Authors note: I wanted to write something sad so I started writing this. Then I decided to tie it in with The mortal instrument series and here we are. I think i will continue with this story i just have to write it. :D
This takes place before COB Jace is around 15 and he and the lightwood kids went with Maryse and Robert on one of their trips to visit Idris.
"Get up Jay!" I yelled up the stairs.
The response I got was muffled "go away!"
"Jay, come on get up its already noon." No answer. The kids been living in his room for the past couple of weeks. He has to come down sometime.
I was about to go up the stairs and forcibly remove him from his bed when I heard a familiar voice behind me.
"I think he just wants to be alone right now. Just give him some space he'll come down when hes ready."I sigh, I know shes right. "Come and help me make lunch."
"Why does he have to mope around like this. Its so… depressing."
"People grieve in different ways"
"I understand that, but moping isn't going to make them come back…" I stop talking because I can feel the lump that starts to form every time someone mentions them. A month ago my parents were killed. My little brother Jason didn't take it to well.
"No it won't, but pretending it didn't happen won't bring them back either."
"I'm not pretending it didn't happen. I just want things to get back to normal."
"It didn't happen that long ago things aren't just going to go back to normal right away. I don't think things will ever be normal again."
"I don't want to talk about this any more." I grab my jacket and run out the door before the tears start to fall. I hear Aunt M call my name but i ignore her.
I run as fast as my feet will carry me. But I can't out run the pain that has taken up permanent residence in my chest. The tears in my eyes are blurring my vision and making it hard to see. Stopping I lean against a tree. Squeezing my eyes shut I will the tears to go away.
Once the tears stop threatening to fall I open my eyes. I look around my surroundings and gasp at where my legs have taken me. The cemetery.
I haven't been here since the funeral. The tears come back and the pain in my chest grows till its almost unbearable. I sigh and walk inside stopping at my parents grave. Memories from two weeks ago fill my head.
Me and Jay stood in this very spot and said goodbye. The tears finally fall as I remember the way his body shook as he kneeled in front of there grave's crying. I was on the brink of crying myself but I stayed strong. Don't cry I told myself you have to be strong for him he needs you. You are a shadow hunter and shadow hunters do not cry. Kneeling down beside him I wrap my arms around him and try to calm him down.
Now as I stand in front of their graves again my legs buckle and I fall to the ground. A sob escapes my mouth and its over I can't hold it in any more. Folding my arms around myself I finally allow myself to cry. My body shakes uncontrollably as the tears fall down my cheeks like water falls.
It hurts so much. The pain in my chest started the day that a man all dressed in black came to door of the London institute and told us our parents were dead. And its been there ever since never letting me forget.
At first I didn't believe him, I lived in a world of denial. I would sit in the big comfy chair in our living room and stare at the door convinced that mom and dad would walk through the door at any time. They never did and soon i had to faced the facts my parents were never coming back, I would never see them again.
That's when we were sent to live with our aunt in Idris. A week later my parents were buried here in the Idris cemetery.
The tears just kept coming and coming, a months worth all coming out at once.
After a while the tears stopped coming and I stopped shaking. Now I just sit there not moving. If anyone were to see me they probably would have thought I was dead myself.
"Hello?"
I jumped at the sound of a voice behind me. Turning my head I see a boy behind me. He looks to be about the same age as me. He's gorgeous, his hair is a beautiful blonde color almost gold and his eyes are gold as well.
Its then that I realize what I must look like. My hair was a mess when I left the house, i'm just wearing a pair of sweatpants and a tank top.
"Hello, are you ok?" The boy looks at me with… concern?
"I'm positively perfect" I say in an overly cheery voice.
He raises an eyebrow at me "really?"
"What do you think?" This time I make sure to as much venom into my words as possible.
Then he does something I would have never expected, he laughs at me. "You look terrible." He says.
Who does this guy think he is? "Well i'm sorry I didn't think I was going to be seeing anyone, next time I go to the cemetery i'll make sure to put on some makeup." He just nods his head but doesn't say anything.
"How long were you standing there?"
"Oh not long before I was sitting over there." He points to a spot on the hill overlooking the cemetery.
"Were you spying on me?"
"No! I was here first. I just watched you for a while."
"Oh how considerate of you, do you always watch people cry in cemeteries?"
He avoids my question by asking another question. This time his voice is more serious when he talks. "Whose graves are those?" He motions towards my parents graves with his left hand.
I hesitate. I'm not completely sure if I should tell him but I could probably kick his ass if need be so I tell him. "My parents"
He grimaces "I'm sorry, I lost my father to."
"What about your mother?"
"Never met her. I live with the lightwoods now."
I know who the lightwoods are they were part of the circle so now they have to live in the New York institute and only come to Idris on official business.
Extending his left hand to me he says,"I'm Jace by the way."
"Charlotte" I take his hand and shake it.
Taking a seat beside me he asks, "Where are you living now?"
"With my aunt here in Idris. I lived in the London institute for most of my life though." He nods his head but doesn't say anything else and we just sit there in silence.
Its nice for a while until I look up and see the sun is starting to set. What? I couldn't have possibly been here for so long aunt M is probably freaking out wondering where I am. I jump up and start to brush myself off.
"Where are you going?"
"Home my aunts probably freaking out by now. I didn't tell her where I was going either I just ran out of the house."
"Alright well bye."
I give him a quick wave before i take off running once again. But this time around the pain in my chest isn't as noticeable.
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