Evening Falls
A/N: This is Martin's POV. The last few days of his journey to his birthplace and when he gets there. And guess what? It's an Enya song.
When the evening falls and the daylight is fading
From within me calls - could it be I am sleeping?
For a moment I stray, then it holds me completely
Close to home - I cannot say
Close to home - feeling so far away
It was sunset, a lovely red and orange, but I paid no heed to it. I could just see three tall rocks on the horizon. I knew those rocks; I knew the mountains rising behind them. Perhaps I was dreaming? I pinched myself. No, I wasn't dreaming, it hurt. I closed my eyes for a moment, and opened them again. I stared at the grey stones, unable to take my eyes off them. Maybe I was near the northlands…my real home. But then again, it could be a trick of the distance. I felt alienated from my fellow passengers on board the Honeysuckle, as well as everything else. I knew that place, they didn't.
As I walk the room there before me a shadow
From another world, where no other can follow
Carry me to my own, to where I can cross over
Close to home - I cannot say
Close to home - feeling so far away
I strode my cabin often those few days. Five paces by five every which way I turned. Then we landed on the north shore. I stared, and then left the ship. It was like stepping into a different universe. This was where I had been born, where I belonged. I could cross back into the homely atmosphere of the Honeysuckle if I wanted, but at that moment, I didn't want. I'd never felt like that before…it was strange, and not a little frightening. There was death in the air, as well as happiness.
Forever searching, never right
I am lost in oceans of night
Forever hoping I can find memories
Those memories I left behind
I stared out upon the stormy seas. I had searched a long time for my memories, almost forever, it seemed. I was lost in the wildness of the ocean. I hoped that someone could tell me about what happened to my father, my mother, and the rest of our tribe.
Gonff had more tact than he appeared to have. I knew it was him who had told the others to leave me alone. I turned and went into the caves.
Even though I leave, will I go on believing
That this time is real - am I lost in this feeling?
Like a child passing through, never knowing the reason
I am home - I know the way
I am home - feeling oh, so far away
When I leave here, will I believe that I actually found the truth of my father's fate? Or is it just a dream, lost in a feeling of happiness? I feel like a babe, not knowing why I'm here, why I was born…anything! But this is my home, I knew the way. I'm home, but I can't stay here, so I feel isolated. Why? Home is where the heart is, and my heart is torn in two - here with my parents, and in Noonvale with Rose. Maybe Redwall can help me to settle down. Then again, perhaps it won't.