Ch 1

"Mu—Mento, it's 5AM in the morning. What's going on?" asked a tired BB as he sat up on his top bunk. The worried eyes of his former leader stared back at him through the screen of the Titans communicator.

"Rita lost the baby Beast boy. Larry caught her trying to kill herself. We're at the hospital now. She's on suicide watch. I figured your face would help her. I'll send you the coordinates now. See you soon Garfield." BB cringed at his name. "Yeah see you soon Mento," he said as he lied back down. He sighed, got up, and made his way to Robin.

Knocking at his leader's door, he could hear Robin's stealthy footsteps to the door and the smell of Starfire's perfume. Before he could wonder why Starfire was sleeping in the Boy Wonder's room, a tired Robin came to the door, surprised to see BB of all people at his door so early in the morning.

"Sorry to disturb you Robin but I've got some serious business I need to take care of with the Doom Patrol. I just got a call from Mento. It's an emergency. I have to leave now."

"All right Beast boy I'll book you a flight and I need to put in a temporary replacement for you while you're away. I'll also let the other Titans know."

"Thanks Robin," BB smiled. "I appreciate it, and I promise to keep in touch to let you know what's going on."

"Take care of yourself," said Robin as he pat him on the shoulder and left for the computer lab.

BB quickly packed his things. He didn't know how long he would be gone for, but he hoped it wouldn't be too long. He was very worried about his adoptive mother and would do whatever he could to see her get better again.

Onto the roof he prepared for flight, turning into a flying animal that could support his luggage. Taking off into the sky, he didn't get that far when he smelled lavender and herbal tea. Turning to the tower one more time, he found Raven looking out at him from the window of her room. He swore he saw a light in her eyes and a brief smile on her face, but they soon turned blank again. 'Dude I must be seeing things,' he thought. As Beast boy he would be smiling at Raven and waving goodbye. He could only wave a wing, watch her wave back, and took off towards the airport.

Sitting and waiting at his gate made him nervous. He didn't know what he would find once he saw Rita again. Rarely did he see her fall apart. She was the strongest woman, besides Raven, that he had ever met in his life. She took care of him, raised him, and took his mind off of what he had left behind as a child born in Africa.

Leaning back in his window seat, he watched the airplane take off from the ground. He wanted to close his eyes and get some rest, but he was concerned. Could Rita bounce back from the loss of her child? Would the Doom Patrol ever be the same? He wondered if that's why Mento wanted him to come back so badly. Was he going to try and convince him to become a part of the team again? He didn't want to think anymore as he closed his eyes and went to sleep.

Stepping off the plane, BB got his luggage and flew to the coordinates Mento had given to him of the hospital's location. Landing in a deserted place near the hospital, he became himself again and walked right into the entrance. Before he could calm the beating of his heart, he felt himself crushed by the arms of Robot Man.

"Cl—cliff can't breath!" he wheezed.

"Uh sorry runt it's just good to see you, you know?"

"Where's Rita?"

"Come on kid," he said as he started walking, BB followed.

The hallway seemed so long to BB. He never had good memories of the hospital growing up, and they gave him the creeps. It felt so cold and unwelcoming, and his animals instincts told him to run. He ignored them and kept walking.

"We're here kid. Mento and Larry are with her."

Beast boy opened the door, and Mento's face is what first caught his attention. He looked tired and sad. With Larry he could never tell but he knew he cared about Rita as well. He could see Rita was sleeping, and he couldn't help how peaceful she looked sleeping. What really caught his eye were the straps around her arms and legs that were tied to the bed.

"Hey Steve, Larry," he smiled sadly and was surprised as Larry hugged him. "It's good to see you."

"You to Beast boy," said Larry as he went back to his spot on the window sill.

Beast boy came to his former leader and adoptive father's side. "She looks comfortable."

"They had to sedate her. She was so hysterical Beast boy."

"I'm so sorry."

"She wanted more than anything to be a mother and have her own children. You know we've been trying for a while. She seems so desperate. I wish I had the strength to tell her that's it's not healthy for us to be trying anymore. The doctors say she can't have children, but she just won't listen to reason. It's not like we haven't considered adoption, but we're heroes. It's not exactly the best environment to be raising a child."

"How do we help her?" asked BB.

"I've hired an out of state Psychiatrist. She needs help that we can't give, but we can be here to support her every step of the way," said Steve.

"All right I'm in," said BB enthusiastically.

"Ga—Garfield. You came," she smiled as tears ran down her face. "I've missed you."

BB sat by her bedside and smiled at her. "Yeah of course I came. I was worried about you. I—I'm so sorry for your loss Rita, but you can't do this to yourself. It's no way to live. I'm here to help in any way I can to get you better. I love you."

"I love you to sweetie," she squeezed his hand. "So, how are your friends doing?"

"Well Robin and Starfire became a couple in Tokyo. Cyborg's been coming in an out of the tower a lot. I think he's dating to keep his mind off Bumblebee, she's the leader of Titans East. He's in love with her, but she has a boyfriend. Raven's actually come out of her shell a little. It's not easy with having to keep her emotions in check, but she's spent more time with the team."

"And you?" Rita asked.

"Well I told you about the whole Terra situation that last time we talked on my communicator. Recently I've seen here around campus with her boyfriend and her friends. I guess after Tokyo I've been just trying to come to grips that I had to let her go, for my sanity."

"You loved her. It's understandable, but I'm glad you're moving on with your life."

"I wasn't in love with her. I know now I was in love with the idea of her and me."

"It's too bad. From what you've told us about Terra I think you two would have made a good couple," said Steve.

"I disagree," said Rita. "She wasn't right for you Garfield," she smiled, "but I have no doubt you'll find someone who loves you for you."

"Thanks," BB smiled. "So…?"

"I—it was a girl. They folded her into a blanket, and I got to say goodbye. Sh—she was so small. They had to wrestle her out of my arms," she cried as she covered her face with her hands. "It's not fair!"

Steve held his grieving wife in his arms as she cried. She held onto him for dear life, burring her face in his chest while he smoothed out her hair, bringing it away from her face. "I think that's enough for today," he said as Rita passed out in his arms. "She needs to rest now. Cliff, Larry take Beast boy to headquarters." They both nodded.

"Come on kid," said Larry as he led BB out of the room.

Walking down the hall and out of the hospital, BB sighed as he looked up at the night sky. He'd forgotten how bright the stars were and smiled sadly. Getting into the car, he sat in the backseat as Larry drove. BB turned to Robot man. "Hey Cliff you think Rita will ever be ok again?"

"I hope so Beast boy. I've never seen her this distraught before. I imagine the loss of a child is painful."

BB thought about his parents the whole drive. He wondered if the pain was the same. Somedays he would be ok and other days he couldn't imagine how he got out of bed.

In his old room nothing had changed as BB lied on his single twin bed. Looking out the window, he saw nothing but forest. It use to be peaceful here but now it seemed so empty. Getting up, he made his way to the kitchen and opened the fridge to see a fully stocked fridge. 'Huh, that's weird.'

Making himself something to eat, he sat down at the island and looked out the windows of forest. He remembered now. This was the Doom Patrol's other headquarters. It has been set up because Mento had insisted they needed one just incase the main headquarters was in danger.

Looking at his communicator, he wondered if it was a good idea to contact his friends and let them now what was going on. It was then he realized that it was nighttime in Jump City. 'Who would be up that late accept me?' Suddenly his communicator began to ring and BB was hopeful.

Blue hair and deep violet eyes faced him on the screen. "Raven?" His heart started to beat wildly in his chest.

"Hey Beast boy I had a feeling you might want to talk?"

"How late is it there?"

"Midnight."

"Thanks Rae—I mean Raven. It means a lot that you would do this for me." He swore he saw her blush. 'N—no I'm seeing things. She couldn't—

"That's what friends are for so what's going on?"

"Rita was pregnant, but she lost the baby. She tried to commit suicide, but Steve stopped her. She's resting in the hospital now. She can't be trusted not to do it again, so Steve's hired a psychiatrist to help her."

"This isn't the first time, is it?"

"No, she's had miscarriages before. It seems she can't stop herself. She's desperate, and that is what scares me. We've been trying to help her for years now, hoping our love and support could see her through, but we can't help her anymore. I'm sure it took Steve a while to warm up to a stranger talking to his wife."

"I'm so sorry Beast boy. I hope she gets the care she needs."

"Thanks Raven," he smiled. "So, how's it going with you?"

"The usual. Robin's been looking for a temporary Titan ever since you left. I guess he doesn't want to waste time but—

"It's ok. I understand. Anyway maybe I should let you go so you can get some sleep," he smiled. "You're the best Rae. Thanks for calling," he said as she said goodbye. Hanging up, he left the kitchen in search of something to do to get his mind off of everything going on.