Beloved-Chapter One

Ritsuka stretched, yawning as he moved. A gentle smile crossed his lips as his gaze fell on the sleeping man next to him. The boy silently rolled off the bed, and started searching for his pants. The boy had aged a lot since he first met the blond currently asleep in his bed, but he still looked small for his age. Ritsuka was now a senior in high school, but he was still short, and despite the fact that he let Soubi stay over frequently, he managed to keep his ears.

As he laughed triumphantly, for he finally found his pants, Soubi stirred a bit. Blushing Ritsuka mentally scolded himself, knowing he should be quiet, for more than one reason. There was a chance his mother might come up stairs if he disturbed her, and he loved watching Soubi sleep. There was just something about the way his light blond hair fell around his face and shoulders, and the way the sun seemed to make his pale skin glow. He couldn't help it. The dark haired boy walked over to the edge of his bed, and leaning forward, lightly pressed his lips to Soubi's. He'd kissed him many times before, often being the one suddenly grabbed and embraced, but he always felt the same. Something inside of him felt like it was breaking. It hurt so much to open his eyes and look at the other man's face, but in a good way. His mind was screaming at him that he needed to stop before he got hurt. Inside though, he already knew that if he did stop, it would only hurt more.

This couldn't be love though. All the books he read and that Yukio shoved at him had stories where love was all hugs and smiles and happily-ever-after. What he felt was consuming him. It didn't feel like butterflies in his stomach, and he didn't expect Soubi to ride up on a white stallion and slay a dragon for him. Besides that though, they were both guys. Not that there was anything wrong with two guys loving each other, but Ritsuka had always tried to think of Soubi as 'Seimei's friend', it was only recently that he started referring to him as 'his Soubi.' It just couldn't be love, maybe a brotherly love...but if that was the case, why did he want to kiss him again?

Ritsuka turned quickly and started searching for a shirt when Soubi rolled over and his grey eyes fluttered open. He glanced over his shoulder to see Soubi sitting up, and brushing his hair off his face. Trying his best not to let Soubi see him blush he quickly returned his attention to his closet.

"Oh, um..Morning Soubi! I thought you were going to sleep in..."

"No... though I'd like too..." Soubi stretched his arms a over his head, refusing to leave the bed just yet. Ritsuka could feel his eyes watching him, observing every movement, and it only made him blush more. He didn't know why, but Soubi had always done that to him, make him feel embarrassed and start blushing. He was just glad that Soubi hadn't asked him to piece anything again, after 'marking' him by piercing his ears, he didn't want to hurt Soubi ever again. Suddenly he felt Soubi behind him. The older man's arms wrapped around his waist, and pulled him close to his body. It happened every time Soubi spent the night, he should be used to it. Still, something about the man being determined to just hold onto him every morning made him want to melt.

"Uh...Soubi...I really need to get dressed, I don't want to be late for school..."His voice was soft, and the words almost mumbled. He didn't really want to go to school, and he didn't really want his friend to let go, but Ritsuka knew the routine already. First Soubi would hold him, just keeping him close; then, he would kiss his ears, and ask why he hadn't lost them yet. If Ritsuka didn't stop it there, he would end up pretending to be sick, or having a particularly bad day and either sneak out to spend the day with Soubi, or claim he was going to see his doctor. Determined, Ritsuka pushed Soubi off of himself.

He looked over at the other man, smiling gently, "I'm sorry... But... Don't." He finally picked his shirt back up, and put it on. He grabbed the cell Soubi had given him and placed the loop around his neck.

"Let me get some clothes on, my car's around the corner." Ritsuka watched, despite himself, as Soubi pulled on clothing over top his lean body. "I'll climb out the window, and be back in a few, is the brat coming along today?" The boy laughed a bit, knowing that Soubi was referring to Yukio, and nodded his head.

"Yea...I told her we would ride the bus together today... but... I mean... You don't have to take us to school Soubi, I know you don't like having to drive us there." His dark eyes fell downward, and he began studying the floor, as though he might find something interesting if he looked long enough. Soubi's hand on his chin though, made him look back up into bright, loving eyes. Ritsuka smiled, barely, and wrapped his arms around Soubi, whispering a thanks.

By the time he was downstairs, an apple in his hand, Ritsuka could hear Yukio outside. She wasn't even to his house yet, he could hear her singing as she walked towards the door. He sighed, laughing a bit, and picked up his bag. Opening the door he saw Soubi leaning against his car, as promised, and Yukio screaming in joy, then jumping on Soubi to hug him, before running to Ritsuka to do the same. He could feel it, that thing inside him again. That feeling that made him want to cry when ever he touched Soubi, it twisted his insides for a second as he watched the man smile and pat Yukio on the head. Of course, Yukio didn't notice, she thought Ritsuka was always frowning, and Soubi didn't say anything, he only looked at Ritsuka, worry on his face, for a few second before the hyper girl started asking questions about how he was, and where he had been.

Writer's Note: None of these character's are mine, the story "Loveless" is not mine, I'm mearly writing a fanfic of it. Anyhow, not much to say really. If you don't like Yaoi and Shounin-ai, then I guess you shouldn't have clicked on the story, so please don't lecture me about how it's "wrong" or something like that. Oh, and I hope you enjoyed the first part, and I'll be posting again soon. I've labeled the story as being mature because it will mostly likely get some explicit scenes later on, but right now it was only fluff.

Edit:I'm sorry for anyone that read this and got confused... I got Yukio and Yayoi mixed up. Sorry, it's been a while since I read the manga or watched it. Please forgive me, I PROMISE I won't mix them up again!