* Hey! Its madam Goldsworthy and this is my second fanfic. It takes place after break and I wanted to post it before the episode came on! Even though I haven't finished the other fanfic, I m still posting this and please comment but this is my story so no ideas, tell me if you liked it or not cause you guys are why I write and I love feedback. Yes, if you have actually read my profile, you would no that this was written in a hello kitty notebook that I designed myself! But it's amazing and I want to continue writing in it, so please give me reason to. Reviews are greatly appreciated! Luv, madam Goldsworthy!*
ELI'S POV
"Clare!" I yelled down the hall. "Clare! Come back!" I couldn't deny I missed her. I hate when we ignore each other. She turned around and I ran the few yards to her. There were bags under her beautiful blue eyes. Did she lose sleep because of me? I hoped she didn't. I looked into her eyes and saw hurt. Ouch. Her eyes threw me daggers that landed in my heart.
CLARE'S POV
"What do you want, Eli?" I let the hurt and anger dwell in my voice. If I let him see through it, I might end up hurt, like the countless times before. Every time I thought of him and breathed, it felt as though shards of glass were being slowly stabbed into my heart. It hurt so much. If anyone has gone through this, they knew that the day they cry themselves to sleep because they can not because they need to, is the day the heartbreak goes away. I have prayed with my hands folded and tears running down my cheeks onto my bed sheets and my hair. I prayed for the day I choose those tears, not for the day they just came. I am patient, so I haven't pushed Him to help. On my bedside table there is an alarm clock, a box of Puffs, hand sanitizer, and a rosary. I turned my back to Eli and started walking away.
"I want you, Clare!" Ouch, another piece of broken glass. I am glad I wasn't looking at his amazing green eyes, filled with hurt at the pain he sees in mine. Ouch. Shoot. I needed to be strong and keep moving, otherwise my eyes will be more bloodshot by tomorrow, and people will question. I need to fly under the radar. Ouch.
ELIS POV
I can't believe it would hurt like this. "Clare, please I need you! You are the only one, Clare, the only one!" I had to make her happy, to ease her pain. "I will do anything for you, Clare" I stopped in my tracks and lowered my voice. "So if you want me to leave you, I will, but that's not what I want." She stopped and turned around. Her eyes were bloodshot.
"I don't want that either" she said softly, "but I also don't want the heartbreak." I could hear and see all the hurt. I wanted to take her into my arms, take her someplace safe, tell her she is safe and beautiful, and kiss her until she believes me. I can't believe I started this. This is all my fault, just like Julia, I'm the one who over reacted with Fitz. The one who "deserved what ever Fitz did to me". Clare was right, but I also deserve this. Clare, however, has done nothing wrong, and doesn't deserve any of this.
"Come on, Clare, you can't do this," I pleaded. My voice caught on the last word.
"Oh, I can't! Yet you can go and risk your life because of one guy?" Clare was mad. I pulled her into a hug. She didn't hug back and that stung. I felt a drop of moisture on my t-shirt, right where her eyes were. She pulled away and I let her go.
"Why were you ignoring me, Eli?" she asked in a small voice. I was astonished. She was just yelling at me, and now she's crying. I hate to see her like this.
"I'm not the only one ignoring people," I said in response. She hadn't made an effort to contact me during the entire break. I figured she didn't want to talk.
"I didn't think you wanted to hear from me, I'm nothing special. And then when I came to school I got bad because I want you to be safe." She said this in a quiet voice. Without a complaint she let me take her hand and lead her to Morty where we sat together on his hood. Even though it was the end of school there were a lot of kids in the halls, and I thought this would be a better place to talk.
Here goes nothing, I thought as I made my way out of the school with Clare In my hand.
CLARE'S POV
We sat in silence for a moment, watching the other teens in their solid color polo's make their way across campus. Eli broke the campus.
"I am sorry I risked both of you lives for something so stupid. It's… its just I can't let them win, Clare, I can't let the bullies win."
I surprised both of us by hugging him. He slid his arms across the hood to hook onto my waist. "Eli, they aren't worth it, you have to let go, otherwise 'us' won't work," I said into his shoulder.
"Ok,I will try as hard as possible as long as I can be with you" He hesitated before saying the next part, "I love you."
*Sorry for making it a cliff hanger! Tell me what you thought of it. I have an idea for the rest of it. Please don't make it a one timer! I need your reviews to get through the rest of writing it. That way I have a reason to keep writing. And profile viewing wouldn't hurt! Luv- madam Goldsworthy*