Tears fill my eyes, I made it. I'm in the afterlife.

Then it feels like my entire life floods inside my body making it heavier than I can carry. Did I finish my mission? Is Tobias going to be alright? That's when I remember my mother's right behind me, putting her hand on my shoulder. "He's going to be all right.", her soothing voice says. "Let's get you settled in."

I'm given an abnegation house, but it's the only one in the sea of homes. There's a house right next to me that looks very busy, people coming out and in. It's two stories, but looks as if the bottom half is a business. I turn to the left, expecting to see my mother but she's no where to be found. I only see a steel door leading in to a very odd looking house. Almost like a bunker, but more homey.

It looks like there are more houses up and down streets, but I'm at the end near a forest opening. I stop looking around and just head inside, like I did everyday before my life took a tragic turn. My mother's knitting needles clacking always plays through my head when I get a feeling some what like home. My father would be reading the paper, usually upset about the Erudite. Mother would be knitting. Caleb would be doing homework at the table, always a little too intrigues by what he's reading. We should've seen the signs.

My hand runs along the wall, the wood banister up the stairs, my bedroom door. Is it still considered my bedroom? If I end up living here alone, I could take the master, but that wouldn't feel right considering this is my childhood home. I lay down on my bed, and close my eyes.

My mother comes back in a little latter, surprising me by having a meal ready when I come down the stairs. We don't speak, but she's watching me. Sitting at the table with a smile on her face. I don't know what comes over me, but tears start streaming down my face. I pull her into an embrace, letting her hold me for a while. She strokes my hair and pulls away, sitting back down. Across the table, theres another plate; steamed carrots, a slab of beef and bread. The generic Abnegation meal.

"I missed you, I knew you could do it."

"What- What exactly happened?" I sputter out. Then a flow of questions come out.

" Is Tobias okay?"

"Is Dad here?"

"What about Christina, Cara, Caleb.?"

"Where the hell am I!?"

I know I'm and adult and am aloud to swear, but it just seems embarrassing, or like there's guilt over my head when I do it in front of my mom. Her smile doesn't die down even though I can tell she's quite bothered by my choice of words. "We've all died. Every single person in this area, we get to see each other all again. This is the WICKED portion of the town. Everybody who's been in their experiments, or have been affected by them in some way live here."

"Wicked?" I say.

"You'll learn, Beatrice. I've helped organize a class every Tuesday that teaches the residents what's happening, how to cope, and we hosts social events. I hope to see you there tomorrow."

I'm too stunned to speak, I'm dead? Does that mean I'll never see Tobias again? Or will he die and come to me?

"Yeah sure," I awkwardly say as I clear her plate. I open up the shades in the kitchen and see the sun setting, and the bustle has died down over at the mysterious house.

"I love you," mom says as she kisses my forehead.

"I love you too." I reply, not wanting her to go.

"I'll see you at the class tomorrow morning?"

"I count on it."

Then she walks out the door, and I close it behind her.

CHAPTER 2

I wake up early, reaching to feel the warmth of Tobias and only end up grasping the cold bed sheets. Knowing I'm in a house all alone, I scream out loud. I scream and let the tears run down my face, down my neck, dripping onto the bed. "Tris, your better than this!" I tell myself. It's only been a couple days since I've seen him, why am I acting like this?

I hear a knock on the door, and jump up to let mom in. I don't bother to brush my hair, I just slip on some slippers and jog-walk down the stairs.

I swing the door open, when a girl a little younger than me is standing there holding a small basket.

"Hello?", I quickly pat down my hair, embarrassed by my appearance.

"I'm Primrose Everdeen! I live next door, I was a part of the experiments too!"

I'm still sort of startled by her when, she senses the awkwardness, and thrusts the basket towards me. I invite her inside, not knowing what else to do. She explains her own situation, which was pretty impressive. Prim, which she told me to call her, lived in an experiment where every year they'd put tributes in an arena to fight to the death. She was picked as tribute, but her older sister went in her place, and won. The capitol saw things that she did as an act of defiance, and a war started. One of the reliance's bombed the capitol, where Prim was helping the injured, and each and every child died. She ran an under the counter hospital with her mom in her district, which is how she learned it.

Prim and I end up going to one of the orientations together,

It's nothing like I expected, everybody who told us our city was fake and a lie, we're also part of the experiment? They were just as brain washed as we were, neither of us got happy endings. WICKED stands for World In Catastrophe; Killzone experiment department. It was separated into different departments researching different parts of the human brain. The entire world suffered from a series of world catastrophes. The heat waves came and melted Icebergs, and damaged the majority of humans. A virus started growing in the killzone, but specific places' got the cure in time. Different experiments weren't told the cure in time, killing off most of the race. This WICKED had so diverse experiments, it was almost amazing, but horribly cruel. There of course was mine, then the HungerGames, which Prim told me about. Then there was the Mazes. They put boys and girls inside of mazes, which they escaped from, then in a desert, and then even more obstacles that were even more planned out. WICKED let them inside, and a famous Dr. Teresa found the cure.

I end up walking home with Prim, who promises she'll go around and introduce me to her friends. I'm getting home and see a car pull up in the weird bunker looking house; with a strawberry blonde girl around my age, it's weird how many people are the same age as me live here. That's when a red headed late-teenage-boy hops out of the drivers side. Prim points to them, "That's Sonya and Newt, they're siblings from the maze trials." They had original names from their childhood, but decided to go by the names WICKED gave them. When you die, all of the memories come back wether they've been erased or not.

I go into her house, which she lives in alone just like me. Are they all our homes from our memories? Primrose stops in the kitchen and grabs a bucket from under the sink.

"What's that for?" I ask, as I follower her out back. That's when I see a cat and a goat? The cat is the ugliest I have ever seen, and she hisses when we make eye contact. A loud knocking comes from the door.

"Hey can you grab that Tris?" While she looks up from milking the goat. I head to the door and swing it open, fumbling with the lock for a few seconds. "Hey I-" a darker girl with magnificent brown curly hair starts to say before she sees me, obviously expecting Prim. "Back here!" Prim calls out, and I follow the mysterious girl through the doors.

"Rue, this is Tris."

"Tris, this is my friend Rue."

That night when I go to bed, my heart aches. I hate living alone, and I hate not being with Tobias. He was my everything, and I get depressed when I know I won't be able to see him again! If I wish to be able to be with him again, that means I'm wishing for him to die! I'll never have a future with him, I'll never see him again. The night before I left is the last memory I'll ever have with him. I start crying, and crying, and crying. Eventually I cry myself to sleep.

I wake up to a wet pillow, and all I do is flip it over. I don't feel like getting up today. What's the point? There's nobody depending on me, nobody waiting or who would benefit from me being awake. That's when my father walks into my room, how the heck did he get inside! "Beatrice, what are you doing? Are you okay?" He says, knowing that I chose to stay in this late in the day. Avoiding the question, I roll out of bed and give him a hug. But still, how did he get into my house?

I skip down the stairs, where my mother is knitting in the living room and dad gets back to cooking something on the stove.

"Beatrice, dear, grab some plates from the cupboard."

I follow obediently, and we all sit down for breakfast.

"Now that you're an adult, and we live so close by, your mother and I have decided to help you out as you're first getting settled in the afterlife." He states.

"Thank you, it means a lot to me," I say almost monotone.

On the days that I have nothing to do, I haven't stopped thinking about Tobias, and I am positive that I'm depressed. I read one of the fliers for the meeting that mom has, and it looks like they have group therapy, which seems the slightest bit helpful. Ehh, I'll give it a try. Looks like it's this evening, at four o clock.

When I get there, there's chairs in a circle, which are almost half filled in. I recognize Newt, I think his name was, and sit next to him. Soon after, a woman comes in and sits down and starts to talk.

"Welcome, let's first start out with our names, and a little something about ourselves from the experiments." She soothingly says. She sets her hands in her lap and begins.

"My name is Tiffany Blovk, and I was a part of the hunger games experiment. I was reaped for the 47th annual games and was killed with an axe to the shoulder by a career tribute." A few people seem to mutter disapprovingly towards the thought of a "career tribute", or whatever those are.

That's when I notice Rue, the girl from Prims house who speaks up next.

"I'm Rue, I was also apart of the HungerGames, the 74th annual games. I was friends and allies with Katniss Everdeen." Isn't that Prim's last name? A few other people go, then it comes up to Newt. I didnt realise how handsome he was until now, and my heart starts beating faster. I cant be having these thoughts! I have to stay loyal to tobias, but what if I never see him again? He would want me to move on, but not if he's coming back! Then all of a sudden its my turn, I didnt hear a single thing Newt said. I take a deep breath, here I go...