Título: J'ai rêvé
Fandom: The Mortal Instruments
Claim: Jace Wayland. Alec Lightwood.
Disclaimer: They belong to a certain Cassandra Clare (although a thousand people claim them)
Summary: Sometimes Alec thinks (he wishes he knew) how it all would be if he hadn't fallen in love with Jace in the first place. —Drabble, Alec&Jace. Para Laura.
Note: It's the second Jace/Alec I wrote ._. So, huh, if it's horrible tell me and blabla, you know.
Note2: For Laura~ It should say it's for Christmas, but the truth is it's just because I want to, and because her review all fangirl-ish inspired me to write this (why, I don't even know). I hope you like it :3
Note3: Thaaaaaanks to Jackie for translating it and Meli for the correction :D
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«Last night I dreamt we kiss on a bench in the evening»
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Sometimes Alec thinks (he wishes) how it would be if Jace kissed him. If the kiss would be like he's been imagining since-he-can't-even-remember-when (fast, violent, a bit delicate, but no, not really) or if it'd be completely different (slow, soft, so unlike Jace). Alec thinks so much about it, it's almost ridiculous (barely normal, but not in a creepy, obssessive way, no). Sometimes Alec just closes his eyes and imagines the whole scene. (How the kiss would be unexpected, but not really, spontaneous, but carefully planned, and only described as indescribable. How Alec would be the first to break the contact and act like nothing unusual had happened, smiling a bit, because that's how Alec -wants to be- is). But then he opens his eyes and calls himself an idiot for thinking about it, because he's aware, that won't ever happen.
Sometimes Alec just laughs (like a maniac, hardly and out loud) because if he didn't do that and pretended everything was okay, he'd -possibly, probably- go find something to kill (a demon, a something; just to prove himself -to prove Jace- that he can do it, that he's capable of letting his frustrations out too, that he doesn't punch pillows like a silly girl, that he's smart enough, strong enough to go out and hunt, that...) and then he'd be the one ending up hurt. He lies on the bed until it's over and he thinks (he pretends) that the heavy pressure on his chest disappears.
Sometimes he even goes to Isabelle.
("Izzy," he'd whisper, and Isabelle would probably just look at him sideways and move a bit to her right to give him some space on the bed. And Alec would go there, resting his head on her shoulder, closing his eyes and relaxing, almost without moving, for a while. Then she'd whisper something like «He's not worth it» or «Maybe you should tell him» that would sound hesitant even to her.)
But sometimes, sometimes he just goes out of his room and stands in front of Jace's door, almost paralyzed. There are times when he enters the room and starts talking with Jace for a while, but there are also times when he just stands there for a long time and then goes to his own room again, or Isabelle's, or out, or far away (because those times, he doesn't even trust himself, because that longing is so overwhelming he doesn't know what to do).
Sometimes Alec thinks (he wishes) how it would be if Jace kissed him. But sometimes he thinks (he wishes he knew) how it all would be if he hadn't fallen in love with Jace in the first place.