AN; Hello thank you for taking your time to actually read this, this story is of course about the vampire diaries and the main couple will be Damon and Elena this fanfiction is sort of non-canon from episode 5x10 I will try to update as much as I can which will be once a week or at max once every two weeks. I hope you like and to keep this from becoming two pages long I will end it here.

Elena was sitting on the couch in shock so lost in her thoughts that she didn't even feel the heat from the warm glowing embers in the fireplace. She looked as her dad's journals burned in the fire as tears rolled down her face she was so tired of crying, but how could she not Damon had just broken up with her rambling some nonsense of how he thought he was bad for her; absolute crap she thought, how in the world could he possibly be bad for her, he was the one who believed in her when everyone else thought she needed to be fixed, he was the one who made her feel alive. Deep down Elena knew the only reason he broke up with her was because he felt guilty and hated himself for what he did to arons family and how she found out.

The thing is he did not seem to get the prospect that Elena would not judge him for what he did. He was tortured for five years and wanted revenge plus it's not like she didn't know the person she was dating or fell in love with, she loved every single part of him the good bad and ugly the thing is she didn't think he loved himself enough to let her in at these times which was painfully evident if the breakup was any indication.

She heard him pacing upstairs probably mentally cursing himself in any way possible she knew he loved her she just had to give him time and as she stood on her unsteady legs she wiped away any residual tears that were on her face and headed upstairs to his room.

Damon was angrily putting on his leather jacket when he heard his door creak open he braced himself for a lecture from Stefan of how he shouldn't have pushed Elena away and blah blah blah the usual but when Elena stepped through the doorway any lingering remnants of anger and tension drained away from his body.

"Hey" she breathed out, even though she was around five feet away Damon swore he could feel her warm minty breath against his face he relished in the feeling for a split second before he came to his senses and snapped out of it. "Hi" Damon responded in a stone cold monotone he internally winced as he saw a look of hurt cross her face. It's for the greater good it's for the greater good, you broke up with her for her sake don't back down, Damon reminded himself in his head as he watched Elena step closer to him.

Elena watched Damon as she moved closer to him, he had changed his clothes and as she stepped closer she could tell his hair was wet from a shower huh classic Damon she thought spend one day in a cell and showers the first chance he gets. As her eyes traveled down his fit form clad in black she had to desperately remind herself that they were broken up and she couldn't do what she would normally do which would be to grab him and kiss him senseless.

His eyes were guarded and as he looked at her with his steely cold eyes. "I just came up to talk-" Elena's sentence was interrupted by a groan of protest from Damon who was already shaking his head no sensing he was about to say something in a form of protest she vamped forward him closing the distance between them . She put her hands on his forearms, she grinned as he briefly closed his eyes a sign of weakness when her soft hands rubbed up and down his arms.

" Damon I know why you pushed me away , you feel guilty you think because of your past actions that you are not worthy of my love but you are I love you , all of you and I want you to know that will not change –not even now when we're broken up –(she slid her hands up till they were around his neck )I need to know that you know that" Elena gulped slightly as she waited for his response what was actually ten seconds felt like eternity to her before he replied ." I know that Elena " he breathed out earnestly " but it doesn't change anything I am bad for you and the fact that you don't know that and don't recognize it is a prime example of why we can't be together."

He started to walk past her but she grabbed his wrist " so that's it we're just done , after our perfect summer together , after all we have been through your just going to give up, where's the Damon who was selfish I never thought I would say this but I miss him , because that Damon wouldn't let me go."

"Elena –" " no , no don't interrupt me " Elena wailed too caught up in her anger at his inability to see that what he thought was the right thing was the wrong thing . " Was this all a game to you was that it huh, you wanting me , you flirting with me , you, you just doing everything physically and mentally possible for me to fall in love with you while I was with Stefan . Was I just a prop in your plan to torture Stefan because as soon as I do love you you're pushing me away no matter how much I beg you not to, do you even love me?"

She voiced cracked as she spoke the last four words all the fury and fight draining out of her. Damon heard the tears in her voice and shuttered at the thought that he had once again had made her cry, yes while he was in shower he listened to each heartbreaking sob she let out sobs that I caused he thought. She was crying really hard right now her body shaking form the hard sobs that were racking through her petite form.

He gathered her into his arms and breathed in the scent of her coconut shampoo the same shampoo that was sitting in a rack in his- their shower he wasn't really sure now. She had convinced him to buy it a week ago after she got tired of her old one…

''But Damon I've been using the strawberry scented one for a whole month now I want a new one "

"Elena why does it have to be $300 though' Damon teased lightly

"For the guy who wears $250 shirts that might I say get ripped by me quite often but never seem run out – you shouldn't be talking"

"Elena clothes are a totally different story plus you don't seem to be worrying about the cost of my shirts when you parade around the house in them"

Elena huffed playfully "you know I don't know why we are having this conversation anyway, I know and you know that you would get me anything because you love me that much" Elena winked

Damon groaned and laughed "you know what I think you're right"

The memory faded away as Damon rubbed her back soothingly "of course I love you and in no way were you a pawn in any plan to make Stefan miserable. You are too valuable for that and I love you way too much to use you like that" "do you promise?" Elena sniffled into his shoulder. Damon gave a light chuckle '' I promise'' he said gruffly.

Elena unburied her face from his shoulder and he tucked a strand of hair behind her ear while brushing her tears away with the pads of his thumbs. She nuzzled her face in his palm and smiled slightly. "You know –"

Damon murmured " I was going to go to the grill and get shitfaced drunk to forget about all of this but its late and crawling into bed with you seems like a much better idea" she laughed " it sounds like a good idea to me too" she whispered . Both of them mutually decided to commence their relationship much to Elena's relief and relive all their frustrations by taking it out on each other in the most pleasurable way possible.

Elena looked around trying to asses her surroundings it seemed that she was in the Salvatore living room "I see you've found the blankets" Damon's voice echoed from across the room she felt all the tension drain from her as her body relaxed in his presence.

She looked down to see her lower half covered in a beautifully woven blanket "my mother made that one" he stated " Elena look there is something I need to tell you. Damon came closer to her so he could cradle her face her eyes fluttered closed at the gesture. "I'm sorry but I never loved you, you were right it was all a game it's been Katherine I will always love Katherine it will never be you. (Damon spoke gently and low) I cannot believe you fell for it that you could believe that I would ever love you and now that I got what I wanted I don't need you anymore I need Katherine, the love of my life"

Elena's eyes snapped open at the words and her eyes started to tear up she tried so hard not to cry in front of him but it was futile her heart felt like it was being shattered into a million pieces as the tears rolled down her face.

Elena woke up with a gasp her heart beating wildly she turned around in bed only to see Damon sleeping peacefully beside her she reached over and stroked his cheek to make sure that this was real that she was in bed beside him in a world where he was in love with her and only her .

She wrapped her leg around his and nestled in beside him, trying to get comfortable to go back to sleep, this was real she thought he loves me …. But then what the Hell did that dream mean?