AN: Idk just kinda popped into my head. Love ya guys. Let me know whatcha think.
DISCLAIMER: not mine etc.
To my dearest Reg,
I don't know what's doing on. And in all honesty, I don't care. I don't care that he's a man. I don't care that he's a werewolf. I don't care that it's not right, or that everyone will hate us.
It doesn't matter that father will give me that cold piercing stare. That his eyes will look at me burning with anger and ice and hate. And his shoulders will tense and square. That he will turn his back on me and tell mother what I've done.
But it matters even less what mother will think. I don't care that she'll scream at me, call me a filthy, spiteful, half-breed loving, disgraceful blood traitor. And after that she'll grab me by the throat and slam me into to wall. And I'll laugh. Oh how I'll laugh as she hexes and curses me into oblivion. My giggles will make her even more furious and she'll start to crucio me, but I'll just keep on laughing, because she can't hurt me. Not really.
And I'll miss you Reg. But I have to do this. I have to leave. Otherwise I'll never be free. I'll never be able to touch him like I want to, be with him the way I need to. Hold him the way I'm meant to.
Not that he'd even probably accept me. Reg, I have a secret to tell you. I've never told anyone about my feelings before. You're the only one who knows how I feel towards him; no one even knows that I'm not into girls. Not even HE knows that I'm gay.
Well, not gay. I've never been interested in any men other than Remus. Only him. And since I realized my feelings for him, I've not been interested in any women either. And Reg, I am so, so, so, so sorry. But in writing this farewell letter to you, I've realized something even more important. Something that just flipped my world on its side.
And Reg, my beloved little brother, know always, in your heart, that I love you so much, and as soon as I'm back on my feet I'll come get you. And we'll go away together, and get away from mother and father and purebloods and all that other shit.
But Reg, no matter how much I love you…
I love him too.
Your Brother,
Sirius Black
Tears smudged the ink on the page as Regulus Black read and reread the note left behind by his brother. It was true, everything he'd said about mother and father. He'd laughed and laughed whilst mother was torturing him.
Another tear slid down Regulus' face as he reread tha=ose wrds again, for what felt like the five-billionth time.
"I love him too". Dispair clutched his aching heart as those words seared through his twelve year old head. And at that point, Regulus decided he would have his brother back, would find a way to become his number one boy again. To be the one he loved most again.
No matter what it took, or how long it took. He would get his brother back.