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4 months ago, Jacob was almost killed when he was bitten by a vampire who was trying to get to nessie.
She loves him to much to see him get hurt, so she must leave him in order to save him.
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This was going to be hardest thing I was ever going to have to do in my lifetime.
Which we both new was going to last, a very long time.
I couldn't stand the thought of him getting hurt, I loved him to much.
How could live with myself if I was the reason he died? The truth is I wouldn't.
Every night when I would sleep all I saw was Jacob, all I saw was Jake dieing because of me.
My father supported me on this, My mother didn't.
My father understood me, he knew why I had to, For he had done it before to my mother.
My mother knew what it was like, she didn't want to have a repeat of what happened years ago.
But this wasn't up to them, it was up to me.
Jacob has giving me everything I have ever asked for, it would be selfish to keep him here when his life is at stake.
And I am not a selfish person.
I can here him outside already, he's waiting for me to come and talk to him. He knows something's up, I'm going to have to tell him.
I walk to the window and peer my head out, Without a doubt I know he has seen me.
"Hey beautiful" He says with a smile.
I smile back at him, knowing it doesn't meet my eyes.
"Hey Jake, I'll be down in a minute."
"Alright"
His face, his pristine and perfect face is all I can see when I walk down the stairs into the living room. While in the living room I see my father and mother sitting on the couch, they both look up at me with care and pity in there eyes. In my head I say
Tell her I'll be fine.
My dad shakes his head, and I walk around the house to the outside of my window.
There he is, standing there. Leaning against the house.
I walk over to his side.
"Hey" I say
He smiles and puts his arm around me.
"I've missed you."
And then he does something that makes me want to go back upstairs and think about this some more.
He kisses me.
His warm lips touch mine softly making my whole body shake. The heat of his body is enough to make me sweat while I'm in my jacket.
But I know what I have to do.
I pull away and speak.
"Look, Jake I need to talk to you about something."
He pulls away too and stands up straight, he can tell I'm being not joking around.
I can feel my heart beating, A lump in my throat forms.
"Were leaving" I somehow manage to say.
"Your moving out?"
"No Jacob, were leaving town."
He looks at me confused.
"You leave town every weekend for blood.."
My eyes start to sting I fight them back with all the power I have and say.
"Were leaving, forever."
He still doesn't look like he gets it.
"Your not coming with us, me and all the Cullen's are leaving town and never coming back" My voice is weak, The lump in my throat is so big that it hurts.
"But, Nessie you- you can't just do that."
"I don't have a choice."
"No you can't, if you leave then I will have to come after you."
A tear goes down my face, I can tell how much I have hurt him
"Jake, I don't want you to come with me, I want nothing to do with you"
"Don't you see it Jake? We come from different worlds. Were not ment for each other, Your pack hates me, My family thinks your going to kill me every time you get mad, I'm tired of it."
He looks at me, For the first time I can read him. He looks as if I kicked him right in the balls and left him there to die.
His face gets mad, really mad.
"What the hell did I do? Was I not good enough for your family? Was I not good enough for you? Look at me god damn't!"
I look up at him, his anger is un-controllable, I move a step back.
"Jake, calm down. You know as well as I do that if you shift and choose to attack me that my father along with my uncles and aunts will be strong enough to rip you into shreds."
His breathing calms down, his face goes to mine.
"Nessie, if you leave, I'll have nothing"
" I know." I say.
That one broke him, I could tell by him shivering.
"I love you." He whispered.
"I know, maybe one day you'll find someone new, someone who wont hurt you like I just did".
I didn't notice how hard I was crying until I wiped a piece of hair from my face, He walks over to me, Places his hand on my shoulder and whispers.
"Please, don't do this"
I quiver.
"I have to."
"For me?"
" I've already made my choice, now it's time for you to make yours."
I hear someone come around the house, great.
It's my one and only father.
"Nessie, Its time to come in its late."
In my mind I scream at him
GO AWAY. I DON'T CARE. I'M TRYING TO TALK TO HIM.
" I don't care, Get in here now Renessme Cullen"
Before I can reply Jake starts to yell at Edward.
"YOU DID THIS! This was all apart of your plan wasn't it? You can't stand the fact that just maybe I would win for once could you?" His body is shaking, the only thing stopping him from attacking is my hand pressing against his chest.
"Jake please stop! Don't do this!"
I can barely even speak my sobs are so bad.
"Jacob, Nessie doesn't want you anymore, nobody wants you, Your simply worthless to this family and the rest of the world." There was no hatred in my fathers voice when he said that, he sounded like he was giving advice.
The anger and pain in jakes eyes cuts me like a knife, The love I have for him is still strong the ache I feel when he looks hurt kills me. Just as it did 4 months ago when he almost died because of what I have done.
Once again in my head I tell my father something in my head
Please dad, I need a minute, Just one more minute. If you stay it will only make it harder.
He nods and walks away.
"Jake, I don't want to hurt you. I hope good things come to you. Maybe someday the imprint will brake and you can find love once again, Just promise me one thing"
He looks at me with his brown eyes and whispers to me.
"Why should I promise you anything?" He sounds like he has acid on his tounge.
"Because I need you to." Was all I could say.
He stares at me some more before he speaks again.
"What"
"Promise me that when I leave, You wont come after me, You'll forget I was even alive."
He takes my hand in his and speaks again.
"I will always love you, Please stay with me, We can run-away together just me and you, We could start a family I know that's what you have always wanted" His face is inches away from mine, I can feel his hot musky breath in my nostrils. The pain in my throat aches, my stomach feels like its going to fall out.
In a broken whisper I speak again.
" I don't love you like I did. If you love me as much as you say you do then you will leave me and my family alone."
I've never been a good liar, I can't even believe the words that just removed themselves from my mouth.
"Just give me one last way to remember you" He says.
"What is it jake?"
Actions speak louder then words.
He takes my face in his warm hands, his face leans into mine and his warm lips press against me with a fiery passion.
My head is screaming at me, I love him too much to see him die because of me.
I want to pull away so bad right now, But this is for Jake. I owe him that much.
His lips leave my mouth and trace my jaw, I can feel his hands inside my shirt almost burning me, The moisture from his kisses linger on my skin, I find myself pressing against him putting my arms around his chest. I wanted him to hold me closer, I wanted to feel the heat of his body against me. If I didn't love him I would take him back, and make this go further, But I can't stand the thought of him getting hurt because of me.
He picks me up, I wrap my legs around him while our lips are glued together. His hands creep up the back of my shirt to my bra strap, he traces the line to the strap down to the cup and rubs his warm hand over it, his other hand is placed on my lower back moving up and down slowly.
I know at this time I will have to pull away.
Were both gasping for air.
"Please jake, stop."
He removes his hand from my bosom, and places me back on the ground.
"Thank you." Was all I could say.
"Can you do me a favor ness?"
"Anything."
"Don't do anything reckless."
The same quote my father used on my mother.
"I promise."
He doesn't say anything, Just nods.
I look at Jake for on last time, I kiss his warm damp cheek, and whisper to him
"I'm sorry, please try and live without me."
The rain picks up again as I walk in with a new found whole in my heart, the thought of leaving jake there kills me, But this was the right thing to do.
Was it?
My mom & dad are both sitting on the couch, I don't look at any of them, I run up the steps as fast as I can crying my eyes out.
I pull off the bracelet jake gave me and through it out the window, all the pictures I rip and shred into pieces, I get rid of my bed sheets that have the smell of jake on them, I destroy the scrapbook I have of me and jake, and finally I walk over to the window reach out my hand and grab the tree branch jake climbed up on surprise visits, I crush it into thousands of pieces before the branch falls to the ground.
I close my window and cover it with new curtains, I grab a spare blanket and crawl on to my bed.
With my face on the bare mattress I start to sob, I never new loving someone, would be this hard.