Christopher
escape.
hide.
blade.
fault.
i'm
sorry
i need to forget
about everything
about you
how can
i though
forget my regrets
lose my tears
numb the pain
she
said she worries
but does she know
how my soul dies
each
time i cause pain
i
cant bear to die
but i cant live to kill
i wish to love
but
love is still
so absent
so shy
useless
as i die
apart
from my grasp
i cant bear to let go
i wish i could hold
hold
it so
your
to good for me
did i say
the words i thought
each day
i
don't deserve
for what i've done
your so pure
i
envy the naive
yet that is not i
so simple
so
common
miniscule
i
cant bear to die
but i cant live to kill
i wish to love
but
love is still
so absent
so shy
useless
as i die
apart
from my grasp
i cant bear to let go
i wish i could hold
hold
it so
my
actions were petty
but hurt them so
i wanted to be
significant
set apart from the flow
i longed for hope
sure
it came
but as it met
i lost it again
i wanted more
never
content
is that why they leave
its not their decision
its my
oblige
how
can you hear me
how can they know
the way i cry
as i
fall
and break my bones
the blood that spills
the flesh
embedded
the abyss below
i
cant bear to die
but i cant live to kill
i wish to love
but
love is still
so absent
so shy
useless
as i die
apart
from my grasp
i cant bear to let go
i wish i could hold
hold
it so
will
they forget
will you replace
will she disregard
the way i
tried
no.
i say no.
as my voice quivers
i want to
fight
someone cares
there's reason for sword
i wont give
up
'til my alabama home
they
give me the strength
the battle cry
but this not of sorrow
this
of sigh
my saviors
my angels
my hope
my faith
my soul
may be dieing
but my spirit is loved
the ones i can't
number
refute to be shoved
--me (may 18, 2006)