I'll use the original name orders always according to the nation. So if a nation is using the eastern name order the I'll write in that, if another uses the western name order then I'll use in that form about his/her/its name.

Japanese names will be written in Hepburn v2 romanization. (ā = a long vowel, ē = e long vowel, ī = i long vowel, ō = o long vowel, ū = u long vowel)

It will contain dramatic, hurt/comfort and comic parts but it's mostly a drama. It's written in first person view and somewhat real-time and has an immediate res beginning.

Disclaimer: I don't own Death Note.

This will be just written in the first chapter. Authore notes are at the end of the chapter.

Enjoy!

Realization

This Kira is different from the first Kira for sure. The first Kira seemed to share my point of view. I mean killing just violent criminals, but leaving reformed criminals or those, who really regretted what they did, alive. That's close to my molar standards. Ryūzaki thinks I'm the first Kira, that's why he holds us handcuffed together. Then Ryūzaki begins:
"May I ask you something, Light"
"Yes, Ryūzaki?"
"Do you think this Kira is a narcissist?"
"What's a narcissist? I haven't heard that term before."
"Well a narcissist is someone, who doesn't feel other people's feelings, he's extremely self-centered. Don't care about others, is a liar, manipulates people around him, to keep his false image, the image which brings him attention, support, acceptance, acknowledgement. Some of them take this so called "Narcissistic Supply" in form of money, success, power or even sex. And of course grandiosity is the most important part. Which means, he feels, he is over any human being and only he has the right to judge others."
"Yeah! He might be one. Do you think the first Kira and the new Kira shares the same personality? Although, there are differences like this Kira kills any criminal while the first just killed violent criminals."
"I haven't told you that, but I disagreed with your profile of the first Kira in one point. You said he's ignorant, while I think he's not. You said he just killed violent criminals, but don't forget about the twelve FBI agents and some minor criminals. It's interesting that those minor criminals begin to be killed by Kira, just when you were under observation and stopped slightly after we removed the cameras from your house. It's an interesting coincidence, don't you think?"
No! That again! Please stop with it! This could also mean that someone is trying to frame me from your group. If you're really my friend why don't you believe me? I'm your friend damn it!
"What suppose this to mean, Ryūzaki?" Dad interrupted him. "My son has been cleared from being Kira."
"Actually not. That's why we have these." He replied and raised his hands to show the handcuffs. "But back to your question Light: this one is definitely ignorant."
"Why do you do this to me?!" I replied with sadness and rage in my voice. "Do you know how it feels like to hear that your supposed friend holds you a serial killer? Do you know how it's feels like the thought of being one? But tell me Ryūzaki how could be I don't remember any of the killings?"
"So, you do understand why I was depressed. I'm childish and a sure looser, so you may be not the first Kira, means I was wrong, which is a disaster for me, but if you are Kira, means I'll loose my first friend. And come down! Before you hit me again think! I'm stronger than you, and I don't want to end kicking out my friends teeth or breaking his nose." Ryūzaki said and waited a few seconds, while I and Dad calmed down. "For first I know you are an idealist, and Kira started these killings to achieve a safer world with his supernatural power. But later this power corrupted him, and raised his grandiosity to a new level. He played god, and he might think himself god of his world. Soon after that he began to kill anyone who opposed him. The other part is while you were under surveillance in your cell your personality has dramatically changed from one moment to other at your seventh day. Which means either you was controlled by Kira or Kira's power left you. Another question to you, Light: if Kira's power left you, did that happen by itself or through your will."
What is this supposed to mean again? If I was Kira I could remember I killed someone. You annoy me with this. Just leave me alone! I jumped up from the computer chair. No, I must hold myself back. I don't want bruises in my face around my mouth. But I will show the others how absurd you are to come back always with this. I'm damn angry with you Ryūzaki.
"Dad and others! Ryūzaki still thinks I am Kira! And I have managed everything what happened this way to get rid of suspicion."
"Is that right, Ryūzaki?" Dad asked.
"That's correct."
But what if he is right? No! He can't be right! I know myself now matter what I couldn't do that. These thoughts make me sad.
"But if we suppose that, I think, loosing Kira's power was my own will."
"But my son!" Dad broke out.
"Thanks! That was what I hoped to hear." Ryūzaki said. "Now we can continue capturing Higuchi."

Later on that night.
The first Kira seems to share my moral and thinking pattern. But how could have I forgotten about those many killings? If being Kira is some kind of supernatural capability and if I suppose only by my own will can be lost. Can it be that it takes also the persons memory away too? No, I can remember on any day of my life, what I did, how annoying but interesting I found L's actions. How interesting I found his alias: Ryūga Hideki as he introduced himself. Using a Japanese pop-star's name without being even Japanese, the same goes for the other one Ryūzaki. Or this Watari, he looks like a classic old noble English gentleman. What if I was Kira and I have given up this capability, and I lost my memory's about having this supernatural thing? The trap is set for Higuchi Kyōsuke. Tomorrow I will find out more about this. But what if I was Kira and I lost all my memories about it and the evidences are against me, what will happen to me, will I be imprisoned or even worse executed? Is Ryūzaki really that kind of person? Would he send mi to the executor? He mentioned many times, that he just takes those cases which he is interested in. And he's just like me, doesn't like to loose. He also tortured Misa for a confession. May be if I don't go voluntary under observation, he might have tortured even me. Yes, and he tortured me actually too, just not physically like Misa only mentally. He can be such un-human. On the other hand I would do anything for justice. No! Not anything just things which aren't against my moral standards.
"Hey! Ryūzaki, do you think I fit in the first Kira's profile?"
"Oh! Let's see. Yes, because: you are childish, you hate to lose, and you are an overachiever. You seem to lack deep emotions, you're a drama-queen. You must be right! You want the acknowledgement of your peers, for your capabilities, you want to be accepted, but as the fake omniscient guy. You under estimate your peers because they are morally and intellectually below you. And as most important you want your father's attention. Am I right?"
"OK. You are right I am childish, but I'm just turned 18. Yes I hate to lose, but who does? I experience: anger, hate, being happy, being sad, being confused, annoyance."
"That's not many, a "normal" person experiences in average 20. I do experience just 5. Did you regret anything?"
"I was always a good boy. I never did bad things to regret, although once I slapped my younger sister when I was six. Mom hit me twice on my bottom. That was the first and last time I was punished."
"Tell me when you hit your sister did she cry?"
"Yes."
"Did you feel like you wanna cry too, or felt sorry about that before you get spanked?"
"Don't know, Mom was very quickly there, actually she must have seen it."
"OK. If you see someone cry, do you feel sad because of it?"
"Yes. Kind a, I feel sorry for him or her, when I know why."
"That's not good you seem to have just intellectual empathy. Tell me Light, do you experience love?"
"I love my family."
"And anybody of your peers?"
"I like you, Misa and my friends."
"Did you have any sexual experience?"
"No. Why are you asking?"
"Just for your profile. What is more important to you: appearance or intellect?"
"Wow! I guess appearance is also important but I couldn't do without my intellect."
"Just as I thought you're a more cerebral than a somatic one. Did you use your appearance to get what you want?"
"No! That's against my standards, I can't do that. Though, I noticed that girls like me even the elder ones."
"You have success with the girls. You had also some relationship with them. Can you tell me about that?"
"No, that's private. But I can tell you those weren't serious."
"What do you mean weren't serious?"
"I helped many of my classmates in math, physics and chemistry. Yuri and Mayo offered me to go out together. But they didn't fit in my standards about being my girlfriend and I don't like to hurt others feelings, so I said to them, I have to prepare myself for my entrance exam and till then I can't go out."
"But you've gone out with Yuri, while you were followed by Raye Panber."
"That's right. It's weird, my memories about that are fuzzy and blurry. And I almost have the feeling I did that on purpose." I said the last sentence slower, than usual. It's weird. My ethics are against those kinds of actions. But I did that not just once. When I was followed by Ryūzaki in Marc I even kissed Shiho on purpose. Than the same with Emi and Takada in May again, when I thought being followed by the police again, and all this just in less than a week. I kissed Takada when I was pretending to be Misa's boyfriend. It's like I was not myself. I know I'm not that rotten or I don't know myself anymore?
"Are you OK?" He asked and waited a few seconds. "Light? Do you hear me? Light?" I heard his question and I even did understand it, but I couldn't answer it right away.
"Yes! Thanks! I'm fine! Just I do not understand some of my past actions anymore. As if one of my parts would be missing…"
"What do you mean?"
"Just never mind!"
"Alright! Can we continue?"
"Yes. I guess so."
"Did you have sometimes depressed periods in your life? Which are sometimes experienced as periods of boredom."
"When sometimes it feels like boredom, than yes, I think I was depressed since age of 14. But than before my 18th birthday I've got out of it. And after being one week in the cell I was depressed again, but rejoining the Kira investigation group had free me from that feeling again. It filled me with enthusiasm."
"Yes, I already know how the enthusiastic Light looks like. It may be a bit harsh question, but… Have you ever though to commit suicide?"
"No, never."
"You are an interesting person Yagami Light. You fit in that profile, but not exactly. You're a better person."
As usually Ryūzaki had to have the last word. He turned his head back to his monitor. I did the same thing. But I can't concentrate anymore. I have to know why I did those things. It makes just no sense. Can Ryūzaki be right and I was really Kira? If I have left that power to escape being captured and executed, how did I do that? I don't know. I'm not even sure in not being Kira anymore. As I see, the first Kira is very likely someone like me, who shares the same ideals as I do. And I can't call him evil. Even Ryūzaki said at the beginning he had good intention to do this what he did. But he is power hungry and corrupt. I'm not power hungry. Or am I? I had day dreams being a successful leader of the police or famous detective. I want to be a living Hercule Poirot! Or now another L. I have the capabilities for that. Dad never told me, how he proud of me is, or said grate job son. Mom did, Sayu did, my classmates did, my teachers did, even Ryūzaki did, but he never. He never even told me in the past few years he loves me. The only thing what I've got from him, was "I'm glad that you want to step in my footsteps! But I think you are wasting your talent as being a cop. You should be a scientist or an engineer. You are very smart with computers too, my son, may be you should be programmer instead." Or when I found out that this Kira is behind Yotsuba Group, what I've got from him? Matsuda said he and I found that out, he said great job, but he told that to Matsuda. As if I didn't do anything. The truth is Matsuda has only shown me that program. Will he ever acknowledge me? I know from his reactions, that he loves me from bottom of his heart. Would that be so hard to say? I shouldn't be so hard to him. He was really seldom at home. He usually missed almost every my birthdays. On my 17th birthday he gave me this watch as present and as a way to tell me sorry I had to work again on your birthday, son. I've begun to have fantasies about being the leader of the world or at least they would listen to my guidance at age of 12. I know how the world should work to be a better place for everyone. Even if it wouldn't be perfect it would be much better than this. But I'm aware those are just fantasies. Kira must have thought on the same things, but he must have the power to do that, but he crossed the line. I can't let this Kira or even the first Kira get away. I'm better than them! But if I was Kira, that means I'm not much better than a dictator with blood on his hands. No! That just can't be! But these thoughts are so depressing. Tomorrow will be a grate day. I have to be fit. I have to go to sleep. There is nothing to do tonight. Even Ryūzaki has nothing to do.
"Ryūzaki! I would like to sleep."
"OK. I can think in the bed too. And you aren't any use if you are tired."

We are going first in the bedroom to get my pajama. Ryūzaki, if he ever sleeps I suppose he sleeps in that odd sitting position of his and in his clothes.
"I've got them, we can go."
At least being with me in 24/7 does not include to be with me in the bathroom. And for a few minutes I'm free from these handcuffs too. Ryūzaki gets down these handcuffs and I enter the bathroom. A quick look in the mirror. Oh! On the next week my hair needs a cut. I get down my clothes, open the water and set the temperature. And finally I'm entering the shower. Ryūzaki has serious issues with basic hygiene.
"Hey Ryūzaki! Do you wanna take a shower after me?"
"No, thanks! I've already did that two days ago, and I can't let you for that time out of sight."
"Yeah! That's right! And soap lowers the reasoning skills. Mhuhmhmhahaaha! Ghihaha! Ha! Ha! He! He! Hah! Ha!"
"Light! Did anyone ever tell you, with that scary laugh of yours, you could be the Japanese voice of the Joker in the Batman movies and/or serials?" He replied with his monotone serious voice, which made me even more laugh.
"OK! That was a mistake from me. Usually you are too shy and too serious. But if you switch in this crazy-mode than it's easy to sprinkle gasoline to that fire!" He said this time with a happy voice. I know he must be smiling at least, although when I see him smiling, it always makes me shiver.
"Please stop that Light! It hurts my ears. You sound like a broken coffee grinder!" This time Ryūzaki sounded as if he were close to laugh too. I laugh for a minute at least, but now I feel much better.
After a few minutes my thoughts are again of the facts and possibilities. I just can't be Kira. If I were Kira, I would have been much better. I'm not power hungry. I'm not spoiled. Although I hate if someone oppose me but I wouldn't never-ever go so far to kill someone opposing me. Kira's power is just too powerful. It must be easy to kill with it, may be too ease to been even realized. He can kill without being present and a heart attack doesn't even seem to be violent. But he can also kill with accidents and he can manipulate his victims' actions. I suppose, it must be not much harder than killing somebody with a heart attack. He needs a name and a face. If he would be just like the second Kira, he would seem more God like. But why he needs the name? Why isn't the face enough? Knowing that the first Kira needed a face and a name and the second just a face, seems not to make sense at first, but if I suppose that the second Kira needs the name too, it would mean he can see someone's name just by looking at him. And there are these "eyes", what the second Kira said in his message. If Misa is or rather was the second Kira, that would it explain, how she found me. She can't remember it how has she found out my name, and she saw me when we were with Matsuda in Aoyoma. There is no way she could figure out my name. She was looking for the first Kira and instead she found me. I begin to understand Ryūzaki why is he still suspicious of me. Misa didn't change his personality in captivity. And she was in a lot worse situation than I, she was also physically tortured. But I'm not sure she didn't change it. I must ask Ryūzaki. I will ask him after I'm finished here. What if I was Kira, how can I live longer with that? More important, what will happen to me, if there will be evidences against me? I'm afraid that Dad will this time really kill me and after that kill himself. I don't wanna die, nor go to prison either. That would be just cruel, Japan's most honest and hardworking student, who even helped to solve cases, imprisoned for lifetime together with serial killers and other violent criminals for crimes he can't even remember. Besides that fact, I would have bad times there, many of them are homosexual and the others would beat me just for fun, and that's not even the worst case. What if my inmates figure out, I was imprisoned of being Kira. They would beat me to death.
"Hey Light! You are already there for 40 minutes. If you stay longer the chlorine in the water will solve your skin."
"I'm almost finished." OK! Get out! Get the towel and towel yourself. Now I have to dress in my pajama and leave. Ryūzaki is closing my left hand again in the handcuffs.
"Is everything alright with you? You usually take just a bath for 20 minutes, and you doubled that this time." He asked.
No! There are lots of troubles about to be worried. Would you sentence me to death Ryūzaki? Would you? Now just look and behave natural. Make a small innocent smile and face, sound serious.
"No. Everything is fine. I just had some thoughts about the second Kira."
"I can understand you! If you thought on our second Kira suspect, well she is definitely beautiful." He answered. Yes, she is beautiful and loves me, but she is just too silly to meet my requirements.
"Yes, she is. But I thought on her capabilities. As the second Kira needed just a face to kill, while the first one needed a face and a name. This doesn't make sense."
"Why? Light, if I may ask."
"Well if they share the same supernatural power that would mean they kill in the same way. If they just have to think on somebody to die, then why would the first Kira need a name? It does just make sense when the second Kira needs the name too, but she can know the name just by looking at the face."
"Well, that's right! This would explain how she found you. But are you aware that this has increased your probability of being Kira to 57% and Misa being the second Kira to 90%?"
"Stop that, Ryūzaki!" Why do you need to hurt me, and remained me what I hate in you. Don't you realize how much this hurts? You do this on purpose! You would like to watch me being executed. I closed my hands in to fists.
"Come down! Or does Light wanna have a good night fight?" Ryūzaki said that with a smile in his face.
Oh! How I hate when he provokes me in this arrogant childish way. He is right, he is really stronger then I, no need to have bruises on my face and black eyes.
"No! I don't want." I calmed myself down. "May I ask you something? Did Misa's personality also changed during her captivity?"
"No! It didn't, but after the third day she seems to forgotten why we brought her there, and began to talk about you and some stalker stuff. Before that she didn't said a word. Why did you ask?"
To know that Kira's power changes your personality. Just answer it naturally.
"Nothing, just pure curiosity." Good. I hope he believed me. There's no need to make any hint to him that I question myself in this case. We reached the bedroom.
"Do you absolutely need every day a 20 minutes shower?" He asked.
"Yes. If I wouldn't it would drop my deductive skills about 60%." I replied with his monotonous voice and style. After that I put a small smile.

I laid myself into my bed, while Ryūzaki is "sitting" on his bed. And of course his vacuum-cleaner-notebook is by him. What a pain! Does he need to torture me even at nights with something? So, I at least know that Misa's personality didn't change, if she was the second Kira. But my did, if I was the first. Supposing that I was Kira, some of my core personalities can't be changed. I had to give up this power, although I thought, I was right with what I did. If I know I'm right I would never give up. There was no other escape, but how could I give up this power if I knew I would loose my memory about that, and so I can't regain it?
Simple because I knew I would loose it, so if there are no evidences, no one can get facts out of me. Yeah, that would have saved me, but I hate to loose. I wouldn't give up this power under any circumstances for ever.
I must have thought on that I would help catching the new Kira. And during his capture or questioning I would somehow accidently acquiring my power back. If I relinquish this power I loose my memory. If I acquire my power back, could it be I get my memory about this power and anything related to it back? It can be. It sounds logical. But I'm not Kira, and I know I never was, but just in case I can't let Kira win. This means I have to avoid being with him and anything related to him, no matter what, to avoid either becoming a new Kira or turning back to Kira. Ryūzaki wants to be there while we are capturing him, and he won't let me stay here, if I gently ask. Telling him that I think I am or was the first Kira wouldn't even help either. If I would do that, he still would bring me there, because he thinks I can't do anything suspicious, while we're handcuffed together, and besides he said we share the same fate. What if I tell my reasoning while the others are there? Dad would react on that, but I'm sure, he would do that in a way, which is no use in this case. How can I make them leaving me here, even if they lock me again in a cell? If I'd tell him why I would like to stay here, he would be suspicious of me, saying that it was all along Kira's plan and he would take me with him just to oppose me or Kira. If I say let's go and look like I want really to go, wouldn't make any difference, he would take that as my enthusiasm, and again he thinks he is safe why we are handcuffed together.
"Light! Why don't you sleep? You're thinking on something?" Ryūzaki said.
How did he know? Oh! Right! My hands are in my hair. I do that unconsciously.
"I have to drink a glass milk. Do you come with me?"
"Do I have any other choice?"

We are on the way to the kitchen.
"You know! Your night habits make me go crazy and you're the only Japanese, who I know, who drinks milk." Ryūzaki said.
"If you were watching me closely at home, you should be already aware all of them. And what's wrong with drinking milk?"
"Nothing but Japanese don't usually do that."
How can I make him letting me stay? Damn it! If really I was Kira, I must have planed that carefully not leaving any holes to accidentally avoid my memory and power to return. Damn it!
May be I can use Dad, if I do it in the right way, and panic. I'll say to him: 'Dad! Do you really want to risk your son turning back into Kira? Please! You can't let Kira win, just because you don't want to believe I was once Kira! Do you?' That sounds good. I should make a panicked sad face with some tears in my eyes to seem more realistic.
I should be careful tomorrow otherwise Ryūzaki might never release me. My timing has to be perfect; I must predict, when the others are about to go to Sakura TV. I must wait an unknown but perfectly fitting event, which makes me think, and that slightly before they are about to leave. If just I, Ryūzaki and Watari are here, they won't buy my show. I've drank that milk, now we can return. But wait! The handcuffs are holding me back.
"Do you come, Ryūzaki?"
"Just a moment, I gonna get a good night strawberry cake and I need a coffee."
"If you wouldn't drink so much coffee, you could sleep."
"No, I can't. And you should be aware of that, sometimes you can't sleep either."
"Just when in deep thoughts."
"May I ask you, Light? What kind of deep thoughts are you in whole day?"
I must answer that quickly, otherwise he will suspect me. If I tell him now the truth I have screwed up all my plans for tomorrow.
"I'm excited and curious about tomorrow's events. We'll finally know how does Kira kill."
"That's weird, I thought you're thinking of 'what if'-s."
"Yes, 'what if'-s like what if Kira escapes, or what if the first Kira returns."
"You are the first Kira, so that's not an option."
Again this! Can't you understand it hurts me much? And if that wouldn't be enough I begin to think this about myself, but how I'm thinking I can't say for sure that I am or was Kira. I just know I'm not that bad to kill innocent people. Even if Kira just killed a few compared to the violent criminals.
"But don't worry, if you're Kira the world is safe because you can't do anything without me to notice."
"Yeah! Those are holding supernatural powers back for sure."
Yes, dear friend! That was irony. Now you're grandiose my dear friend. I've already done minor things without being noticed right under your nose. I can't fail, I won't fail! Now try to sleep.

On the next day.
Today I wake up relative late. And I'm still tired. The last night was hell. I was too worried about what if I'm Kira, which made me sleep already bad, and then this damn vacuum-cleaner from Ryūzaki. So, let's see the scene again. I'm watching for an event which looks like a supernatural act, and I begin to think. 'So, this is how Kira kills. Have I read about that in the second Kira's messages? If so, if I come in touch with that thing or if the third Kira does something different to me, I can turn back.' And so on. I must wait till Dad or Ryūzaki announce they are gonna capture him. At this point I have to begin. 'Ryūzaki I shouldn't go there! What if I was Kira and I will turn back to be Kira again?' His answer would be most likely: Don't worry Light. I will be watching you and Kira, so you or Kira couldn't do anything. And since you're a suspect I can't let you alone in the building. Dad's reaction would be: 'Light, my son! Don't do this again! You've done that already once. It did hurt me very much then. I can't take it again.' Now sad panicked face, I must think on that when I thought Dad is really gonna kill me and himself, and imagine that this time he will. Thus resulting some tears in my eyes. And then: 'Dad! Do you really want to risk your own son turning back into Kira? Please! You can't let Kira win, just because you don't want to believe I was once Kira! Do you?' That should do the trick, may be I should cry at the end. No, I'm not that emotional, everyone would take that as an act, except of Dad. And Matsuda may be. If Aizawa would be here he might believe that too. But I can't tell Mogi's reaction. No matter what I do, Ryūzaki and Watari won't believe me. So, I need Dad, Matsuda and Mogi to support me. Watari may not say anything, but would obey Ryūzaki. So, it would seem like 1 against 4, but in the reality would be more like 2 against 3. Because I'm the suspect and the one who wants to stay here, that makes the four three, and since Watari shares Ryūzaki's opinion and obeys him, which makes the one two. May be I should explain a bit more why I want to stay. If I have good points there I will win Mogi on my side. Since Ryūzaki is stubborn and besides he suspects me and being the leader of the investigation, he has nothing in his hands. The others already dislike his arrogant style. He needs them to capture Kira, but I'm not so useful to him, since I limit his free movement. But what if that fails? I need a backup plan. How about threatening with suicide? It's too dramatical, and again that just works on Dad and the others. Damn! He might force me and anyone through this. No, he can't. If my reasoning is logical, and it actually is, he remains with Watari alone. Time to get up!
"Ryūzaki! I would like to change if you don't mind."
"OK. Pick up your clothes for today and after I searched through the clothes I will open the handcuffs."
Unlike taking a shower he is carefully watching of my every movement, as if the cameras wouldn't be enough. At least I know he don't has anything dirty in his mind, since he is obsessed with himself like me, and besides I saw how he watches Misa. Just grab some underwear, my jeans and let's see. Today I'll take the white shirt with gray stripes. Or? No! That'll do fine for today. It's 11 o'clock. I should eat something light for breakfast just to hold out till 16 o'clock.
"That's it. I will wear these today."
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah!"
"Then let's see."
It takes a few minutes till Ryūzaki rummages every single centimeter of my jeans and my shirt, even my underwear is a possible hideout for him. He's paranoid.
"OK! You're free to go." Ryūzaki takes off the handcuffs. Now time to change clothes. I put my pajama back in its place, of course just after Ryūzaki searched them for supernatural evidences. If that wouldn't be so annoying he would make me laugh. Oh! The handcuffs are back on my left hand. I have more than enough time to practice in my mind. The show starts at 19 o'clock. The show… Matsuda! Damn it! I've totally forgotten about that. I can't count on him. Then there are just I, Dad, Mogi and Watari, Ryūzaki. The likelihood Ryūzaki is willing to leave me here is lower. Damn! The plan can still work, but it's not so safe anymore. My reasoning must seem perfect and logical. I can't take any risks turning into Kira.
"Light! May I ask on what were you exactly think after you awoke today?"
My hands again! I must have had put my hands in my hair. I must get rid of this habit. Now what? May be if I prepare him in the right way even he might believe me. So, tell a part of the truth.
"I'm nervous. I began to think about myself that I was once the first Kira, and that feels very bad."
"So! Light does have a conscience. And he seems to accept the facts."
"That's not all."
"No?"
"Nope! I'm afraid that…"
"That?"
"That… I can turn into Kira again. I can't let this happen." Nice job, Light! With this sad earnest voice he might believe me, and take naturally to panic at the right moment. And at least I'm really sad about that possibility, so I didn't even need to play too much on it.
"I understand you, Light, but no need to be afraid of that. I'll be there too."
"And can you please tell me how are you going to prevent a supernatural force to grab me? And these are not the answer!" While I said that I raised my left hand and shook it a bit showing the handcuffs.
"Well, that's right! You have a good point there… I have to reconsider things."
Was it this really so simple? Now after that I must myself rethink the show.
There's no need to change anything about it. The reasoning will be simple; I'll tell them how I come to this conclusion. And during the surveillance of Higuchi during Matsuda's show I might pick up some "facts" which I can use in it.