Introduction
EDWARD
Fire and Ice.
Fragility but still the strength
Warmth versus coolness
Openness... yet reservation.
She was a contradiction in terms and that in itself was what made her so interesting...if only she would be willing to let me in enough to experience every aspect of herself; not just the ones that many would see as her negatives.
I would give anything to be the one on the other end of her unwavering friendship and her beguiling smiles.
It would make my day if, just once, she looked at me with the same emotional warmth that she gave to the other people around us; if I could see those chocolate brown eyes light up for me as someone worth knowing.
Unfortunately that was not to be. Bella Swan held no love for me. To her I was nothing but the person she held disdain for, the person she only put up with because of our intertwining friendships with people who meant something to the both of us.
I had long given up on making her see me in a different way. I had tried and failed. It was difficult to fix something when you weren't aware of how it was broken in the first place. She had made it quite clear that for some unknown reason I was on her list of least favourite people and we had fallen into a completely useless relationship of ignoring, baiting and hidden jibes.
It caused me to ache with bitterness and confusion that Bella Swan was not my friend and would likely never be what I truly wanted and needed her to be...my everything.
I loved her.
She saw me as nothing.
...and I hated the whole sorry situation!
BELLA
He was beautiful but I told myself that that meant nothing to me.
He came across as kind, smart, loyal and friendly...to everyone but me.
He was every girl's dream of the perfect man...even mine... but I fought against that every single day and I even believed I was winning...mostly.
He was hard to ignore... but I managed, with a lot of effort.
His presence made me want too many things that I would never have with him...things I would never allow.
Even as the non-friends that we were, he unknowingly controlled me and I resented that...I wanted him to be nothing.
No one understood what I warred with every moment he was around. No one got how a usually easy going girl, such as myself, could hold so much malice for a man they considered the good guy. They did not know that my attraction to him actually made me feel like less of a person; made me feel morally inept.
The problem was my vision was jaded...no matter what good things he displayed I still knew the truth of it...I knew what he was capable of.
And I refused to be the girl who would accept that. No matter what...Edward Cullen was not for me!
Interested? This is a story that I have many chapters already written for so updates should not be too far between. Hope you enjoy reading and feel free to let me know what you think.
Cheers
Michelle