The First Time
"Do you do that a lot," Bella asks a little shy. She scoots a little closer and almost instantly, her sweet scent washes over me.
"Just the last couple of months, "I say softly while I breathe her in, filling my lungs with her intoxicating fragrance.
"Huh." Bella chuckles as she stares at me with a certain glow in her eyes…I can't quite tell what her look tells me? Is she angry? Offended?
"I like watching you sleep," I say quickly, "…Uhm, it's kind of fascinating to me." Bella looks at me with her big eyes and for a moment, I just can't move. Don't let the emotions control you. Control the emotions!
I push back the emotions that dwell in my head and softly say, "I always wanted to try one thing!"
My gaze travels over Bella's beloved face, "You stay very still," I warn her. I stare into her eyes and am once again captured and captivated. Bella leans closer to me.
"Don't move!"
Bella's sweet breath tickles my skin and I can't help but shudder but still, I lean in closer…and closer…
Bella's lips are sweet. Mmm…soft, delicious. I pull back a little and see the rhythmic pulse of her heartbeat through her veins. Control your emotions!
I close my eyes and return again and again. Our kisses grow more passionate as I explore the warm wealth of Bella's mouth. As she moans a little into my mouth, I shove my thigh between her legs. Oh God…she's so warm down there.
I hear the tempo of Bella's heart increase and then all thoughts in my head are gone. I push her back onto the bed and almost crush her with my weight, hungrily searching her mouth fore more.
"STOP!"
I launch myself from the bed, trying to ignore the warm blooded heat of Bella's virgin body.
"I'm sorry," she gasps, startled by my sudden move.
"I'm stronger than I thought," I say in an effort to comfort her.
"Er…Yeah…I wish I could say the same," Bella smiles shyly.
"I can't ever loose control with you," I hear myself say while I turn away from her…my throat raw with thirst.
"Don't go," Bella begs. Her voice reverberates with passion and touches something inside me. I sigh and leap back onto her bed. My insides aches unbearably as I crawl into the space right beside her slender body, carefully arranging myself so that we do not touch. Our first kiss hasn't been long or very passionate but it sure has stirred up something inside me. I look down on Bella, her lips slightly parting as she softly speaks. I swallow hard but can't prevent my gaze dropping to her chest. I can see her nipples through her shirt, hard as pebbles and I clench my teeth, willing myself to think of something else. What is happening to me?
A few hours later, Bella's sound asleep. It's hard, not to touch her. I look down on her when she suddenly moves and lays her head on my chest. A soft moan escapes my mouth as I realize our first kiss has awaken instincts in me that have been dormant for at least eighty years…or maybe even longer. Can I ever be with Bella as a woman and a man are supposed to be together?
As Bella's head settles against the crook of my arm, I softly kiss the top of her head, drinking in the feel of her warm, soft body against mine, but at the same time suffering because of it. All I know is that I'm seized with an absolute and urgent hunger brought on by our kiss and then…without further hesitation, I let my left hand slowly slide down Bella's chest to cup her small but firm breast.
"Edward? What…?" Bella jerks her face up to look at me. She looks wide-eyed and stricken, as stunned by my impulsive action as I am.
"Bella…I'm sorry," I gasp as I quickly pull away my hand. Jesus Christ…what am I doing?
I realize I've completely lost control. My reason has abandoned me and now there's nothing but the hunger and that overwhelming, excruciating need for release. I close my eyes, shaking. God, help me…I don't wanna hurt her.
"Edward?"
I open my eyes slowly and look deep into the swirling depths of Bella's brown orbs. I slowly shake my head and back away. Suddenly, the rumble of thunder crackles through the air accompanied by an emission of light and in slow motion I watch how Bella lifts her arms and pulls her shirt over her head.
I shake my head and whisper, "No Bella…no."
She just stubbornly keeps looking into my eyes and drops her shirt onto the floor.
"I don't wanna wait anymore," she whispers softly, "I want you to be my first!"
I shake my head but still reach for Bella drawing her close. The venom rushes into my mouth as I cup my hand over her breast. I run my tongue along my lips and drink my breath away when Bella takes my hand and leads me to the bed.
I inhale deeply, breathing in the sweetness of Bella's aroma. The more she moves, the stronger her scent seems to get; like every movement releases a burst of sweetness. Every time I inhale her scent, my shaft throbs, thickens, and hardens and I suddenly realize; next to my violent thirst for her blood, the brooding scent of her arousal drives me crazy. Bella straddles my hips and slips her hands up my shirt, resting them on my granite torso. I place a hand on her thigh, caressing her smooth, warm skin. I can feel myself getting harder with each breath. When I look up I look directly into Bella's face. Her eyelids are slightly closed but I can still see her pretty, brown eyes filled with passion. As she leans over me, her long, silken hair curtains our faces. Auburn strands brush my jaw and I inhale the sweet scent of her shampoo and arousal. In the background lightning strikes and thunder rumbles as Bella cradles my skull and kisses me. I let her…but only for a second, then I move my mouth to her jaw and then down the side of her neck. Every beat of her heart sends an enticing pulse of blood through her veins and hunger crashes over me. I'm starving, almost beyond my ability to control. I nuzzle Bella's neck and lick the length of a thin blue vein. I moan because it's not my desire to kill her…I only need a taste of her.
Bella grinds her hips against me and I clench my jaw. I'm in control…I'm in control!
I push her backwards and sit up, moving my mouth to her breasts with their pert, pink nipples as tender and delicious as ripe berries. I slide my tongue over one sweet bud and suck it into my mouth, hard.
Bella gasps and grips a handful of my hair. She thrusts her chest towards me as I run my tongue around her nipples. I know Bella is enjoying what I'm doing to her; the look and expression on her face along with her soft moans and whimpers just make me want her…no need her even more.
I slide my hand up her thigh, reaching hesitantly beneath. Bella's heat is wet and I'm almost sure, my finger melts as I stroke her there. Am I really ready to put my hard shaft in there? Talking about a moth and a flame…
But I have no time to think because Bella reaches downward and pulls her panties down, disentangling her legs from around me long enough to get them off. I catch only a glimpse of her tight heat before she's ready to climb on my lap again.
"Bella…WAIT!"
She lets out a frustrated moan but stares down at me. I pull her down on the bed and cover her with a blanket before rushing out through her window.
Oh..God…
Bella hears the soft noises outside her bedroom door. She pulls the blanket to her chin and listens hard. Suddenly…there's a soft knock at the door.
"Bella?"
"Yes?" I hear her call softly, willing her voice to remain calm.
The bedroom door opens slowly and Charlie's head peeks around the doorframe, "Did the storm wake you?"
"Mmm…no," Bella lies. "…Actually…I was deep asleep.
"OK…go back to sleep then…I just got a call. I have to go in. I just wanted to let you know," Charlie says. I can hear the guilt in his voice for waking Bella.
"OK…dad. See you tomorrow!"
I wait until I hear Charlie's engine start then I carefully enter Bella's bedroom again. I can hear how her heart thumps in her chest and even more…I'm aware of the still abundant wetness between her legs and the scent that clings to her.
"I guess…there's no chance of continuing…this?" she says weakly.
I hesitate…but only for a moment. Bella has triggered something inside me…something I simple can't resist. I lean forward and cover her soft mouth with mine. Bella leans forward too and threads her hands through my hair, pulling our bodies together. I clear my head and am so ready to continue the sensual exploration of my sweet, beloved Bella.