Chapter 1: Lost In Thoughts

AN: I do not own VA! Richelle Mead does! And this is actually my first fanfiction so i hope you like it! oh! And also it would be really nice if you would review! Alright then, ENJOY! :D

I remember as a kid, I used to watch the raindrops as they race down my window. Whenever I do it, it calms me. And right now, there's nothing I need more than to be calmed.

Yesterday was the happiest day of my life, you could say. Yesterday was the day, the love of my life, my Russian god…Dimitri, was turned back into a dhampir. You see, not too long time ago, there was a strigoi attack at the academy. Lots of morois were taken hostage. The guardians including Dimitri and well…myself went on a mission to rescue them. Unfortunately, Dimitri was caught and he was bitten. I shuddered at the horrible memory. You might wonder how was it possible that Dimitri, who people calls god, could get caught. Well, I know. If it wasn't because he was so worried about me and my safety, he would've been able to protect himself. Even as he was caught, when he was attacked, his warm, chocolate brown eyes were on me, filled with so much love and concern. He's afraid that if he was killed or worse, turned. Who would protect me?

At the thought, tears threatened to fall from my eyes. So let's just skip that part to the present. After traveling across the world to find him and, as we promised each other if one of us was turned, kill him. I finally found him. My head told me that this is the right thing! This is what Dimitri—the real dhampir Dimitri would have wanted. But my heart told me differently. I'm not ready to loose him. I doubt I'd ever be. So yeah I kinda fail to kill him.

But while I was in Russia, I met a couple of spirit users who gave me the idea of turning back a strigoi. They said it might be possible. And that was it. Knowing that it might be possible, I did everything, everything I could to bring Dimitri back. When I got what I need, a stake charmed by a spirit user, I realized that only a spirit user could do it. And it just occurs to me right there that the person who could do it was…Lissa. Yes, Lissa, my best friend, my sister, my bond mate. So you see how much I'm risking for him.

Lissa successfully staked him. And now Dimitri was a dhampir again. You probably wonder why I'm sitting in my dorm room, tracing the raindrops on the window with my finger as they race down instead of being with Dimitri. Well, yesterday after Dimitri was turned back. He avoided me. He wouldn't talk—no he wouldn't even look at me. Not even a 'thank you'. It's all Lissa. Little does he know that it was I who travel across the world to find a way to help him. It was I who risked breaking Viktor out of prison just to get help from his spirit-using brother, Robert. It was I who got that charmed stake in the first place. And it was I who cried my heart out every night since he was gone.

Lissa hasn't been anymore helpful since she's basically with him all the time. I talked to her once about this. And all she said was, he needs time. Well fuck that! I'm not going to sit around while Lissa is getting all of Dimitri's gratitude.

The decision is made, I'm gonna go see Dimitri, who is still locked up because the others still don't trust him. And talk to him. I have to make sure that things are alright again between us. I've lost him once; I can't even begin to imagine what it must feels like if it happens twice.

So I quickly change into a black tank top and a dark pair of jeans. Then I hurried out of my room.

There goes the first chapter! Sorry it's a bit short. What do you think? Good or bad i would really like to know! I'll update the next chapter very soon!

Thanks for reading!xx Prim