Hey!

Well, I thought I'd start one of the fics that been going round in my head! I have loads doing that so I think I might start them all, and then finish them in due course, before I forget all my ideas lol!

This one's a bit of an AU (Alternate Universe) fic, I've decided to write it as though Danny and Alice do decide to go to England when Danny is struck off. This story starts basically from the end of Ep6, so it might blag a bit until we get through to all the actual ep8 stuff… but I am going to add bits into the storyline, and I'm going to write from POV's, so it'll be a bit like what I think the characters are thinking.

I'm starting to babble now, so I shall begin :'D

Alice's POV

I've been an idiot. That's the simplicity of it, I've let my big, fat mouth lead me astray. I feel utterly disgusted with myself, I'd never deserved Danny, and well, it seemed I just had to go and prove it. He's probably realised that he's better off without me, that he can do better. I sigh and sit back in my chair, once more the never ending tears arrive in force. How am I going to live without Danny?

I feel guilt, hatred for myself, fear, sadness… my heart is broken - but I can only blame myself. Now, as I'm sitting here in this lonely room, all alone, the rain beating heavily against the window, I can see how stupid I've been. What a bitch I've been. Danny wasn't interfering at all, he was just trying to help me because he missed me. Well, he probably won't miss me anymore, but I'll miss him.

Tears trickle down my face, the more I think about Danny, the wider the stream of tears becomes. I hear a knock on the door, I ignore it. I can't bear to see anyone, not in this condition. The only person who's ever seen me like this is Danny.

"Alice, can I get you anything?" I hear the gentle voice of Rowan on the other side of the door. I don't answer, but throw my head into my hands. I hear footsteps walk away, my ears automatically strain to hear him, as I hear him mention Charlotte's name.

"Not now Charlotte, just give your mum some space yeh sweetheart? Come with me and Vanessa and we'll play a game." Thank God Rowan is being supportive, thank God he's not allowed Charlotte in. Charlotte… I grimace slightly.

Leopards Den was my home, Charlottes home. I've been selfish to Charlie too now. I've left the place where we were loved, we had family, the place Charlotte found a dad. I screamed into my pillow, and collapse into tears. I punch the bed.

I forced my eyes closed, I didn't even bother getting changed. Without Danny I was broken, without Danny I was nothing, without Danny, I didn't think I could live. I missed him, I loved him… but I'd ultimately messed up with him.

Danny's POV

I've been an idiot again… I seem to be an expert on messing things up. I down yet another bottle of beer. What the hell does it matter? I'm nothing without Alice… why did I have to interfere. I'd never been worthy of Alice, and I'd proven it, I'd driven her away. Now she'd probably meet someone worthy of her, why would she want to come back to me?

I didn't care who saw my tears anymore… I couldn't sleep, all around me I saw Alice, I heard her laugh, I felt her, I could even smell her. I loved her, no I worshipped her. She's everything to me. I don't have a clue how I'm going to survive without her. I don't know if I can.

"Danny, don't you think you've had enough?" Liv asks quietly as I take yet another bottle.

"No." I reply sharply, I want to pass out, I want this to be a bad dream.

"Danny getting drunk won't help." she replies.

"Yeh, but it's as Dupe once said to me Liv, in a few hours I'll have passed out and won't remember a thing." I mutter as she walks off.

I put my head into my hands before walking into my room. My room… not our room. The waterfall of emotion overflows from my eyes, I feel the waves crash against my cheeks. No one ever saw this, only Alice ever had, and now she's not here, and it's all my fault. She'll always be in my heart. I'll always love her, I'll always miss her, but well, she'll never come back to me.

I look across to the picture of Alice, Charlotte and myself. I pick it up, as tears drip onto the frame. I stroke her face, and smile at Charlotte. God, I'd not only lost Alice, I'd lost Charlotte.

I placed the frame back on the dressing table, I noticed Alice's eyeliner was still there, I picked it up before placing it back down, I noticed one of her vest tops thrown in a corner, obviously when we'd made love to each other. I sighed, I couldn't live without Alice. I'm broken without her, a broken man. I need her, she's my missing piece, she's my soul mate. I feel every emotion possible, hatred for myself, guilt, anger, sadness, fear but most of all, I'm heartbroken.

Rowan's POV

I may not have always had the closest of relationships with Alice, but I have never seen her so heartbroken in all my life… never. She's in pieces, she's torn, she's lost.

All the spirit in her is dead, her heart is heavy and slow, her usual glint in her shiny blue eyes is gone, replaced by dullness and hurt. Her usual proud stature is gone, she's now nothing more than a frail woman, a woman who's giving up. I'm not sure quite how Alice is going to make it through.

I know the best thing to do is to leave Alice alone… she needed time, and well, I know she won't cry in front of anyone… only Danny of course.

Charlotte is utterly confused. She doesn't understand why she's here, she doesn't understand why she can't see her mum. She doesn't realise what's happened, Charlotte just wants to go home. How do you tell her that Leopards Den is not her home anymore?

I take her away, as she tries to force her way to Alice's room. I know she thinks I'm being cruel, but it won't be any good for neither Alice or Charlotte to see one another. It would kill Alice to have Charlotte see her in her current state, and it would frighten Charlotte to see her mum breaking down. I decide on one thing - to protect Charlotte.

Vanessa is busying herself, she's unusually quiet, only speaking when she has to, giving the comforting smile to Charlotte. As she sits down besides me as I play monopoly with Charlotte, I realise just how lucky I am.

"How's Alice?" Vanessa whispers to me, as Charlotte moves her figure.

"Not good at all." I reply shaking my head. "I'm worried about her."

Charlotte snaps her head in my direction. She was smart, had she caught on?

"What's wrong with mum?" She demands standing up heading towards Alice's room.

"Charlotte." Vanessa tries to interrupt for Charlie is just as headstrong as her mother.

"I want to see her!" She yells, I grab her in the hallway gently.

"Not now Charlotte, just give your mum some space yeh sweetheart? Come with me and Vanessa and we'll play a game." I say quickly, Charlotte agrees.

As we settle back down, I can't help but have a pre-occupied mind. I wondered if Alice will get through this, she has too, for Charlotte. The only problem is, I don't think she can, I don't think she can live without Danny… I've never seen her so broken, so upset, and to be frank, it scares me.

Dupe's POV

I never thought I'd see the day. Danny and Alice split up? They can't, they are soul mates. I hope through all hope they sort it out, they need to… Danny can't live without her, and Alice can't live without him. I know them both to well, I mean, I played a huge part in them getting together.

Danny is drinking himself silly, to be honest, that's my therapy but not Danny, he doesn't drink, he's not like me in that respect.

Danny is broken hearted, he's a broken man. Alice is everything to him, he adores her. He needs her. I've never seen him so upset, not even when Sarah died. I've never seen Danny cry like this before. I've never seen him lock himself in his room like that - he won't let anyone see him in a state, only Alice.

I think about Alice, she's bound to be the same. She ended it, true… but I knew Danny's hyena antics would not work. I feel terrible too, and guilty, maybe it's partly me who is to blame, I should of checked that hyena before this could happen.

I sit in my room, alone. I wish Caroline was here, she'd know what to do. I can hear Danny's muffled shouts, I don't know if he'll get through it. Ach man, he's never been so bad.

"Dupe?" I turn to see Liv walking into the room.

"Liv?" I ask, she sits beside me on the bed.

"I'm scared for Danny." She admits. "I didn't realise… just how much he needs Alice."

"I don't know how he's going to survive." I sighed. "I doubt she'll find it easy without him. They need each other - they complete each other."

"I feel guilty Dupe." Liv cried. "I feel like it's partly my fault."

"Why?" I ask alarmed.

"Because I've caused so much tension and Danny and Alice have…"

"Stop Liv." I calmly say. "don't think like that. I'm thinking that way but blaming myself, and it does not favours!" I give her a hug, "Keep strong for Danny."

Liv just nods and leaves. I sigh as I lie back in bed and think about what the future will bring. If there is a future… Danny has to get through this, he has too… although I don't know if he can, in all honesty, seeing Trevanion so broken… it scares me.

The end of chapter 1 :'D

I decided to include these episodes because I think 6,7,8 all go together really… hope you like my little added bits :') Next chapter up soon as I quite like my ideas for this one :D

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