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My Massive Vent
Why is it that you never seem to get what you want, you hope and hope for something, work hard to achieve it and at the end of the day you're left with nothing. All the time and effort you've spend on this higher goal are wasted because on the day of judgment you mess up, choke, no matter how good everything else is, you can't seem to get that almighty redo.
I bet you do, most people understand. It's that aching afterwards knowing you could of done better that hurts worse than the fail. But you must put up a strong front, to many questions qet asked if you don't, I hate questions, questions always make me think of the reason I'm upset and I just get upset all over again. And I don't need comfort I am perfectly capable of standing on my own two feet and putting up that happy front for the rest of the world while I slowly die a little inside. I don't need others sympathy to get me going, what I need is a day of morning and reflection where I can frown if I so choose to or jump up and down and scream o the heavens 'I'm a pretty princess' whatever it is I need to get me going again, which includes depressing music and a tub of ice cream.
Now I'm not saying that I'm one of a kind and no one else has ever had an experience like mine. No what I'm saying is I have failed but I'm still here. The world hasn't crumbled it hasn't even flinched. So yes I may randomly burst into tears or slam the door in your face when you want to talk but it's just my way of coping and venting. This is my vent. So give me time and I will be back on top of the world in no time, but until then I am fine, I am safe, but I need my SPACE to deal with life!!!!!!!!!
K, hope u liked it this really was something I wrote when I was really upset and no one would leave me alone so I hope you review and read my other storys.
Luv,
COULK