This is my first story and I haven't really written in a long time so please forgive any spelling or grammatical errors. This is an AU story and doesn't follow cannon at all.
Disclaimer: None of the Faking It characters are mine.

Chapter 1

Present Day

(Karma POV)

"18 years...and now what do I do, how do I figure out what my future looks without her by my side?" I cry into my pillow while my cocker spaniel Henry looks at me with sympathetic eyes. He hasn't left my side for hours and has watched as I slowly unraveled after what I know is my final conversation with Amy. Memories have flashed though my mind with aching speed. Amy and I swapping letters in Mr Nick's history class, picking out our prom dresses and being so excited to look like grown ups, the first time we kissed in her bed, the fight we had in my car that turned into a marathon make out session, cooking for her birthday and surprising her with a new camera and the look of adoration she gave me, and lastly the fights we had after I lied to her...

I read the last message she sent me, "Karma, stop calling and trying to contact me. We're over and I ask that you respect that. I hope you will be happy and that you can work through your issues. Goodbye" I have read it countless times, it's burnt into my brain and yet I still can't accept that it's over. For so long we have been Karma and Amy, I think that's half the problem. I don't know how to be just Karma anymore. If the person who loved me wouldn't stay...who in their right mind would want to? I don't know how to deal with pain so I do what I've been trained to do, I pick up my laptop and start typing my thoughts.

Dear Amy, I have no intention of sending this to you but if I could I'd like to start at the beginning to explain and ask for your forgiveness.

"We didn't really have the most auspicious start and I certainly would never have imagined that you would be the only person I've ever really loved. You were a nerdy 8 year old with braces and bad hair, I was thin and gangly. We were an odd pair, always fighting and making up as young girls often do. But we had a genuine fondness for each other and always had each others backs and that never changed over the next 18 years. I watched you grow up and date Clinton, Adam, Andrew and eventually Felix. You watched me date Bryan, obsess over Liam and be silly with Sean. I watched as you buried your grandmother and father, rebuilt your relationship with your Mom and half sisters Lauren and Jamie . We drifted apart somewhat after high school, the thrill of college and new experiences meant we hardly ever saw each other except to grab a quick cup of coffee between classes occasionally. We met to celebrate your 21st birthday, you got so drunk we had to pull you off the table when you decided you had to dance to FloRida (who you hate!). After college you followed your heart and became a teacher, and I mine by becoming a journalist for the Austin Tribune. You had met Felix in college and you had an easy relationship that always seemed drama free, you were happy and so was I being single and traveling around the country chasing down whatever story I was writing at the time. We kept in touch via email and facebook, we were good friends but nothing more. That is till the day I got a message from you that would change both of our lives, and we didn't even know it.

Hi Karms

I have no idea where you are right now but I could really use a friend. Jamie has been diagnosed with Leukemia...and it's not looking good for her. The Doctors caught it really late :'( Please give me call if or when you can"

Love Amy

So that's chapter 1 please let me know what you think, and if the story should be continued