Title: Screaming Infidelities
Author: VietAngel
Pairing: Asha/Alec
Rating: PG-13, some borderline R moments in the first chapter
Disclaimer: The usual…I don't own these characters…yada, yada, yada.

Author's Note: I'm using McDowell as Alec's last name because that's what it says on the Jensen Ross Ackles Unlimited website. This story begins after Borrowed Time (and ignores everything after it) and assumes that Asha didn't fall asleep and they did hook up that night. It has no connection to any other Asha/Alec story I've written.

01/25/04 – I've gone back and corrected some typos (thanks to iluvaqt). I never catch these things until after I read the story 30 times. When you're reading your own writing you often see what you wanted to be there, not what's really there. So if anyone catches any other typos, just let me know.

02/17/04 – I've reloaded the first two chapters to match the format of Chapter 3. Hopefully it's easier to read this way.

He sat there watching her as she danced. There was something mesmerizing about the way her body moved. She waved to him, calling him over to dance with her…and who was he to turn a lady down? As he reached her she wrapped her arms around his neck and pressed their bodies together as she moved to the beat, and he instinctively let his hands cup her hips. He could see the excitement in her eyes as the next song began to play. It was one of her favorites…some old pre-pulse song by a band called Nine Inch Nails. He struggled to recall the name but finally it came to him. Closer…that's what it was called. He had been so preoccupied with trying to remember the name of the song that he hadn't noticed her turn around.

Her back was to him now, but they were so close that even air would have had a hard time coming between them. She was grinding her ass against his crotch excruciatingly slowly, and in that moment he realized how appropriate the lyrics to that song were. She had a bad habit of making him want to do really dirty things to her…or maybe it was a good habit. His state of arousal seemed to encourage her. She flung one arm behind her head and grabbed the back of his neck. Pulling him forward she flicked her tongue against his cheek and smiled. She was in a good mood, a very good mood, and for a moment he felt bad about having to ruin that. When the song ended they were both flushed and slightly out of breath…they always had that effect on each other.

She made a move to leave the dance floor, but realizing his embarrassing predicament, he hooked an arm around her slender waist and pulled her back against him. Spinning around in his arms to face him, she looked at him as if to ask why he had done that. He looked down, drawing her attention to the tent in his pants, and she smirked devilishly…proud of her handiwork.

"You are an evil woman Mrs. McDowell," he said.

"Yeah, I know," she said with a shrug, "but my mom always told me to finish what I start…so what do you say we head home and I'll take care of that for you?"

"Oh baby, I wish I could, but I promised Sketchy I would hang out with him tonight," he replied. The smile immediately left her face and her expression fell somewhere between sad and pissed off.

"Alec, can't you blow him off? You know this is the first night we've had time to be alone together in a really long time," she replied.

"Asha I'm sorry, I really am, if I had known we'd both be around tonight I would have never told Sketchy I'd go…but I promised him last week," Alec replied.

He hated to do this to her, but it was the only way he could buy himself enough time to get home and set up the surprise he had in store for her.

"Fine, do what you have to do. I'll see you later," she said. Then she walked away without even giving him a goodbye kiss. Yeah, she was definitely pissed off. He watched as she went over to where Max, Logan, and the rest of the S1W were. They were at Crash celebrating a victory over a group of corrupt sector cops, but he had the distinct feeling that Asha didn't feel like celebrating anything anymore. He headed home to start setting up. By the look she had on her face before he left, he knew she wouldn't be too far behind.

Alec arrived home and immediately began pulling bags out of strange hiding places. He couldn't believe he had actually gotten away with hiding this from her for nearly a week. He began by setting up dozens of scented candles all over the house. They smelled like lavender…her favorite. He lit them all, and then turned his attention to the bathroom. He put more candles all around the bathtub…then ran a bath scented with honey and vanilla bubbles. He also threw some red and white rose petals into the bath, then used to rest to make a trail for her to follow from the front door to the bathroom.

Now all he had left to do was wait. He hadn't done anything this romantic for Asha in a long time. With the way things had been going with them recently, they definitely needed it. It was hard to believe that they had been married for over four years now. Who would have ever though that he would be a father…or a husband for that matter. They had gotten off to a rocky start, but ended up getting married just before their son Gabriel Alexander McDowell was born. Alec smiled as he thought about Gabe. All that thinking about Asha and Gabe caused a wave of guilt to wash over Alec. He was keeping a secret that could change all of their lives forever. Just then he heard Asha's key in the door and ran back to the bathroom to hide.

Asha gasped as she entered the apartment. She had been all prepared to be greeted by an empty home and spend a lonely night in bed, but instead she was greeted by the soft glow of candlelight, her favorite scent, and rose petals. She knew exactly who was behind it and she would kill him tomorrow for tricking her…but tonight, she was just going to sit back and enjoy. She dropped her keys and her jacket at the door and followed the trail of rose petals back to their bedroom. That room was also full of candles and rose petals were strewn all over the bed. The trail of petals stopped at the closed bathroom door. She didn't know why she was nervous, but she opened the door hesitantly and smiled at the sight before her.

Alec was standing in his birthday suit, with nothing but a single white rose to hide behind. He reached out to her with one hand and pulled her toward him.

"Surprise," he whispered as he handed her the rose and kissed her softly on the lips. She was too overwhelmed to say anything for a minute or two.

"Wow, this is beautiful. What did I do to deserve all this?" she asked, once she could manage to form words.

"You put up with me," he replied with a shrug. She laughed softly…nervous laughter. She had a nagging feeling that his answer had a greater meaning than him just being playful, but she wasn't going to let her mind run away with her now. "Now gorgeous, we've got to get you out of these clothes before your bath gets cold," he said. She made a move to undo her belt but he stopped her. He told her that tonight was about her and she wasn't to lift a finger.

He began slowly undressing her and he smirked as her breath caught in her throat every time his fingers grazed her skin. He couldn't help but stop and smile appreciatively as he gazed upon Asha's secret guilty pleasure. He knew his wife would give her last dime to help a person in need, but she had a serious thing for sexy lace underwear, and that was the one thing she wouldn't give up for anyone. He'd asked her about it once. She told him that being a revolutionary most often required a uniform of jeans and shit kicking boots, and an attitude of being just one of the guys. She said that the sexy underwear reminded her that she was a real woman underneath it all, and the feel of it against her skin always gave her a much needed boost of feminine energy…it made her feel powerful. He had never fully understood what she meant until now…looking at her stand their in those black lace panties with the matching bra, she was definitely the one with all the power.

Getting on with the task at hand, he carefully removed them and led her over to the bathtub where he patiently waited as she eased into the steaming hot pool. He eased in behind her and wrapped his arms around her, and she sighed contentedly as she leaned back against his chest. He had almost forgotten how good she felt in his arms. Had it really been so long? He kissed the top of her head before taking a loofah and making the hot water rain down over the parts of her body that weren't submerged, and smiled at her moans of bliss. Asha was so relaxed that she felt like her bones had dissolved as he lovingly washed her body and then her hair.

"Now remind me Mr. McDowell…why haven't we done this more often again?" Asha asked, her voice thick with some strangely intoxicating hybrid of desire and sleepiness.

"Because I'm obviously an idiot," he replied, "Baby, the water's getting cold…we should get out now." Asha pouted, but agreed.

Alec got out first and then helped Asha up. Something came over him as he watched her stand up. Naturally, he had seen her naked countless times before, but there was just something strange about tonight. He couldn't keep his eyes off of her. He could barely contain himself as he looked at her standing there dripping with water and bubbles. Before Asha knew what was happening, Alec had carried her out of the bathroom and gently placed her on the bed…there would be no drying off that night. As they made love that night, all Alec wanted to do was please her. He pulled out all the stops, pleasuring her in ways neither of them ever thought possible…making love to her as if it would be the last time they'd ever get to do this.

The next morning he was the first to wake, as usual. She had kept him up all night anyway with all her tossing and turning and kicking the sheets off. She only did that when there was something on he mind and he wondered what it was. Maybe she was worried about how things had been changing between them as of late. Her worrying made him worried. Their friends still thought they were Mr. and Mrs. Perfect, but they both knew better. When Asha wasn't busy with Gabe, she was spending every spare minute working with Logan and the S1W. He resented that, but he knew that was just her way of reacting to him. He had been pushing her away lately. Until last night he hadn't made love to her in months…hell, he had barely even touched the woman in months outside of a few rather chaste kisses. That feeling of guilt returned.

They used to spend hours just talking about any and every thing, he used to rush home just to hold her…but for the past few months they had barely said anything to each other unless it was about Gabe or a mission. Her eyes used to be so alive, such a vibrant blue. But now they were dark and dull, and she seemed to be on the verge of crying whenever he was around…she was astute enough to sense that things were going horribly wrong. He had been up and dressed for hours, but as he looked at her sleeping he just had to go lie down beside her. She was lying on her back with her head turned toward him, one arm bent so her hand rested near her face, the other splayed out across the other side of the bed.

She was so beautiful lying there with her lips slightly parted. As he lightly traced her lips with his finger, he felt terrible about what he had done. He knew he had to make things right…today. He didn't want to lose her, she was everything to him and he had been so stupid to take that for granted. He didn't want to lose his family. He rested his hand lightly on her flat stomach, then closed his eyes and sighed as the realized how dumb he had been to jeopardize that. He was startled to find hazy blue orbs looking back at him when he opened them again.

"Cold" she whispered as she yawned and stretched gracefully.

"Of course you are, you're naked…and you've been kicking the covers off all night," he replied. Her brow knitted as if she didn't understand and she looked down to find that the sheet was just barely hanging on to her hips and she was bare from there up.

"Oh," she replied softly, still sleepy. She shivered and he pulled the sheet up around her before placing his hand back on her stomach and rubbing it slowly. "What are you thinking about?" she said so softly he wouldn't have heard it if not for his enhanced hearing. He smiled…he loved how soft her voice was when she first woke up.

"I was just wondering how you got to be so perfect without any help from Manticore," he began, "…and I was also thinking about what it would be like if…maybe…we had another baby."

That definitely woke her up. They had never discussed it before; she had always assumed it was something he didn't want.

"Wow. I didn't know it was something you were thinking about. I mean…I know how much you love Gabe, but you weren't exactly thrilled when I first told you I was pregnant so I just thought you wouldn't want another," she said.

"I know, I wasn't really thinking about it until now. I never thought I'd be a good father since I never had one…but being with Gabe is just so amazing. I think going through the process of actually planning to have a baby would be even more amazing. I wasn't there for you during most of your pregnancy with Gabe and I'm so sorry for that. I want to know what it's like to be there every step of the way, to get you ice cream and pickles when you have a craving at three in the morning and all that," he replied.

Asha was speechless. She wanted to tell him that this would be a huge mistake unless they worked out whatever problem it was they were having lately, but she just couldn't bring herself to say the words. He had just poured his heart out to her, and she just couldn't step on it when he was looking at her with those eyes…begging her to say yes. Instead she ignored her brain and followed her heart.

"I think it's a great idea, I'd love to have another baby with you," she said, smiling. He was so happy he pulled her on top of him and kissed her.

"How do you feel about starting right now?" he said, breaking away from her for a second. She didn't say anything, just gave him a mischievous smirk and expertly pulled his shirt over his head. As he rolled her over on her back, he knew he would definitely be late for work.

TBC…