Author's Note: I just felt BV (bad vibe) today, so decided to write a little angst. Sorry if couldn't think of a less crappy title. Sorry if I accidentaly copied anyone's plot, if I did, please PM me and I'll delete this story faster that you can say "SUE HER!"

DisIclaimer: I don't own D. Gray-Man nor do I own the song When You're Gone.

P.S I think you should listen to the song When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne while reading this story.

Allen's POV

I knew I loved you. I knew you loved me. If our love was truly everlasting, then why I am out here, standing and staring at the rain, remembering all we've been through ,wishing you were right beside me.

Why did you have to go, and why didn't you take me with you?

You left me waiting here alone, waiting for your non-existent return.

You were a dream I didn't want to wake up from. A memory I never wanted to let go of.

I was the light of everyone, and you scolded me because you said that I should seek my own happiness before helping others. You were my happiness.

We literally went from hell and back, but we did it together.

We fought over petty things, only because we wanted the other's sole attention.

I remember the chilly autumn when we were curled up under the oak tree, my small body fitting perfectly against yours.

Why did you kill your self for me? Are you cruel enough to let me suffer in this world alone?

Did you want the best for me or did you want to laugh your stupid ass off at my grief?

Do you think living life is easy without you?

No matter how many people tell me to move on, I just can't.

I know you must be yelling at me from heaven to get of my lazy ass and live life.

But how can I? I have nothing left to live for, first Mana and now you.

I don't care about life any more. Sooner or later, the 14th will take over my body. I might as well save the Black Order the trouble by killing my self.

Would I then be considered as hero? Would God forgive my sin, the sin I have committed from letting you die for me?

If I do get into heaven, would you be there waiting for me with open arms or would you punch me?

Allen stared down at the black ocean as one tear rolled down his face and into the sea.

This is the last time I will cry for you for once someone finds that very tear in the ocean, that will be the time when I will stop loving you.

And as Allen jumped into the ocean, there was only one thing on his mind….

Watashi wa anata o Yū Kanda, watashi BaKanda ga daisukidesu.

I love you Yū Kanda, my BaKanda.

Author's Note: Sorry guys if it's a little unorganized cause I was in a rush making this. Bye!