AN/ First fiction so be kind, set in the UK and if you are not old enough to vote and drink, you are not old enough to read it!

Disclaimers apply, my story but not my characters.

Chapter 1

EPOV

God I'm so tired.

I'm supposed to be on a "R&R break" Ha ha fucking ha, rest and relax my ass, no such God damned thing.

I look at my iphone that just wont ever shut up, it's Emily again, she's a great publicist but for the love of Christ I wish I could have just one moment when I'm not expected to be Mr Nice and perform like a bloody seal. I answer with a bored sigh, maybe she'll get the hint

"Yes Emily,what now?"

"Edward don't be so snippy with me, it's not my fault. Fox want you next Tuesday to interview for their film bites."

Oh for fucks sake! " I told you the other day and last week, I'm not doing it, I'm having a break, a holiday a little "me" time to remember who the hell I am, and where I'm going to live. No interviews, no interruptions of any kind for 6mths, that was the deal."

I pinch my nose bridge, I'm really trying not to yell at her again, Jake gives me a glare and a sideways look to Sam, my driver. I know how hard this is on him, she's his wife of 3years and they both take really good care of me, Sam drives and watches my miserable backside and Emily flashes it around, (well my face and Oscar nominated talent I'm still not convinced it's not just a pretty face that Hollywood love), not just my ass . 6 years of filming without a break, well a real one, 1 and a half to make it and the other 4 and a half trying to keep up when I did make it.

It would have been so much easier to use my real name and claim off my Uncle Carlisle, but it would have felt fake, I wanted to be me, not the Nephew of The Carlisle Cullen,

nope I was plain Anthony Masen, but for those who knew the real me Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, yes I know it's a mouthful but it's just tough! Carlisle and Esme had adopted me when I was 2, after Esme's Brother Edward Snr. and his Wife Elizabeth were killed in a car crash.

I survived purely because their car had a new child car seat, the car was smashed into head on and flipped several times, I was found still strapped in, in the upside down car in a ravine, broken arm and collarbone and many cuts but alive, sadly the same could not be said for my parents, Dad was killed outright, massive chest injuries and broken neck, my Mum survived the trip to the hospital and spent 4 days on life support but her head injuries meant she was brain dead, as next of kin the hospital had to wait for Esme to come and decide what to do, Mum was gone and with her my baby Sister, at just 23weeks gestation she couldn't have survived.

Gone. All gone in just a few split seconds a family destroyed by another's careless drunken mistake, the man driving the other car was a little battered and had a broken leg but was so drunk at the time he was just laughing, he got 15 years, is it long enough? Not for me, nothing will ever replace my parents and lost Sister.

So here I am 28 years old rich beyond my wildest imagination, but empty. I live in hotels and from film trailer to film trailer, I'm surrounded by body guards and believe me I need them, my fans can be very crazy. One once jumped me in the men's toilets at a restaurant, 18 stitches and a concussion later I learnt I can't go anywhere alone in public places, how sad boo hoo I hear you say, well imagine not even being able to take a crap in private, see how you feel then.

Calming down I let out a big breath,

" I'm sorry Emily, I know it's not your fault, please tell them I will do a couple of phone radio interviews and 3 filmed interviews, but I'm not going to the States until February, and that's final, I've been gone 3days and that's the only offer they get,"

Jake is still glaring at me, what the fuck for now? I roll my eyes at him and huff back into the seats, " Is there anything else you want to know?" I can hear Emily slamming stuff around, shit.

Her voice comes back and she's really pissed, " No Mr Masen, please enjoy your little break while us other poor bastards do the other boring mundane stuff for you" yep seriously pissed " miserable fucker" I hear muttered "Please don't trouble yourself, I will sort it all out, that is what you pay me for isn't it"

Oh shit now Sam's giving me the eye, I'm in big trouble, he pulls over the car and Audi Q7 (built like a brick shit house,)

" Emily I'm really sorry I spoke to you like that" well a man has got to start somewhere, begging " Please forgive me, I know how hard you work for me, please just tell them and then why don't you have a little holiday too, how a bout I fly you over here, spend some time with Sam." I hear her huff and sit down,Sam is giving me the stink eye, pulling that holiday crap is not going down well it would appear.

" Fine Edward, I will let them know, I will book my flights, where exactly are you anyway?" Ok, "We are in the South of the Country, Sussex I think, get the flight to Heathrow then I will send Sam to come get you, is 3 weeks enough for now?"

Sam is starting to motion for the phone, I may be a dead man in a minute,will Jake save me? Mm still scowling, perhaps not then.

" Pass me to Sam please Edward, I'm assuming he stopped the car?" Damn how did she know that, I pass the phone to Sam, he all but snatches it from me. " you are a real wanker you know that don't you?"

Nodding my head with shame I settle back against the soft leather seats, " Prat " Jake mumbles at me, yes I think I deserved that, I pretend I don't hear him, Sam is talking softly to Emily now,

" I love you darling, I know, I 'll see you soon, bye love." He tosses the phone back to me, it lands right on the bridge of my nose .

" Fuck! That shit hurts!"

I feel my nose is on fire and Jake the fucker is giggling next to me, " You big baby, stop being a girl, and be grateful he didn't shoot your sorry ass for speaking to his damn Wife like a piece of shit, I've still got a mind to smack you around a little,"

Argh,it really stings,I hold on to it wincing as I gingerly put my phone away, Jake and Sam are still sniggering, I lean back and think about my phone call with my Mum(Esme).

" Edward... are you listening to me? It's got to stop, you're so burnt out you don't seem to know what the hell you're doing any more, Dad said you stormed out of your meeting yesterday,Emily couldn't get hold of you and Jake even rang he was so worried for you,thank God for GPS, what the bloody hell were you thinking! It's enough, do you hear, enough! Dad is speaking to the studios this afternoon and Emily has booked you all on the first flight to London tomorrow night, there will be no arguments are you getting all this young man, I will not lose you again..."

Christ she was sobbing by that point, I'm such a selfish prick, she was right of course, Dad too warned me 5 months ago, so here I am in South England shut up in a car with 2 of my guards and a really fucking sore nose and not to mention the damn phone.

Alice my little Sister, well little to me at 24 sent me to this hotel in the Downs, its so isolated and quiet and above all private, a week or longer if I want it to just calm the fuck down and start thinking properly, I want a life. A real one with a wife and kids not fake women with plastic oozing everywhere and no personality, all they are interested in is the size of my wallet and dick too. What a mess, Tanya Denali, my nuts shrink back up inside just thinking of her,what was I thinking, well I clearly wasn't and that shit stops now as Mum said.

We arrive at the hotel drive,its really long, " Are you sure it's down here Sam? It looks like a farm drive, look there's cows over there."

Sam just gives me a look in the mirror, it would appear I'm still not popular, Jake snorts and tries to cover it with a cough, I roll my eyes at them both,

" Funny fuckers aren't you, I haven't seen a real cow for years, I didn't expect them on a hotel driveway, go ahead laugh it up..." Oh it really is a hotel, it's beautiful, a big pond and lawn, a few buildings too, and what a view, hills a green fields as far as the eye can see.

" We're here Edward, Sam will go and sort the check in and check security measures have been put in place, we will wait here until it's clear " I sigh " It's all good " Sam leaves the car and heads up the path, Jake is just staring at me, waiting... " Yes? "

"What's the plan then? "

I'm confused, " We are staying here aren't we?.. "

" Yes Edward, I meant what's the plan with Sam, who's going to replace him after you just gave him 3 weeks holiday with no damn thought in your brain, you need 2 guards at all times "

I felt my self getting irritated with him, " I'm not a baby, who's going to attack me Cows?

Demented flying pigeons? I can see the headlines now " Masen, bombed by flying shit, and slime'd to death by mad cows " Jake just scowls at me and gets his phone out, I hear his ear piece talking, as my door is opening Sam is standing there with a small blond man.

" Good afternoon Mr Masen,it's a real honour to have you staying with us "he is giving me a little bow too, what the fuck?

" Um thanks " I offer him my hand, his is really wet and sweaty, ugh, I feel dirty, I need to wipe that shit off, Sam's eyes are zeroed on the back of his head

" Its a beautiful place here, really quiet, Mr ..."

He stutters and takes his hand back " Oh I'm so sorry, Its Michael Newton please just call me Mike, what can I offer you Mr Masen? Tour around the grounds, we have 12 acres you know, just tell your man to leave the luggage on the front porch, I will arrange someone to take it up to your room and unpack for you, If you just follow me..."

What?

"Um Mr Newton, my guards Mr Black and Mr Uley will handle all the bags, if you can just take us to our rooms please, it's been a long day "

Sycophantic dick, there is no way his hell hotel staff are touching my stuff, that's how that shit gets on ebay, ooh pay $85 for Masens socks $300 for my pants, no thanks been there and learnt that lesson.

" Oh, of course, Mr Masen sir,"

Fantastic, Sir, way to go Edward, now I feel like a real ass.

" Just this way sir," we walk through a drawbridge gateway and into the big doorway, it's a castle,amazing. The concierge at the desk is gaping at me and blushing a little " Thank you Jessica, that will do. " Mm not very polite Mike, she's quite pretty actually, blond and a nice rack from what I can see, mm, not bad at all... I walk over to her and take her hand, she too is sweating, what is it with people here

" Pleasure to meet you Jessica " I kiss her hand, she squirms and Mike is well, I'd say he was growling, Sam and Jake step up to my sides.

" Mr Masen this is Jessica Lang my fiancée. " well fuck me, I'd be growling too if my girl was squirming at another guy, but he was quite rude to her, she could do better I'm sure, I start to lean in to give her a friendly peck on the cheek as Jake catches my eye and shakes his head slightly, I sigh, spoiling my fun again. Jessica looks at me from under her lashes and says in a breathy voice , " Mr Masen please don't hesitate to let me know if there's anything I can do for you..."

Say what now? With her fiancée just a foot away and she's offering anything, mm " Why thank you Ms Lang, I'll be sure to let you know if there is anything, it was great meeting you." I turn to Mike and Jake Mike is looking a little pale around the gills, perhaps Jessica is not really the one for him after all.

" This way Sir " he is still simpering at me " I have put you in the Norfolk suite, and your men in the March suite, I hope you will find everything to your satisfaction, please just ring down if you should require something not immediately available, may I just say thank you for you gracious patronage, I will leave you now."

He leaves practically bowing from the room, I see Sam and Jake holding in their laughs, I too am smirking ass kissing ass hole.

As I turn around laugh guffaws erupt from the boys.

" Ha hahahahaha Oh I'm going to pee my pants in a minute or die, what a dick yes sir no sir may I suck your dick sir..." Sam is crying with laughter

" Laugh it up boys, we are staying here for 7 days, do you think I can just never leave the room, I don't think I can put up with Mike and his kowtowing "

Sam creases up even more " YOU have 7 days I'm going to get my precious tomorrow, I wont have to hear that again, ha-ha,what you going to do Cullen? Oh I think Garrett should come down, he would love it, I can see him now, threatening to cut a bitch and waving his gun around," he crawls off to a door I assume is a bathroom.

Jake is now a little more sobered up " You wont mess with that blond bint downstairs will you? That's just the sort of thing we're trying to get away from, she's got her guy Ed, don't mess with it, Big C would have my guts you know,..."

I throw myself on to the bed, four poster would you believe, I think it's as old as the castle, the mattress is a little soggy for my taste, " No, she's trouble, but a little flirty fun never hurt anyone Jake, you don't have to tell my Dad... so are you going to call Garrett? I really don't want to upset Sam any more than I have managed to already this week, we have got a little bit of travelling to do next week, but at the moment I'm not moving for at least 3 days, can you sort it for him or Paul?"

I would prefer Garrett, I've known him for so long and he helped me with the Tanya mess, Jake settles in the chair across from me and gets his phone out, " Hey G, can you get down to Sussex ASAP? Yeah... Ed has fucked up with Sam and Emily... ain't that the truth...cool man, its the Dukes Castle Hotel, Downsford,ok I'll send the chopper up for you, yeah good...ok .. see ya." He threw the phone away from him,I duck instinctively, my nose is still hurting.

" Well?" " Yeah he'll be here in 24hrs, I'll send the hotel chopper for him its quicker,he's in Wales visiting family, oh by the way you owe him double rate for the week for inconvenience, !" He chuckles over that last statement, I'd pay him triple, hell I'd pay them all more but I think Emily would pitch a fit,

" Yeah Jake that's fine, can we go for a stroll in the grounds? Its kind of suffocating in here, can you BOLO for Mick the dick? " Jake cracks a smile, " Sure Ed, I'll fetch Sam " he leaves the room, I sigh and stroll over to the windows,lead criss-crossed and wonky, really old this place, I wonder how Alice found it.

I stare across the gardens and see a small boy walking with a little girl carrying a ball, she looks very small, maybe 2? A woman comes out from behind one of the buildings and jogs over to them, she catches up to the boy and grabs them both and swings them around, they are laughing, I catch a glimpse of her face, she is just stunning, I feel all my breath seem to leave my body, and my chest gets tight and hurts to breathe, am I having a heart attack? Dad told me that shit would catch me out one day, that's what drink and dope will do to you.

She puts the boy down and holds the girl away from her face and signs something to her, oh ... poor kid that's really tough or maybe she uses that baby sign I've heard about, she really doesn't look very old, the boy runs off with his ball and she takes the little ones hand and they walk off, I hear the boys coming back in.

" All set Edward? The dick and blondie are out of sight for the moment "

" Yeah lets go" we rush outside into the foyer and into the gardens, mm, grass and what the fuck is that other smell...

" What the fuck is that smell? It's like something died out here..." Sam snorts " It's cowshit Edward, welcome to the country " Ugh, well the country side can keep it..

" What's over this side? Maybe we can get downwind of it.." I start walking briskly across the lawn, just as we reach the other side away from the smell, actually it's not so bad after a few minutes,

" Jake how old is this hotel?" He looks over to me with a frown " What am I? A walking history expert? Old as fuck and it looks like its going to fall down soon too...how the hell should I know, ask the pix, she sent you here."

Well I guess that told me then, hopefully he'll cheer up soon,or this is going to a REALLY long holiday...Someone save me please...

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