Why do I like him, out of all the seishi? Not to mention there is no way I can ever really know him, since he is my senior by ten years. There are so many other better seishi out there, but why him?
I suppose it might be his willingness to listen to anyone, no matter how the person might feel. Or it could be the fact that he is the unseen leader, not attempting to achieve any merit or reward for his efforts, but staying in the background. It could be his attempts to disguise his problems, not wanting to cause anyone trouble. He doesn't need anyone else to cry for him; he would rather help other people than let them see his tears. He is so deserving of someone to love him, yet he believes himself unworthy, after his friends died in pursuit of this feeling, this emotion that he attempts, no, manages to cease in his grief.
I wish I could be there. Even though I am so much younger, and would be unable to understand him completely, but I could be there for him. When it is time for humour and fun, I can smile, laugh, and understand what is meant. When it is time for tears… I know not how to console him, but I sit beside him, and share his tears, in what little way I can.
He is in a different dimension from me. I know I can never meet him, but how I wish it were possible, even for a second…
Is that so impossible a dream?
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