Author's note: So I thought of this while listening to Traveling Soldier and I know there are some other stories out there kinda like this one but I really wanted to write it so here it is. Disclaimer: THE CHARACTERS OF LAW & ORDER:SVU DO NOT BELONG TO ME, THEY BELONG TO DICK WOLF AND NBC
"I'm gonna miss you." Alex said while hanging on to Olivia for dear life in the middle of the airport. Olivia was leaving for six months to Iraq.
"I'm gonna miss you too baby." Olivia replied trying to hold back her tears, she always hated leaving her wife to go to a war zone. She loved serving her country but she hated being away from the blue eyed beauty. Here she was in the middle of JFK ready to leave for six months and go fight on the front line for her country's freedom, but she didn't know if she could do it this time, this time was different. They had just found out a couple weeks ago that Alex was pregnant, she didn't want to miss the wonderful experience of her wife's pregnancy. This was their first child and she was afraid something would happen to Alex or the baby while she was gone, even though she knew she would be back before Alex gave birth she was still scared of missing out on seeing her baby be born.
"You can't go! We need you to stay, me and the baby. What about late at night when I have a craving? Who is going to go buy me weird foods at 3am if you aren't here? Please, just tell them you can't go!"
"I really wish I could Alex, but it doesn't work that way sweetheart." She knew she would have to go soon. She looked at clock and realized they had been standing there holding each other for almost a hour. "I gotta go soon babe." Olivia said with a sad smile.
"I love you." Alex said as she leaned in for a kiss. Neither one of them wanted the kiss to end but finally broke apart when air became a necessity. "I really am going to miss you, Liv." Alex said as a single tear rolled down her cheek.
"I know Alex, I'm gonna miss you so much, but just remember I will be back before our baby comes and then I am done. After this I don't have to leave anymore, I promise! I love you Alex, with all my heart." She put her hands on Alex's stomach and got down on her knees to talk to the baby. "Okay little one, you be good in there. Momma's gotta go for awhile but I'll be back and while I'm gone Uncle Elliot is going to take good care of you and mommy." She couldn't hold back her tears anymore as she kissed Alex's stomach and stood back up to say her final goodbye to her wife.
"You know she can't hear you yet." Alex said with a smile. "Yeah, but it's never too early to start talking to her. And when did you decide we were having a girl?" She asked with a smile of her own.
"I don't know I just feel like it is gonna be a girl, and if she looks anything like you she will be perfect." They had decided Alex was going to carry because of Olivia's career but they used Olivia's eggs, so technically Alex was carrying Olivia's baby. Olivia looked at the clock again and realized her plane would be boarding any minute so she had to go.
"I love you Alex." She said with a sad smile as she kissed her wife goodbye one last time. "I love you too Liv. Be safe, promise?"
"I promise. Goodbye love." Olivia said while backing away from her.
"Bye Liv." Alex put her hands on her stomach and watched as her wife turned and walked away. She sat down in one of the hard plastic chairs by the window and silently cried as she watched planes take off not knowing when Olivia's plane would take off. She hadn't realized how long she had been sitting there until she felt strong arms wrap around her. She looked up to see Elliot squatting in front of her.
"When you didn't come to dinner I figured you were still here." She looked out the window again and noticed it was dark already. "What time is it?"
"A little after 8 o'clock." Alex sat stunned, she had sat there for four hours and didn't even realize it. She could tell now because her back was stiff from sitting in the uncomfortable chair for so long. "Come on, let's get out of here." Elliot helped her up and took her back to her and Olivia's apartment. "I'm just gonna order some take out I think, tell Kathy I'm sorry for not showing, I just want to eat something then go to bed." Alex said with a sad smile. She always got a little depressed the day Olivia left, she knew after a couple days she would be fine again. It was just hard not to have her wife home with her. She ordered some chinese after Elliot left and then went to bed. She wore Olivia's old army T-shirt and cuddled with her pillow that still smelled like her.
Author's note: For the people that have been waiting for me to post this story because they read my first story sorry I meant to post this sooner but I ended up going to the hospital and just got out last night, but I hope you like it I have big plans for this story.