Raven floated cross legged above her bed, trying desperately to meditate. Each time she came close to reaching that serene state of mind and total emotionless ness that was her usual self one of her emotions took hold and she had to start the whole process over again. Why was this so hard to do? Calm should be easy to come by. Her father had been defeated long ago, the city was relatively quiet lately for lack of ambitious criminals, her last birthday went by without incident and she eagerly awaited this year's calibration for it would be the first time in her life she could truly be as everyone else and enjoy it! The tower was hers while Cyborg was busy working on his car, Starfire and Robin were cuddled up in a dark movie theater some where – they had become close since the Tokyo trip – , and Beast boy was out on the town goofing off, everything was perfect! Black energy surrounded her as rage took hold in the moment of weakness and a lamp exploded. She quickly forced it down and opened her eyes.

I need to see what's wrong. She thought to herself as she walked to retrieve her mirror. Placing it on her bed she concentrated and continued her mantra, she fell into herself. The dark, rocky, mysterious world that was her mind came into view.

And there they were, each and every one of her emotions milling about the door that she kept locked, the door that would grain them access to her full mind and powers, the door that if one of them breached would allow a new Raven to walk in the waking world, the door she has strictly forbidden all of them to even approach without her express permission, and now they ganged about it trying to tear down the walls she had worked so hard to build!

Had they forgotten what it was like before? Had they forgotten what they had done when she was unable to control herself? Had they forgotten what would happen if she ever lost that control again?! She flew above the group and using her powers to magnify her voice yelled. "ENOUGH!"

All the Ravens stopped and stared. Timid shrank back into the group while obnoxious and rude made noises of complaint, persistence still had hold of the door and was pulling for all she was worth. Raven, the true Raven motioned for the others to pull her away, they complied quickly enough. "Now what is going on?!"

The roar of all the Ravens answering at once was deafening and unintelligible. She silenced them all and bid them back to their own personal sections. There was something definitely wrong here, all her emotions seemed to be acting in conjunction, she decided to talk to each one and hopefully figure out what was troubling her. Happiness was the best place to start for it was the one emotion she had let peek into her life over the last few months. As she entered the flowery, rainbow filled sky realm of her more fluffy emotion she remembered why she rarely visited it. How could something so . . . pink be a part of her head?

Thinking about it logically she should go else were before subjecting herself to this place, Raven walked out haring a loud explosion off to the upper regions of her mind.

Rage. She quickly flew over to quiet the rebellious emotion, finding it and bravery fighting it out the green clad Raven had some of her stone training monsters beside her.

"I hate him do you hear! We should all hate him for doing this to us!" Rage shouted as she smashed one of the stone beasts. It had been in the form of a lion. Now a wolf, raptor, and bravery jumped her, clawing, slashing, and punching away with abandoned. Rage summoned a great blast of red energy, shattering the stone beasts and throwing bravery away to land in a heap. More of the stone animals leaped at the red clad Raven scoring a few shallow hits before she smashed them into dust. Bravery screamed and leaped back at Rage landing a high kick to her head and sending her flying into the hill with a burst of flying stone and dust.

"It's all his fault!" Rage yelled. "We should just kill the twit and be done with it! If she would let me do what is needed we wouldn't be like this!"

"Enough." The true Raven commanded floating gently down to land in between the two fighters. Rage looked on in her usual defiant manner. Raven had worked long and hard after her fathers defeat to quell her darker side. "Be gone." She said with her eyes glowing white fire. Rage had no other choice but to obey she dissipated into nothingness under her mistresses stern gaze.

"Awesome gal." Bravery congratulated with a hard slap on Ravens back that sent her stumbling forward a few steps. "Woohoo we did it!" The remaining stone statues fell to pieces except for one. It was in the form of a T'Rex, the rocks fell away to reveal as well an effigy of beast boy as could be made. The two high fived and danced around each other in victory, shouting their glory to all willing to hear.

"What is with you two fighting and why have you created him!" Raven yelled.

Bravery moved in front of the stone figure protectively. "I wanted some one to fight beside and she got angry at him being here. Don't even think of making me dismiss him."

Raven went wide eyed and walked away surprised at the tone to say nothing of the demand. She moved on not knowing where to go next when she stumbled into Timids maze. "Great." She sighed. She never liked seeing this part of her self but it was a way to quickly find what was ailing her. Moving through the twists and turns she found Timid being pulled running along by her yellow clad self representing the little fear she possessed.

"Run faster, he'll catch us!"

"Hold it you two, what's wrong?"

"Please don't stop us, I can't face him, not like this." Timid said with tear filled eyes trying to appear as small as possible.

"Not ever!" Fear quivered.

"Who?" Raven asked again.

"Come on Rae. I'm sorry." A familiar voice called.

"Beast boy again?" Raven asked but the two pushed by as his shadowy form rounded the corner. Raven flew up and out the maze the barrier had no hold on her and she watched as the two continued to run. Ok I am mad at him but protective and afraid of him at the same time?

Finally she resolved to head back to happy; she might be willing to talk. Walking reluctantly through the pink girly side of her mind resisting the urge to let Rage loose in it just to darken the place up a bit Raven soon found her giddy self clutching a stuffed beast boy toy.

"What do ducks fear most?" it asked.

"What" Happy said while pulling the string in back, as it wound up again the toy continued the very beast boy bad joke.

"The BILL collector." Toy and owner rolled on the ground in laughter.

Raven closed her eyes. Its part of who I am, I can't kill her. She reminded her self

"What are you doing."

"He's so funny!" Happy said as she continued to laugh far too much at the poor joke.

Seeing it was useless to even try Raven flew away. With each of her more powerful emotion she visited she found some sign of beast boy, walking shadows, statues, pictures, toys, an entire mountain was now shaped in a likeness of his face! Frustrated beyond belief she exited her meditation and reappeared in her room more confused then when she had started. She knew one thing though, what ever was the matter with her beast boy was the cause, and she was going to make him pay.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything so don't sue me!

Authors notes: well this is my first attempt so please tell me what you think. I just got every episode of Teen Titans as a gift and fell in love with it all over again. I hope you liked Ravens trip into her mind, I loved never more. Any true fan of Teen Titans can most likely see where I am going with this but it will HOPEFULLY be an interesting ride.