Edward's P.O.V Just before New Moon.

Impossible. This was impossible. There is no way that any of this could be real. I looked over at her across the room. She looked back at me, eyes full of hidden promises. I felt like I was drowning in them.

I've never felt such feelings of desperation before. It was like seeing for the first time. I was in love with this human. This absurdly, ridiculous, human girl. She was unlike anyone I had ever met in all of my immortal years.

I could feel Jasper's gaze penetrating me. No doubt the complexity of all the thoughts running through me must be emotionally barrelling him. I didn't know my own feelings. I was at destruction point.

I wanted to run to her and pull her into my arms. I wanted to kiss her tender neck. I wanted to tear her apart, wanted to feel her hot blood coursing through me. I wanted her dead and I wanted her forever.

I felt Alice's fingertips press into my arm. "Edward please," she murmered, her voice too low for human ears to hear. "She's part of our future, you just can't let this go."

I inwardly scoffed. There was every reason to let her go. The very scent of her made me mad with longing. Her blood called to me in a way that I had never felt before. Surrounded by humans daily was a hard enough trial.

Jasper sent me wave after wave of calm. I felt it wash over me, like the ocean crashing on the shore. It alleviated the burning sense of bloodlust marginally. My throat still felt like it was on fire.

As she walked over to me, my throat constricted painfully. My eyes glanced furtively up and down her beautiful form before settling on her red lips. Her small pink tongue darted out and wetted her dry lips. I ached to taste her, in more ways than one.

Frozen forever at seventeen, my body warred with my instincts as a killer. There was a longing in me to take her now and make her mine. She was mine, she belonged to me. I closed my eyes and inhaled her scent, torturing the very depths of my soul.

"Edward?" she softly murmered, her voice full of uncertaintity.

"Bella," I replied tenderly, taking her into my arms. "I missed you."

She smiled against my chest, her fingers pressing against my back. When she was in my arms, I felt that I was at the gates of hell. How could I live with what I was doing, dragging her into my world of darkness. It wasn't right.

"Edward, I'm so glad you're back. Did you find any mountain lions?"

I smiled crookedly down at the girl who had completely turned my world upside down. Alice grinned in victory. My internal war was on hold for now. I leaned down and gently kissed her forehead.

The blush flooded her cheeks immediately . I gazed at the innocent reaction and my throat burned. She was my heaven and hell. For eternity.

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