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You
were right there in front of me
I
thought about you everyday
I
prayed that God would save me
Please
take me far away
Away
from this horrible person
Who
I grew to hate
Take
me back to the one I love
But
it was just too late
I
hurt you
I
can't even imagine the pain
I
just walked away and pretended
It
didn't kill me to hear your name
But
it did
Every
letter every sound
I
just tried to ignore my feelings
But
they were always around
Haunting
my thoughts
Everywhere
I turned
It
seemed there was nowhere to go
My
lesson was learned
He
hurt me
But
I liked the feeling
The
feeling of being called a name
That
I thought I deserved
Like
it was some kind of game
I
hated him
For
everything he did to me
Made
me have sex with him
So
unwillingly
Not
rape
But
if I didn't listen to what he said
I'd
hear it until
I
let him take me to bed
It
was horrible
The
worst time of my life
I
even was scared
I'd
end up his wife
Somehow
God heard me
That
day on his bed
When
we started to do it
I
cried and silently said
"This
doesn't feel right
He's
not who I need
God
place hear this
Bring
him back to me"
After
that moment
I
knew it was done
I
didn't care anymore
The
game was over he won
If
it wasn't for that drunken night
Or
that day in study hall
I
might still be unhappy
Unsatisfied
with his call
I
think God finally listened
I
promised him I'd change
I
changed for the better
So
I could finally have your last name 3