1/10/09
This starts during the night after Nagisa has her final dance with Shizuma. I'll take off on an alternate history after this point where-in I'll try to keep in line with respect to the characters as best I can; but with one difference. Tamao actually confesses to Nagisa's conscious face this time. I'm honestly of the opinion that that would've made all the difference (one more little push would've done it), so unless otherwise pressured, that's probably as far as I'll go.
1/17/09
I'm going to consider myself 'otherwise pressured'.
After letting this sit for a week, I thought I'd be content with this as closure, but I'm not. So, being that my heart demands more resolution, I intend to see if I can make some.
I was debating whether to add a different story, seeing as how I feel that I'm better at short stories (this is probably due to my impatience, which might explain why when I read my stories they always seem 'rushed'. I hate the 'middle parts', where characters go about their usual boring banter and thus I(almost subconsciously) end up skipping past those parts. I'd just like to skip and directly and quickly explain each main point as fast as I can, which usually doesn't fit in well with telling a coherent story when I end up reading it.). I had two reasons for adding an anthology of short stories: one was that a collection of short stories would allow branch-off points for multiple other stories, and also because I thought it was unfair since my previous edit had 'End' adjoined to it.
However, the chance that I would continue to a project of such a tree of short stories would be a stupid chance to place a bet on. Given my impatient nature, I'll probably get sick of writing fanfics within a month. Also, if my purpose in writing this is resolution, then I might as well be true to that, and get it done and over with.
*Either way, the first chapter has the same background as before.
*The second chapter I had a hard time creating. I mean, I basically wanted to skip to resolution to see how Nagisa x Tamao live out their days afterwords, yet I felt I had to explain this intermediary part. I'm especially iffy with the transition from her sense of ease the night before with Tamao, to her anxiety in this chapter. I mean, I pretty much write it off on Nagisa's more spontaneous character/stupidity/naivety/etc., but still...
I also really wanted to just avoid it for other reasons. I mean, I want to write about Nagisa x Tamao, yet including this middle part essentially forces my hand to say what happens with Shizuma. And I feel that I've already taken leeways with Tamao's character (I mean, really, the best formula I had to go about making Tamao confess to Nagisa was using the fact that she somewhat likes literature. Even then, I still thought it was ridiculously corny), so how much can I go with Shizuma without taking too much leeway in her character (from my point of view)?
Furthermore, if I deal with Shizuma too much, then I know I'm going to end up wanting to give her resolution; and I'm lazy. I just don't want to do that (someone else, please, take the job (honestly, if someone had written a straightforward Tamao x Nagisa fic that met my desires, then I wouldn't have even bothered writing this to begin with, I blame this on you :p)).
tl;dr, I don't like this chapter.
*The third chapter is resolution and happiness and cake. I just wanted to see them together.
Alright, I might do suggestions to improve the story here-on out, but I really doubt I'll go farther in this story, consider it more or less complete.