Being so painfully aware of your own breathing was a very strange thing. It was like his body had suddenly become hyper aware of its own life. He thought he could feel the little bloodcells flowing thru his veins and his body absorb oxygen from his lungs. He was looking, but he didn't really see. He didn't want to. He didn't want to see the greifing families crying together because they lost a loved one. He didn't want to see the friends being re-united and crying and hugging. He didn't want to see the Weasleys standing in a bunch in the corner of the room. He didn't want to see how alone he was.

Harry looked up at the enchanted ceiling of the great hall.

The sun was rising.

And it brought him to tears. He couldn't explain it, but every emotion he had hidden inside him needed to come out that very moment and he cried. Loudly. Almost screaming from time to time, most definatly earning stares and looks. But it was uncontrollable. He couldn't do anything about it. All feelings left over from the torment, abuse, heartace, loss and everything alike was desperatly trying to get out of his body right in that moment.

" Harry! " He heard his name shouted with a broken and naked footsteps run towards him at an insane speed. Harry managed to compose himself just long enough to realise who was running like a madman to get to him.

" DAD! " He cried out desperatly and felt Sirius strong arms wrap around him tightly. He gripped the back of his dirty prison clothes and held onto him for dear life. They were both shaking, both with tears streaming down their faces. Harry felt his hand stroke the back of his hair and rocking him softly from side to side and Harry gave up on stopping the tears and just let them fall.

" I missed you so so much, little fighter " Sirius was clerly trying very hard to not just loose it. He kept his voice somewhat calm which actually helped Harry calm down a little bit. He was very thankfull that his godfather was managing to stay so composed in a time like this.

" I didn't even know if you were alive! " Harry cried out loudly and clung onto Sirius who gently lifted him into his lap and held his as close as he possibly could without hindering Harrys breathing.

" Shhh~ shh~ shh~ Of course i am~ "

" I thought they were gonna kill you in Azkaban! " He broke down crying again. At this point, the tears wern't sadness as much as just emotions finally allowed to come out. Sirius held Harrys head in his neck and shelided him from the rest of the world. No one needed to see his tears, no one needed to listen to them, this was private, and so personall, but it needed to happen right there and then no matter who looked.

" Im here Harry~ im right here ~ here, feel my heart im not going to leave you ever again. "

He repeatedly ran his dirty fingers thru Harrys messy hair in an attempt to soothe him. In a way, it helped. But the tears still needed to come. They had been pent up for so long and they needed out.

" Come here, let me look at you.. " Sirius super gently tilted Harrys head up to look at his face. He gave him the most adoring look thru his tears and whiped Harrrys cheeks with his dirty sleeves.

" ...Moony?" Harry whimpered, making sirius place a soft kiss on his forehead.

" Moony will be here any minute now, Moony is okay, Moony is alive. " He spoke with his lips against Harrys forehead and held his exausted body tightly against his chest. Harry couldn't be anything less than thankfull at that moment. Both his parents had survived. Just that made his body shake with relief. Because even tho neither Remus nor Sirius gave birth to him or were related to him, Harry thought of both of them as his dads. He knew he had another dad of course. The one he looked like, but he already gave his life for him and he had made sirius his godfather, and he could feel James Potter smiling down at him and hugging him thru Sirius. He would have wanted this. He didn't usually call Sirius dad to his face because he knew it gave him mixed emotions but right now, Harry really needed his dad and his dad was Sirius.

" I love you so much.. " Harry whispered once he had been able to compose himself some. Sirius arms assured his that he was safe now. He didn't need to fight for his life anymore. He could breathe without savouring every breath.

" I love you so much Harry, i love you so so very much~ " His head suddenly snapped up and he rubbed Harrys back quickly.

" Harry, Moony is here. "

" Harry! " Remus voice broke and he started rushing towards them. Sirius' eyes welled up with tears again and he reached his hand out to what everyone knew was the love of his life. Remus fell down on his knees next to them which looked extremly painfull becasue of how skinny he had gotten since Harry saw him last but he couldn't be bothered to think negative thoughts right now. He wraped his arms around Remus neck and cried into his shoulder. He felt his arms hold him while he remained in Sirius' lap.

" Moony! " He cried out and felt sirius hand rubb his back softly and he felt them lock their fingers together and everything just fell into place. Finally. Everything was gonna be okay.

" Later? "

" Later. "

They agreed quietly and focused everything they had on Harry. Kissing his wounds and holding him and rocking him and telling him how much they loved him.

After about fifteen minutes of just crying togehter in a bundle on the floor, Remus kissed his head one final time and rubbed his shoudler softly.

" Are you ready to go home, Harry? "

Harry nodded furiously. He wanted nothing more than to get clean and change clothes and crawl down in his own bed again.

" Is there anyone you wan- no, okay, lets go home then. " Sirius and Remus both helped Harry up on his feet. They stood for a while, waiting for Harry to stop shaking so they could walk. When Sirius realised that Harry wasn't fit to walk, he took a deep breath and lifted him up in his arms.

Harry couldn't remember anything after that. All he knew was that he woke up clean and in his pyjamas in his own bed that evning, sleeping on both their arms, inbetween them. He managed a tiny smile before going back to sleep. If he had slept thru a whole day, what harm could a few more hours do?

(*Hi guys, thank you so much for reading the prologue to my little story. This story is going to contain lots of love. Lots and lots of love, gay love, straight love, pure love. If you have any problem with that, please leave and dont bother reading further. To the good people reading- please keep reading and leave me rewiews to tell me what you think!

Next chapter is going to contain domestic wolfstar and a mysterious message to Harry + return to hogwarts. Enjoy!