I woke up in a daze. Every little detailed plan that I had last night had flown right out the window when he opened the door and he gave me that crooked grin that he knows I can't resist. Just like always, after a few sweet touches and words, I fell into bed with him practically effortlessly on his part. I pulled myself from last night to now. I looked around the large bedroom. There were only a few things in this room that belonged to me- my skirt from yesterday, my silk camisole from yesterday, my jacket from yesterday, my bra and panties from yesterday…all I had to do was get dressed and I wouldn't have any tie to this room. The clothes in the closet – not mine, as well as the toiletries in the en suite, or the makeup on the vanity, or the big four poster bed, especially not the naked God in said bed.
I wrestled myself out of Edward's grip and started gathering my clothes up.
"Can I get in on this morning's shower?"Edward asked sleepily, letting me know that he just woke up when I got out of the bed.
"I can't do this anymore, Edward."I whispered quietly as I finished buttoning my shirt. "This has got to stop." I could feel my voice cracking as I picked up my jacket from the couch where it was last flung without a second thought.
"Bella, what are you talking about?"Edward asked, suddenly fully awake, bolting up from the bed to come stand beside me. "You don't want me anymore?"He asked as he hugged me from behind. "Please don't leave me. Promise me you won't leave me."
I immediately felt my resolve breaking. "I can't make that promise Edward."
"What's the matter Bella?! What went wrong between last night and now!?" He started to pick raise his voice. "Why are you doing this now?" He grabbed my shoulders and twirled me around so I was facing him. He took a sharp intake of breath when he saw my face, because there everything that I've been feeling for the past two months was expressed. All the hurt, anger, disappointment, disgust, sadness, lies, hope, love, broken promises; all of it was there for him to see.
"Nothing went wrong between last night and now. Everything started going wrong three months ago. And two months ago, it went past the point of being fixable."I yelled at him, sobbing uncontrollably now. "None of this was supposed to happen."I whispered quietly.
"What wasn't supposed to happen, Bella? This?!" He rasped out motioning between me and him. "Are you saying you regret this?!"
"YES!" I yelled back, breaking from his grasp and running to the door. "I regret being a part of an affair when you're already committed. I regret going through with every kiss and every fuck knowing you'll never belong to me, but most of all I regret ever falling in love with a married man."I screamed at him before running out of his apartment, out of his life.