately on the lips, her heart racing. "I love you."
"Goodnight, Faye. I love you too." Diana lingered in the moment, loving the treatment she was receiving and knowing she would be missing Faye as soon as she left the room.
"Since your dad's not home, I'll go out through the kitchen's door. The last thing I want is fall on the slippery roof and get myself some extra hospital time." Faye said, already listening to the rain pouring once again outside.
"Okay. Please take the umbrella in the kitchen, I don't want you getting sick." Diana said, shifting in bed and making herself more comfortable.
"Alright, I will. See you tomorrow?" Faye asked, heading to the door.
"As always" Diana nodded.
"Okay, I'll see you then." Faye smiled and turned the lights off, looking in Diana's direction just one more time "Oh, and by the way, I like 'Fayana' better." Faye chuckled, remembering the girl's notes.
"Hey! That was private, you know! How rude to go on reading a girl's notes like that…!" Diana blushed trying to sound offended, but finding Faye's comment adorably cute "But that's good. I like 'Fayana' better too."
"So, 'Fayana' it is. Sleep tight, Diana bear." Faye smiled and closed the door behind her, taking the umbrella like Diana requested and heading back to her house, loving the smell of rain on her way home.
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After climbing her roof, when she step foot in her room again, her clone was still there sleeping sound. Taping her clone self on the shoulder, she sat on the bed, removing her boots.
"Good evening, hotty." her clone self said, getting up and already caressing Faye's abdomen, her chest touching Faye's back.
"Uh, I forgot I did that to the spell...!" she rolled her eyes, remembering about a tedious night she decided to play with herself. Literally.
"What? Don't you wanna play again?" clone Faye asked, pouting and sounding disappointed "You know I can…"
"No! Thanks, but no. Not tonight, anyways. I got someone in mind…" her eyes wondered, the taste of Diana still fresh on her lips, and she was not going to waste that with another one of her foolish jokes. "Thanks for the offer, though. You're still smoking hot." Faye laughed, looking at the perfect replica of herself. "Now, scram." she touched her replica's forehead and it immediately disappeared in a white light.
Quickly changing back into her PJ's and feeling exhausted from her night walk, she threw herself in bed. She was about to drift into sleep when she noticed her cellphone by the nightstand. She was such in a hurry while leaving to apologize to Diana she left home without the device. She then reached for the cellphone to give a check on it, only to find that she received a text message a few minutes ago. Who else would have texted her this late at night other than Diana herself.
"Listening to the rain & can't stop thinking abt U. But then, I already do that all day.
Hope U got home ok. Missing my GF already...
Sweet dreams bb. I 3 U
Di."
Faye thought about replying, but she didn't want to wake her girlfriend in case she had already fallen asleep. So she decided to text her first thing in the morning, and went to sleep with a wide smile across her lips at the thought she could finally call Diana her girlfriend.
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A/N: I wanna thank kwynterx95 for suggesting that Faye's poem from the books to be used on a Fayana fic. It was really what was missing to make Faye that lovesick for Diana in this first chapter! So thank you, bb! xx 3