Title: How Long Am I Suppose To Wait

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Final Fantasy VII characters but I do own the plot

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Author's Note: I am basing this story on an experience, so I hope you all will enjoy this . This fic is dedicated to Hii-chan and I hope ya enjoy it!

I have been looking at him for a long time now, not only that but also longing for him and wanting him, but the fear of being rejected is always there.

Sephiroth, the most popular guy in class with the most beautiful silky silvery hair that makes any girl's heart flutter at the sight of his smile. But those smiles were only to girls, and not to another boy like me, especially me.

Perhaps he did not even know that I existed. Or did he even bother to take even the slightest notice of me? I could not answer those questions, but oh how I long just to be with him. How I long so much that I even made a fool of myself, such an act that no sane person on earth would ever want to face the world again.

But I plucked my courage and still went back to school after a lot of convincing from a few close friends on mine. They knew about the person, who I had fallen, but they told me it was impossible after what he had even done to me, I still had the heart to shower him with love.

I could still remember what happened on that very day. How I could never forget how much tears of sorrow I shed on that very night which I finally am able to be rid myself of such an agony. But, things did not turn out the way I wanted them to be.

"Anou, Sephiroth-san, I was wondering if you had time to spare. Perhaps maybe after school?" I asked trying hard not to allow blood to rush into the vein of my cheeks, turning them hot and pinkish.

He smiled and looked down at me. Sephiroth was indeed much taller than me, but what caught my attention, was not only his hair but also his eyes. No one had such eyes like he does. Eyes that were filled with sorrow, fear and distrust, shone in those crystal clear orbs.

"Aa. I'll see you after school by the gate?" Sephiroth said.

His sudden speech broke me from my daze and brought me back to reality. I quickly nodded in contentment and left for my next class.

Time crawled as I waited for the hour to come. An adrenal rush made me anxious about the meeting, making me fidget around in my seat and not pay attention in class other than to the sluggish passing of the seconds.

It was centauries to me by the time it had reached the end of school and I ran as fast as I could, not wanting to make Sephiroth wait for a single second. But it seems that I was wrong for when I reached there, Sephiroth was already there, facing the school garden and allowing the wind to blow his silvery locks with such grace and beauty. I was mesmerized by the sight of the beauty and stood there stunned, enjoying the view until he turned around and our eyes met.

He smiled at me and motioned me to come closer. I gulped and walked closer to him, and to me surprise I found it rather easy to speak with him. Of course I did my part on beating around the bush, and it was only until we reached the nearby park did I finally found the courage to tell him.

"Ne Sephiroth-kun, do you…um…like have anyone in mind?" I finally managed to ask while looking down at the ground, not wanting to face him, and it seemed as if the question hit the spot for I could have sworn I saw Sephiroth flinch a little before turning to me.

"No." He replied while stooping dead in his tracks under the shade of the tree, which made his eyes glow in their beauty.

"Eh? Demo…Sephiroth-san is so popular in school and around the girls. Surely there is one which you fancy ne?"

"Aa…I am considering someone at the moment. Though it is not really a she, but a he…"

That caught me odd guard for a moment and caused me to trip by the pavement, landing in the arms of Sephiroth. I could have sworn I was blushing from head to toe, making myself like a red tomato. "Eh? You mean you don't fancy girls?"

He sighed, helping me up before replying, "I had a bad experience in the past relationship which I had, and at the moment I do not know whether I even want to start another."

That was it. It raised my hopes so much that after a week I asked to meet him again, which he gladly said yes. I had in mind that since Sephiroth liked another guy, it could even be me, plus since he said he was considering someone, it meant that I still had a chance ne?

Oh but how was I a fool to think that he would actually accept someone like me when he had so many others to choose from. But what made my hopes sore sky high was that within the week I heard much gossip that the Sephiroth had actually fallen for someone like me. I could not believe my ears at first but it definitely gave me a sense of security and I took shelter under those words.

We met at the park by an empty bench and this time I did not hesitate to tell him the truth. "Ne Sephiroth-san…I have something to tell you, but please do not be offended ok?"

It was only after he promised me that he would not be angry that I finally told him.

Looking at him straight in the eye, I finally managed to utter those words that I long to tell him after so long. "Aishiteru Sephiroth-san." But all I could see in those orbs were nothing but a heart as cold as stone.

He smiled a cold smile at me, not the warm one that he gladly showed me when I spoke to him at first.

"I'm sorry." That was all he said before leaving me alone, cold and lonely by the bench.

Those were the only words that I needed to hear that he did not want me, and the once warm feeling, which used to burn with passion in my heart was now gone. All that is left is the pain feeling of a thousand needles piercing my heart and slicing into the pieces that those words had done.

I cried for a long time till my eyes were swollen, shedding tears of sorrow and tears of anguish, and it took great effort from my close friends to pull me out of the slumps. But that did not ease the pain that throbbed in my heart.

I had missed a whole week of school by the time I had recovered enough for me to think straight, and upon returning, I tried my best to avoid Sephiroth, not wanting him to feel weird cause of my presence. Tifa and Aeries did their best to console me and did not question my movement in school on how I was avoiding Sephiroth.

It pains me just by doing so, but what else can I do? I don't know. Perhaps tomorrow will be a better day. I hope.

Now I am just another nobody in school, and Sephiroth did not seem to even notice me anymore after what happened. I wish I did not confess to him. At least I could be his friend and stay close to him. But what is done cannot be undone.