Hello my lovelys! This is my first ever Bellarke story so please leave criticism about it! I absolutely love reading Bellarke AUs so if your writing one I would love to read it! That's all for now. Enjoy!

Also this story takes place after everyone is rescued from Mount Weather, and it starts by Clarke and Bellamy at the gate. Disclaimer Clexa never happened in this story!

Clarke's POV

"Clarke please come inside." Bellamy pleads. His eyes wondering over my face.

I don't know if I should stay or go. I don't think I'll be able to forgive myself about Mount Weather.

Seeing everyone's faces everyday is just gonna remind of what I did to get them here.

What was I gonna do? A stray tear fell onto my face.

His eyes still pleading with mine, "No one needs me here Bellamy." I say.

"That's not true! You're mother needs you! O needs you! I need you Clarke!" He says cupping my face in his hands.

Another tear falls, "You need me here?" I ask.

"Yes! I need you here Clarke. I don't know what I would do if you would leave." He says wiping away the tear.

"What would happen if we got that drink right now." I say not really asking it as a question.

A smile covers his face, "Let's find out." He responds taking my hand in his.

We walk into the bar and take a seat at the counter. Miller comes up to us smiling.

"What'll it be?" He ask cleaning two glasses. Eyes looking between Bellamy and I.

"Two beers." Miller pours the two beers into the glasses he was just cleaning and sets them in front of us. He walks away to help another customer.

"Do you think Jasper will be able to forgive me?" I ask my eyes roaming over Bellamy's face.

"He will just give him some time." He says putting his hand on my knee. His eyes search my watery eyes.

"Hey we'll get through this together. You don't have to face this alone." He wipes away tears that have fallen onto my face.

I sip my beer, this isn't my first time drinking it but it burns as it runs down my throat.

"I just want to forget about it for now." I say looking into my beer.

I can feel his eyes looking at me, searching for something but it's like he can't find the answer.

I do something I didn't know I would ever do, I kiss him.

He comes alive wrapping his hands around my waist and pulling me closer. I put my hands around his neck.

We stop breathing heavily, he sips his beer smiling at me. I hit his shoulder playfully.

"Stop staring!" I say bring my beer to my lips.

"What do you expect when you're beautiful?" He says playing with a strand of my hair.

I get goose bumps, he runs his hands along my arms.

"You know for someone who doesn't 'like' me you sure have a funny way of showing it." He says looking my face over again.

I feel my face heat up, I glare at him.

"Maybe I do like you so what?" I ask putting my hands on his knees.

"Well if you did like me and I liked you..." he trailed off staring at my lips.

My eyes turned glassy looking at how mesmerized he looked looking at my lips. His mouth falls open and he licks his lips, he bites his bottom lip.

My hand pulls up to his chin and I shut his mouth.

"Do you stare at everyone like that?" I ask playfully wanting to mess with him.

"Well maybe only one person but I don't know who to tell her." He says playfully back sliding his onto my thigh.

"Huh I wonder who she is." I say bringing my hand to my chin.

He kisses me again and puts his forehead against mine.

"It's you." He says pulling me in for another kiss.

We go to his tent and we fall into oblivion.

Time jump to the season 5 Bellarke reunion.

(Disclaimer Bellamy and Clarke had sex a few days before he left her and she got pregnant. Also they have been a couple ever since season 2.)

I get up leaving Madi sleeping in the rover. I miss Bell so much.

It's been harder then I thought, raising Madi on my own. Not talking to anyone but myself. I actually think I'm going crazy, I grab the radio I call Bell on and sit on the hood of the rover.

"Here we go again." I huff knowing he won't answer me.

"Bell it's been 2,199 days since I've seen you, where are you? Why haven't you come down yet? I love you, Madi wants to know who you are but I don't even know if your alive so I don't answer her questions. Please come back to me." I realize tears have been streaming down my face the entire time.

I get angry, "Why can't you answer!" I yell and throw the radio. "I miss you so much! Why can't you come back to me!" I stop talking and just cry holding myself.

A ship appears in the sky and I smile, "You came!" I yell.

"You came back for me." I sigh.

I get Madi up she hugs me extremely excited. I've told her so many stories about Octavia and Bellamy.

The ship lands and I notice it's a prisoner ship.

"Madi get my rifle!" I say keeping my eyes on the ship.

The ship door opens and people with bags over there head come out. Madi returns with my rifle, she spots the people at the bottom of the hill and squints at them. The people get in groups of two and untie themselves.

The first person to take there restraints off is a muscular man. I realize it's him. He did comeback.

He spots me, "Clarke!" He yells and comes running up the hill.

"Bell." I say breathlessly. He stops in front of me taking in my new look.

By now everyone is making there way up the hill too.

He pulls me into a embrace, I hug him back. I feel hot tears drip onto my shoulder.

He pulls back looking my face over again, his eyes glassy and insecure.

"You're alive." He says. He captures my lips with his, I kiss back.

He releases me Raven is the next to hug me, "I'm so sorry we left you here. I've missed you so much." She says letting go of a breath she was holding onto.

I realize Madi is still hiding behind a rock staring wildly at the strangers.

"Madi this is them." I say, holding out my hand for her.

She looks Bellamy up and down. He looks at me quizzically.

"Bellamy that night we had before you left. I got pregnant. This is Madi our daughter." I say releasing the weights I've had on my shoulders for so many years.

He hugs her and they start to talk, I take the opportunity to hug everyone else. Once I'm done Bellamy wraps me in his arms again.

"I love you." He smiles.

"I love you too." I reply.

"We should go back to Becca's lab, I have food and beds ready for everyone." I say looking around at everyone.

"Showers too?" Raven asks smirking.

I laugh, "Yes. I noticed you all could use one." I say hitting her arm playfully.

"God it's so good to see you guys again." Harper laughs, looking between everyone.

Everyone smiles and nods, we all walk over to the rover. Bellamy hops into the passenger while everyone else gets into the back.

"I'm glad you're okay." Bell says grabbing my hand. His eyes search my face, he doesn't look the same as when he left.

His eyes look like they could just break into a million pieces if you looked at them for to long, he has a start of a beard, his hair is longer.

Everyone else is different to, they all have that same look in there eyes, like they could break.

I'm still not sure why the came down in a prisoner ship but I'm sure Bell will tell me about it later. We arrive at Becca's lab and everyone gets out.

Everyone stares at the damage praimfaya did. I had to fix the windows and the doors so it doesn't look the best.

"Great job fixing up the place." Murphy jokes patting my back.

*Flashback to Praimfaya*

I wake up to glass shattering, I start coughing up blood. I scramble to take off the rest of my suit, it feels like I'm on fire.

Is this is it am I dying from radiation poisoning? This isn't the first time I'm facing death but it is definitely the scariest.

I'm awoken from my thoughts by the front doors being slammed against the wall behind me.

I try to stand to get away from the chaos but it feels like I have weights holding me down. I crawl into the first room I see, I start coughing up blood again from the movements.

Was there something I could have done differently that I could have made it on the ship? This was my fault, and I'm stuck down here and dying, I'll never see Bell again.

I'm going to die alone.

*End of Flashback*

I shutter at the thought of what I went through. Bellamy notices and puts a hand on my shoulder looking me over.

"Hey are you okay?" He asks.

"Yep." I lie. He looks my face over one more time before letting me go.

I show everyone there rooms and we all come together and start eating the food Madi and I had prepared for everyone.

Once everyone finishes Monty breaks the silence.

"So what happened while we were up in space?" He asks.

I'm not really sure what to say, a lot happened some things I don't want to talk about.

"Well it was hard not talking to anyone, then I found out I was pregnant. I didn't really know what to do. Some days were good some bad, but I got through it. That's all that matters though." I say almost in tears.

Bellamy grabs my hand and squeezes it.

"Hey we're here now. You know you can tell us anything right?" He says.

I nod, and this time Murphy breaks the silence.

"Well Emori and I are gonna head up to are bedroom see yeah guys tomorrow." He says grabbing Emori's hand grinning. Raven doesn't look to happy about that so she speaks next.

"Yeah I think I'm gonna go to." And with that everyone else goes to there bedroom too. Raven smiles at us before taking Madi's hand and leading her away.

"So..." I say not knowing what to do. I knew no one was gonna be sleeping.

"Well I think we should have some fun tonight." Bell says picking me up bridal style. I laugh and so does he, his smile looks so handsome.

I haven't seen it in along time, I have missed it.

"Well I hope your not gonna make me do all the work." He says setting me down on the bed that just use to be Madi's and I but now it's Bellamy's too.

"Maybe we should just sleep." He gives me a quizzical.

"What are you talking about? We haven't seen each other in 6 years." I sit up and he sits next to me.

His eyes searching my face for an answer.

"I just think we should rest I mean we have the rest of our lives to do that." I didn't mean to but I spit out the word that like venom.

"Hey. What's wrong?" He asks cupping my face in his hands.

I pull away, "nothing I'm just tired. Goodnight Love you." I say rolling over and pulling the covers over me.

I feel his stare burning my back, finally he shuts off the lamp and he covers himself up too.

His hands wrap around my waist, he kisses my shoulder.

"I love you too." He sighs.

Will Clarke be her old self again? Will someone tell Clarke what happened in space? Find out in the next chapter! Leave a review of what you thought, until next time my lovelys!