I want this to last forever
To freeze this moment
Stretch it out as long as possible
Did you know that I felt this way?
Love
It blindsided me
What a quirk of fate
One day I saw you
Silly, bumbling, fool
Without a quick retort on your tongue
The silence played on
My raised eyebrow in place
The last words I said
"The brooding is turning you blue
…or is that gray?"
Simple words
Yet no reply
Somehow I resisted teasing you more
Silence, then finally
"I'm really alone"
You said dejectedly
"What? You have a very cool mom
A great best friend
And me, not exactly hard to look at."
I gave you an overconfident smirk
"But my life is over.
She doesn't love me"
Sitting up taller
Suddenly I see it
A romantic at heart
What I felt
Looking at you...
Anger and pity at her
Then jealousy
If I had a penny to measure
Each tear I lost over
Men half as good as you
Well, I'd be richer than sin
Knowing just the thing you needed
To laugh through your tears
I said
"She was a part of your life
So you could learn to love.
My cousin is a part of your life
So you will have a friend
Your mom is in your life
So I don't have to cook
And kill you
Not with my culinary skills at least."
Your lips quaked…
I was terrified
And held my breath
Then a smile snuck by
And I saw the change
And I smiled in return
Where did this come from?
I feel happy when I make you smile
A zillion tiny zings in my
Head and heart
When you brood
Which you tend to do
A LOT
I feel…
An unwarranted wave of sadness
When did I start to care?
Well, maybe I always
Had a soft spot for
Innocent, shy, nerds
You snuck in
Through my defenses
Past the wall that
Few live to tell about
Now, lying beside you
In the afterglow.
I still can't fathom
How it all happened…
Earlier today you approached me
"Lois, do you remember
When you gave reasons
Why people were in my life?"
"Yeah…"
Being cautious
Never saw the billboard
In front of me
Even then
I ignored the tingles I felt
With you near
"What about you?
What…I mean
cough..i-iis
Your part in my life?"
I smirked and moved
To be uncomfortably
Close to you
"Why?
What do you want it to be?"
I leaned forward
My breath on your lips
My tongue darted out
Dare I?
I pull back
Slightly
And licked my lips instead
You turned around
And started to pace
And to mumble
Now I'm confused
Did you not feel...The tension?
The heat?
No, the vital need
To have you
Your move Smallville
Then again
You were never quick
In reading these kind of signs
So with a shaky hand
That felt so right
I stopped you with a tap
You turned
And opened your mouth
To say…
But I took you by surprise
And swept you up
In a kiss so strong
It led to this
Don't fall for me farmboy
But, who am I kidding?
I'm only a warm body to your
And that is why
I want this to last forever
So I can forget
That I am
A temporary L.L. replacement
So I can pretend
You feel half of
What I feel for you
I saw
You and her
In lip lock
Hours after we…
But it is
The early morning light
I can pretend
I was tired
I was dreaming
My eyes were deceiving me
It didn't really happen
Stupid, stupid
Really, stupid Lane
Grrrr, now it's me
Brooding
Why then
Do I want to
Freeze this moment?
Well, you just turned to me
And said
"Good morning beautiful."
Then you daze me
With a searing kiss
As if our life depends on it
We breathe each other in
And nothing else
Should matter but
The kiss
The moment I want to freeze
The bliss before the hurt
Then I hear
A chuckle
"There's this girl I fell in love with"
And the moment
I want to freeze is gone
You say with more mirth
Than I have ever seen
On your face
"Before I tell you
What just happened…
You tell me
What part you play in my life."
"I…"
How did this happen?
Me?
Tongue-tied
Fallen for the farmboy?
For the boy who wears plaid!
24/7!
Ok, not really a boy
We've already proven that
"You know what…"
I jump out of bed
Oblivious that I am naked
Your eyes glaze over
But I don't notice
As I dash out of your room
To the kitchen
Where else
For what else
Than a heavenly sip of
The lovely ambrosia
Coffee
Undoctored, strong coffee
I miss your entrance
And startle when your arms
Wrap around me
"Feeling better?"
You ask
Your chest rumbles against my back
"No." is my curt reply
"Lois…"
"No! I don't want to talk about it."
"Fine!"
You slam a mug on the counter
And get your own drink
Hot chocolate
So you see
Our moment
No, MY moment
That I want to freeze is gone
Coffee and hot chocolate
I never thought I would fall
For a plaid-wearing
Hot-chocolate-drinking
I-want-to-save-the-world for you
man...farmboy...farm-man...
Great...uh super boy-friend
Urgh...
I didn't mean it that way
Just friends
Me
You
Never would work
The moments unfrozen
And unraveled
See you
Smallville
Then I exit