Disclaimer: I do not own Law and Order. Dick Wolf does and if I did Olivian and Elliot would have gotten together a long time ago.
For my dear friend Nicole.... She had been an inspiration!

Kathy's POV

As the days pass by before my eyes I wonder what I've been up to lately. Elliot had been home about twice this week only to change before saying that he needed to get back to work because Cragen had a big case. Well it was a step better than last week when he only came home once. Him and his partner at the precinct sleeping in the cribs next to each other or close by. I know there's something going on between him and Olivia Benson his partner of 11 years, they are always having big cases or that is what he says as an excuse. I could see that he was not the same when he met Olivia for the first time and had brought her over for dinner. They had shared this look that made everyone else in the room awkward; it felt like they were a couple and could not care less about anyone. I know that Elliot is a strict catholic man and would never cheat under the eyes of God but I start to wonder if he had turned on his faith. I had once cheated on Elliot when he and I had a big fall out, going home to my parents I had a one night stand there with a guy I knew from high school before Elliot. I had considered leaving Elliot for Elijah but he had then died suddenly from a drug overdose, I found out that I was pregnant with Eli. I had named Eli after his real father Elijah but told Elliot that it was definitely his baby. He was going to never find out.

Everything I did now to try and please him were useless, we were not the same happy high school sweethearts anymore. He loves me because I am the mother of his children and in a way he would always love me but I can tell he's not in love with me anymore. The adoration had disappeared from his eyes not that it had been there long in the first place. I understand him, though I only see him when I visit him at work or the rare occasions where he had time to come home, the love was gone from both of our eyes. I still didn't want to let him go because then I would have nobody but most of all because I didn't want Olivia to get her hands on my husband.

Whenever he was home which was not often, I had try to seduce him but he just complained about being a long day and I was not appropriate because he was tried and that the kids were close by. I would retaliate back saying that we had 4 kids after Maureen, appropriate or not we still did it why not now? Then a full on argument would start with him saying that he had to work unlike me who stayed home all day doing nothing. It always resulted in him walking out the door and driving off. The kids had all taken Elliot's side saying that their father had a point and that he was right. They had always loved Elliot more even though he was never home, they had understood that and the fact that they had always gone to the precinct after school instead of home. All of them loved 'Aunty Olivia' like she was there mother. I was the one that gave birth to them but Olivia is the one they love!

I was annoyed at myself but moreover Olivia and Elliot who had no consideration towards the kids. I started to snap at the kids more and getting angrier at them; then I started hitting them when they misbehaved which I had thought was often especially with Kathleen. Maureen had soon discovered this and had stopped or intervened whenever she was around or at home. None of the kids were willing to tell their father knowing that their father would be devastated. They knew that Elliot had a temper but would never lay a hand on them. Who would think that a housewife was abusive towards her own kids when they had a father with a list of complaints as long as the Thames River? The kids would have been taken away from their father. That could not happen.

Maureen had then moved to college and rarely called instead calling Elliot or Olivia to talk. Kathleen had started to rebel against me when she was old enough; the teen now starting college who lived with her older sister Maureen. The twins Lizzy and Dicky were now teens who rarely talked to her often hanging around the precinct after school or out with friends. When home they had tried to stay out of my way but I knew what they were doing, they were planning something big. With two of my kids gone there had been only 3 left in the house, they were constantly trying to rebel against me but they could never win. I had slapped Eli constantly, punched Dicky and Lizzy. Elliot had never been home long enough to notice or if he did then there were easy excuses made.

I had punched and kicked Lizzy one day when she mentioned Olivia's name in the house. I liked to say it was the first and only time I had used violence as an answer but it was not and it was not the last time either.

Flashback

Elliot was not home again and had called Dicky earlier that he was going to be late home.

"Lizzy get your butt down here and do the dishes," screamed Kathy from the bottom of the stairs.

"But I have this assignment I need to finish by tomorrow so I can give it to Olivia to check when I stop by the precinct,' Lizzy stated.

At that instinct after hearing Olivia's name come out of her daughter's mouth with such love and adoration, Kathy Stomped up stairs and dragged LIzzy by her hair out of her room. Lizzy was caught by surprises and a sudden urge of pain. With her limbs flailing in the air and the air after Kathy her mother had kicked her in the chest and punched her in the eye, Lizzy started to scream.

Kathy kept repeating "Don't you dare say her name I my house, I am your mother." over and over again.

Hearing the commotion outside his room Dicky had went out side. He found his sister on the ground in tears, his mother standing over her with a clenched fist and stemming with anger. This was not the first time Dicky had seen his other this mad since he was a little boy and when his older sisters had still been home. It had not been the first time Dicky had seen his mother hit either his siblings or himself. Seeing the situation in front of his Dicky ran to restrain his mother then helping his sister to his room to patch up the wounds.

At that time Eli had made his way into Dicky's room scared of his mothers antics. Dicky had called his sister Maureen and told her about the situation and that she was on her way over there now and should be there in 5 minutes. Packing each of them a bag of essentials for about a week and getting their school bags all three of them sat down in Dicky's room listening for Maureen to come.

Not even 5 minutes after the call, a ring of the door bell notified them that Maureen had come for them. Rushing downstairs with their things they opened the door to be greeted by not only Maureen but also Kathleen. Scrambling to the car not one of them looking back to the scene only hearing the yelling of their mother.

Kathy screamed at her daughter saying, "Don't think this is over, you never mention her name in my house. You bitch daughter!"

With that Maureen had drove off with the kids in the back huddling together.

End Flashback

Since the incident the 3 kids had came back home only to act more distant to me and closer to each other. I had tried to apologies to them but they never utter a word back only talking when Elliot was home or when their sisters had came to visit.

Lizzy and Dicky were in there first year at high school, Eli was in preschool so I had the whole day to myself. After school LIzzy and Dicky would pick up their brother from preschool and go to the precinct where they would spend time with their dad.

Walking in one day two weeks after the fight to pick the kids up so they could get home for dinner, I walked into the precinct and saw Elliot holding Eli in one arm, with his other arm wound around Olivia's waist. Olivia had her head on Elliot's shoulder, her hand on his chest and her free arm around Lizzy's shoulder in an embrace. Dick was standing front of his father with the biggest smile actually they all had the biggest smiles on their face. Fin and Munch were taking a photo of it smiling also with Cragen standing on the side watching like a father proud and happy of his kids.

Kathy had never seen her family that happy ever in her life but the women who was meant to make her family happy was her not Olivia. This was not happening; Olivia was not going to break up here family…..

What will Kathy do?
Will Elliot find out about his kids? Is it too late?

A.N. I am only 15 and this is my first fanfiction so some reviews would help.... I like to know what you know.