Hey guys! So, this is an AU in which Savitar DID accept Team Flashes help. After curing him, Team Flash sent him to another Earth with no doppelganger. Barry is NOT in the Speedforce in this fic and Caitlin still left right after the funeral, and that's where this picks up.

Caitlin's cell phone chimed loudly, just as it did every morning when Cisco sent her an update on Team Flash. She cursed under breath, exhausted. For some reason, her closest friend hadn't been able to accept her wish and leave her alone. Alone to "Find herself". It had been the quickest excuse she could come up with, but all she really wanted was to have her friends back. Her family. But that just didn't seem as if it were meant to be. She got up from the ratty motel bed and padded towards the closet. The doors were tall and had mirrors on them. She watched her reflection, taking in the blonde hair, pale skin, and tired expression. She looked liked a total stranger. Turning so that her side was facing the mirror, Caitlin could see the slightest hint of a bump in her stomach. She dreaded the day it became obvious. Her phone chimed again, and with a sigh she checked it. It was Cisco, of course. Asking her how she was and what she was doing, but more importantly, where she was. She couldn't tell him that, now could she? No. He couldn't know. None of them could know the real reason she left. The fact that she was pregnant with Savitar's child absolutely killed her, and she knew it would only push everyone else further away. She shivered, imagining their disgusted glares as they threw her out. She knelt down beside her suitcase, picked a simple outfit of skinny jeans a white tank top, and began brushing her hair. It had been a while since she used her powers, and so her hair was more of a strawberry blonde. Not pure white anymore, but not its natural auburn color either. When she returned from applying makeup in the tiny bathroom, she picked up her phone. 11 missed messages from Cisco. She shook her head, unable to bring herself to check them. Instead, she grabbed her purse, and headed out.

'You have to face them some time' Killer Frost said, a soft echo at the back of Caitlin's mind.

Leave me alone! Caitlin's head hurt as Killer Frost weakly pushed towards the surface. After losing the fight with Caitlin and being shoved back into the darkest recesses of her mind, Killer Frost had lost her strength. Caitlin feared the day it returned.

'Just some free advice...'

I don't want your advice! I don't want anything from you!

"Ma'am?" Caitlin snapped back into reality. She was in a small cafe, the same one she went to every morning since leaving.

"Sorry, lost in thought," Caitlin chuckled nervously, "I'd uh... just like a small coffee."

"Coming right up!" The barista eagerly got to work. Caitlin moved towards a table, sitting down and staring out the window. Absentmindedly, a hand moved to her belly.

What if it's a mini you... Caitlin thought, prodding Killer Frost's consciousness.

'I'm not a fortune teller, Snowflake. I don't know' Killer Frost grumbled. The thought of giving birth to a little Killer Frost devastated her. To hold her baby for the first time and see silver glowing eyes stare right back up at her... would be heartbreaking. Her baby didn't deserve the pain that came with the powers it might receive...

"Cait!" A voice shouted as the cafe door swung open. She froze as footsteps neared her seat. That voice was all to familiar.

Barry? She cringed. Would they notice?

"Caitlin!" This time it was Cisco's voice as his hand landed on her tensed shoulder. She whirled around, panic evident in her face.

"Wha- what are you doing here?" She stuttered.

"Well, you left me no choice! I tracked your cellphone-"

"I told you to leave me be!"

"Yes, but its about Julian!" Cisco said, and Caitlin's heart sank.

Julian... he would be crushed if he found out...

"What happened?"

"There was an accident... There was a shooting at CCPD. He was shot." Barry said, more calmly than Cisco. Caitlin stiffened.

"Is- is he okay?!" Yes, Caitlin had left, but she still cared very much for him. He was better off without her, of course, but she still missed him.

"He's in the hospital, but it was bad. We tried texting and calling but you weren't answering and... we had to tell you." Cisco said.

"When was this?"

"Yesterday."

"And you're just telling me now?!" Caitlin gasped. He could have died and she wouldn't have even known. She shuddered, unable to even think about that.

"Please, Cait, come home." Barry pleaded, and she saw a familiar look in his eyes. That look of hope. The guilt weighed her down like a ton of bricks. She had betrayed them. She had betrayed all of them. And still they wanted her back.

'Go back to them'

Why do you suddenly care?!

"Well," She looked at their hopeful faces, "I can try." A look of relief and joy took over their expressions, but she couldn't relate. This wasn't safe. The longer she stayed, the bigger she would become. It was too late, though, to take back her agreement, for she was already being pulled out of the cafe. The Barista looked up from her work.

"Ma'am, You're coffee is ready!"

Sorry, its a short first chapter, but I just want to see what y'all think before continuing! I'm new to this site and this is my first story here, so please leave suggestions and feedback in the comments! Until next time! :D