People! I can't seem to be able to stop with these two! I'm sure you heard the spoiler that Harvey will be seeing a therapist in season 5; this fic is based on that idea. It's a small chapter, just something to get me started. Hope you enjoy!
He's not really sure how or why he came to work that morning.
She had told him she's leaving him the night before, leaving him to work for Louis, and everything had become hazy. He fought the tears burning in his eyes, watching her walk away, as he choked with the words in his mouth. He wondered what his words were going to be "Just because I…" he had said. Just because what? He cursed himself. He wasn't even sure what would come out of his mouth had she not interrupted him. Truth is, he'd lost track of their relationship a long time ago. He didn't know what they were, how they felt, where she ended and he began.
He's not really sure how or why he came to work that morning.
[3 days later]
He's been sitting in his office all day, attempting to work. It didn't help that he had far more alcohol in his blood than the usual. An empty bottle of whiskey stood next to a now half-filled one. He felt helpless, angry, and wished for the first time he didn't have a glass office. He could feel everyone staring at him, half their looks judgmental, the other pitiful or sympathetic, watching him like hawks, waiting for him to burst at any moment. He even thought he had seen Donna pass by, laying her eyes on him or a few seconds before walking away. Not that he hadn't already lost it, multiple times. He had seen her the day before, looking as flawless as ever, sitting in front of Louis' office, as he wished he could wipe that smug smirk off his face. When Mike walked in, telling him of his progress in their case, Harvey grew angry: "It's not enough" he said.
"I just started, I can find something…" Mike explained
"You're not doing it fast enough" he barked back
"Harvey, we still have time to find the right witness" Mike reasoned patiently.
"You'll have plenty of time to find the right girl Mike" he had told him.
Something about these words hit a nerve, causing Harvey to raise his voice, filled with hurt.
"You think you have time then you're wrong! One minute it's staring you in the face and the other it slips right through your fingers!" he shouted.
"Harvey" Mike whispered, well aware Harvey was deflecting.
Harvey's face dropped, realizing where his words were coming from. He didn't say anything else, and Mike decided it was best to leave him alone, walking fast towards his office to find a new lead, before his boss snaps again.
It happened again when Rachel walked in, demanding to work on a case: "Harvey, I need you to assign work for me. I am your associate, not Mike" she said. He wasn't in the mood for this; he couldn't bear to hear anyone complaining when he felt his world crumbling down, unable to do anything about it. "Harvey, are you listening?" Rachel pushed. He raised his eyes at her with anger, no fury, before he started shouting: "What do you want from me Rachel? You want work? Here, take it, have your pick" he threw papers in the air. "Murder, embezzlement, corporate piracy, you think you can handle this?" he enumerated. Rachel stood there, silent, observing the man she never saw in a weak position crumbling down. "Here take it! You want a chance to prove yourself? Take a case and stop making everything about you!"
She left without a word, as his fists gripped around the paper, leaving paper cuts in the space between his thumb and the rest of his fingers.
You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
Makes sense when I'm with you
- Wanted by Hunter Hayes
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-G