Authors note- So, Im experimenting with a few oneshots. If this one gets any good reviews I might think about making a chapter story based off of it. Any who, I have only done one other oneshot... in my opinion, it was not my best, but it was a request from one of my valued readers and reviewers. And I couldnt deny her the request. This is only my second one-shot song fic, so please go easy on me. Remember to review please and let me know what you think... and if you think I should convert it into a chapter story! Thanks yall!

Pairing- Sesshomaru/Rin

Song- If you ever went away, By: John Michael Montomery

Disclaimer- Im usually not very good at these, so here goes nothing... I do not own Inuyasha, or any of the characters in this Awesome series. All credit goes to the brilliant and talented Rumiko Takahashi. Her skills are far more amazing then mine! I Do not own the song, nore do I intend to; That is being used in this story. This story is ONLY fan made and nothing more.

Rin locker herself in the bathroom. The tears streaked their way down her porcelain face. She felt like a hole had been punched through her chest and a swift blow to the gut was given just for good measure. Nothing felt as horrible as this feeling deep within her... one she had tried and failed horribly at shoving back. A deep seeded hatred was blooming in her heart... Her husband... Her mate. The man she had sworn her very heart and soul to centuries ago... He stepped out on their marriage... on their mating. And for what? A quick roll in the sack with some sleezy bitch in heat!

"Rin... please let this Sesshomaru explain himself..." The ache in his heart was throbbing. What the hell had he been thinking? With a slight shake of his head; Thats the thing... he hadnt been thinking. The Demoness had been there when he felt the need arise. She had been everything he had been looking for in a mate... many many centuries ago.

"No... I think you have done enough." Rin replied through the door. She could hear the shake in her voice. She wasnt doing a good job at staying in control of her emotions. She swung the door open with a flourish, wiping the last of her tears away from her face. A small smile made its way to her lips for him. The pain in his eyes evident.

"I think we need some time... We have been together for a long time aye shessh-Kun?" She said her smile warm despite the obvious disgust she felt when she looked at him. The demoness's red lipsick still staining his neck and face... The perfume still clinging to his clothes. "Im going to go to Kagome and Sango's for a while..." She tapered off, looking down, then nodded as she decided to allow the statement to hang in the air... She didnt dare to look in his eyes. Where every emotion he was feeling would play before her like a movie.

His heart just about lurched from his chest and fell at her feet. She was leaving? He watched her walk down the hall of their small house and into the bedroom where so much love was made. Where he should have been this night.

Id have a few more beers after work

a few more then I ought to, a few more then I used to.

hitch a ride with my old buddy john

talk about the game thats on

Yeah, hes pretty good company, but he ain't you.

Id lay my head down and try to to think

But I wouldnt sleep a wink

yeah, thats what Id do.

Rin shut the door behind her with ease and rummaged through the closet for a few duffle bags to pack her things in. She went from all over the room trying to gather as many of her things as she possibly could. It was over... She knew that. She just didnt know if she had it in her at the moment to tell him... although she was pretty sure he knew as well. Neither one willing to admit the inevitable.

Sesshomaru finally gained his barings and ran down the hall and into the room, where rin was currently zipping up her second bag full. Sesshomaru had never been one to admit defeat and didnt want to start now... He would do anything to keep her... The only person besides his family who had ever and probably will only ever see him in a weakend state.

Rin looked behind her as the door slammed oper, still trying to hurry and zip the over stuffed back sitting on their four poster bed... His four poster bed. Grabbing her bags, she began to drag them from the room, brushing past him on the way out... felling a mixture of disgust and longing fill her chest. Before she could step out the door, Sesshomaru fell to his knees on the carpet, his clawed hand catching her wrist, stopping her in her spot. She turn on her heel, a confused look playing on her face... then shock. There with head bowed and sobs slowly wracking his body was Sesshomaru. Her proud, strong and emaculent warrior... brough to his knees before her.

"Sesshomaru... Please. Let me go." Rin weakly said, trying to pull her hand free from his. A mixture of a growl was heard as he pulled her hand to his face and held it fast there. Showering her hand in wet, dessperate kisses.

But if you stay, im gonna love you

I gonna keep that promise that I made

cause deep inside I know I would be lost

If you ever went away

"Rin..." His voice was husky and strained as he tried to speak. "Please dont leave... It will never happen again. This Sesshomaru vows this to you on everything he is worth." He said finally looking up at her. The amber pools that were his eyes leaking, streaking down his perfect face.

Rin felt her heart clench in her chest. Shaking her head, she tried once again to pull her hand away, only resulting in a tighter grip.

"Its not just about tonight Sesshomaru!" She finally said, feeling her resolve breaking. "Its everyday... For the past 3 years! You never come home to me anymore! you stay out all of the night long at the bars and Im stuck here... waiting for you. When you do come home... Its like I dont even exist anymore..." Her voice began to crack and cut on her. She wiped her eyes again for the hundredth time that night.

But if you stay, Im gonna love you.

Im gonna keep that promise that I made

Cause deep inside I know that Id be lost

If you ever went away.

Rin fell down to her knees and grabbed his face in her hands, forcing him to look into her carefully constructed firm demeanor.

"I cannot be nothing but a convinience. This is not how it used to be Sessh-Kun." She said keeping eye contact with the broken warrior beside her. Without realizing, she began to use the pads of her thumb to wipe away his tears. Swallowing herself, she began to retract inside herself. "We have been over for some time now..."

Sesshomar quickly grabbed her up in his arms and held her tightly against his chest. The smell of the other womans perfume burned her nose and she felt sick from it. But the feeling of being in his arms almost made her want to stay... to wipe away the hurt from his face. But Rin was hurting to... Who was going to fix her broken heart?

"Please Rin... I will love you every day of my life like its our last! please dont leave me!" He cried into her chest. A fresh wave of tears spilled from her face. Her resolve slowly melting away even further... threatening to lay her bare for him to pick at. Before she could stop herself... she had wrapped her arms around him and burried her hands in his short, shaggy silver hair.

"I... I... I have to..."

"No!" He yelled, breaking her even further. The sound of agony piercing her like a knife...

This was his only time... or so she thinks... maybe she could just... Stay? She glanced at her bags, then shook her head roughly. No.

"Sesshomaru... I need to go." In his weakend state, she was able to wiggle away from his embrace. grabbing her bags she ran down the hall as fast as she could.

"Rin..." She heard her name... a feint call of love... the way he used to call her when their love was stronger then any bond. She stopped at the end of the hall, shutting her eyes.

"Im going to go Sessh-Kun... Ill be back... we can talk then." She reassured him as he slowly walked over to her. She turned on her heel... quickly placing a kiss to his forehead.

The sound of a door slammed... Sesshomaru stood in the hall imobilized for a few minutes... what seemed like forever.

As if a switch went off in his mind, he began to tear the clothes from his body, completely shredding the smell that lingered on them.

His shower went longer then he meant. He wanted no trace of the vile whore on his skin. His mate had left him... His mate had left with his heart.

Walking around the house, he grabbed a bottle of jack danials, going back to his room, he sat with his back against the wall... tossing the bottle back and staring at his now cold bed... tears streaked their way down his face... but no sound or indication could been seen or heard of his current state. He was a wreck.

A few weeks later, Sesshomaru only left the room to bathe, eat and gather more whiskey... His appearence was rough and haggard. There were scratch marks on his neck and face from scrubbing day by day.

Sesshomaru had finally let sleep claim him. His back protested to the current position he had held for weeks against the wall. The moon had fell like a curtain over the sun and had trapped darkness in the room.

He jerked his whiskey hazed head up at the sound of the door opening and closing. Not even caring who was in his house, he grabbed the jack and took another long swig before warm, small hands pulled the bottle away from his lips.

"I think we both have had enough of that." His eyes finally looked into the desire of his heart. She looked as beautiful as an angel. Maybe his drunken escapades had finally killed him and decided he had suffered enough.

"Come on, let me make coffee and something come you to eat... we can talk then." She said gently with a smile, while wiping his face with the palms of her small hands.

"Rin..." He slurred, swaying slightly toward her only to be met with a small kiss to his scratched face.

"Come on... Lets go talk." She said once more, pulling him to his feel...

Sesshomaru felt for the first time in a while that his heart was healing... but how long would she stay for? He had to hope she would never leave him again.

If she ever went away again... He would not live another day in that pain... He would surely die.

Authors Note- Ok, I know it went a little fast... but its just a one-shot song fic. If you read this story and like it, please please please review! Just take a few mins and let me know what you think. I would really appreciate the feedback no matter how small the response. Thank you for reading!