Degrees of Separation
JJ
It was hard sometimes, watching them together. They were a perfect couple, just like she and Will had been before everything happened. Now she was torn, between the perfect couple that wanted one more and the father of her young son. She loved Will, she truly did, yet what she felt for both Derek and Emily was strong too. It was hard for her to decipher her feelings, for she didn't understand how she could love three people all at the same time.
Sometimes she felt like her attraction to Derek and Emily was purely physical, that maybe she just lusted after them. Thinking about it though she knew it couldn't be just that; they knew her like nobody else (including Will) and she knew them in the same proximity.
She didn't want to have to make a choice but they were pushing her to. They'd told her she needed to tell Will what'd happened between them. They'd said it wasn't fair to him to lie about something like that.
It wasn't fair? What wasn't fair was them forcing her to make a decision. She wanted both parts of her life to remain separate, she did not want them crossing. Telling Will however, would be mixing those two parts together, horrifically.
All of this was why she was sitting in her office on a Saturday, hoping to avoid all three of them. She did not want to talk to Will and she was kind of mad at Derek and Emily. Luck mustn't have been on her side though because half way trough her day a knock sounded on her door.
"JJ?" The voice called and the blonde knew it was Emily. She contemplated pretending she wasn't there but she was sure the dark haired profiler had already seen her car in the parking lot.
"Come in," JJ replied tiredly.
Emily entered the office and shut the door quietly behind her. She watched the blonde for a moment before sitting herself in the seat opposite JJ's desk. Emily stayed silent, waiting for the other woman to finish up whatever she'd been doing.
"What do you want Emily?" JJ asked brusquely.
Emily smiled tightly before answering, "Look JJ we're sorry for pushing you. It's not fair, you're right. That's why we've decided to eliminate a choice."
JJ was confused. She didn't get what Emily had said about eliminating a choice. Wouldn't that mean then that one (or two) persons would back down...Realisation hit then as her eyes jerked to Emily's, wide and confused.
"Eliminate a choice? But that means you two-"
"That's right. It's not fair; Derek and I don't want you to give up Will and Henry, you're family, for something that may not work. It was selfish of us to even think about it, let alone ask you to choose," Emily replied, trying to keep her emotions in check.
JJ didn't know what to do. She was thoroughly confused; had Emily and Derek just broken up with her? She could feel the tears pooling in her eyes but she would not let them fall in front of Emily. No matter the fact that Emily had seen her cry plenty of times, these tears were ones she wanted to shed in private.
"Can you please go," JJ said quietly, refusing to meet the brunette's eyes.
Emily stood hesitantly, her own tears threatening to spill. She went to place her hand atop JJ's as a gesture of comfort but as soon as her hand drew close JJ moved her hand out of reach.
"We're sorry Jennifer," Emily told her softly as she left the blondes office.
AN: So, I've been wanting to write something like this for ages. This was inspired by Blissful Ends my other story which features these three prominently and yes this is a threesome fic. I'm quite interested in polyamorous relationships and the dynamics held within them. This is my attepnt at exploring and experimenting with that.
Someone is bound not to like this but if I get any more flames after this chapter I'm going to just ignore it because I've blatantly said it was about a polyamorous relationship.
Please review. Let me know what you think! :) LT.