It had been a month already. A month since the kiss. A month since the first time I felt like I was the only person who mattered and a month since I'd seen Klaus. I was sitting in class at college and I couldn't focus on anything except him. Dammit. The way his lips felt on mine and the way he touched me. I shivered. Was it wrong that I might actually want him again? Want to feel him on me and have his body against mine? I shook off the thought and focused on the board in front of me.

"Caroline, what's wrong?" Elena whispered in my ear. I looked at her, smiled and shook my head. "Are you sure?" She asked so quietly that only I would of been able to hear, with the help of my vampire hearing.

"I'm fine. This class is just so boring. I can't wait until it ends." I lied. She quietly laughed and nodded.

"I agree with you."

I took in a deep breath and listened to the teacher. He talked on and on about pointless crap that would help me get no where in life. What was the point in being here if you're a vampire? What purpose does it serve? I'm wasting time here. I can't even think straight. I quietly excused myself from the class and went to my dorm room. I sat down on my bed and looked down at my feet. I put my head in my hands and sighed loudly. I have choices. I let my mind wonder and let myself sink in my deep thoughts. I could stay here, in Mystic Falls, do the same crap everyday, go to college, go to classes, 'learn something', and live in the drama, or I could go. I could leave, travel, see the world, indulge in music and art, like I've always wanted. I'd go by myself, read books and eat new foods, make new friends and start living. But both had pros and cons.

Choice number 1 PROS;

- Be with my friends

- Be with my mother

- …..

I couldn't think of anything else that was a pro, if I stayed so I weighed out the cons;

Choice number 1 CONS;

- Deal with a different type of drama everyday

- Stress over everyone and everything

- Keep going to college

- Be suffocated with the same situations but on different days

- Keep seeing the same areas and same scenery everyday

I sighed loudly. What was wrong with me? Ever since I was a little girl all I could think of was going to college with my friends and being in a dorm with them, going to classes and going to parties, staying up all night cramming for exams, being hungover, meeting new boys and having new adventures with my friends. What in the world was wrong with me? I stood up and shook my head. Circumstances have changed now, I was no longer human. I was a vampire now, no matter how hard I try to keep my human side alive inside me, at the end of the day I'm still a vampire. I didn't want to let myself weigh out the pros and cons to choice number 2, because I was scared I'd convince myself to leave. My phone then rang, I quickly fished it out of my back pocket in hopes it was him, but it wasn't, it was Damon. I answered.

"What do you want, Damon?" I asked.

"Barbie, where's Elena? She won-"

"She won't answer her phone? Hm, I wonder why. Leave me out of your silly games, if you want to find her you know where she is." I cut him off and hung up on his face. Then there was a knock on my door, I opened the door.

"Stefan?" I said shocked. He walked inside with worry etched all over his face.

"Caroline, I need help." He said looking at me.

"What's wrong, Stefan?" I asked and closed the door. He sat on the couch and I sat beside him.

"You're my only true friend, Caroline. You know that right? I have no one else." He started, looking at me. I smiled at him.

"What's wrong?" I asked gently.

"I… I think I did something wrong." He said.

"Wrong how? Did you hurt someone Stefan?" I asked beginning to worry. Stefan made me who I am today. He helped me when I needed helping the most. Bonnie had hated me then and so did Elena, he was the only one that cared. And ever since that day I made an oath that no matter what happens, I would be there for him.

"No, God no." He said reassuringly. "I think I like someone, Caroline." He said. I raised my eyebrows.

"Who might that be?" I asked. I wonder if he was talking about Elena, seeing as she had everyone at her feet.

"I don't want to say.. I don't want you to hate me or anything." He said looking away. I held both his hands.

"Stefan, I could never hate you. You were the one who helped me with my vampirism, or whatever," I waved my hand about and he smiled "You didn't abandon me like some of my friends did. You were there for me, and I'm always here for you. Okay? Always." I said. He gave me a small nod with a smile. "Is it Elena?" I asked. His smile faded.

"No.. I mean, I love her, but not like that any more. It took time but I moved on, I feel kind of free. Happy and light somehow." He replied. "It's someone else, someone you don't really like, that's why I don't know how to tell you." He stood up and walked around with a hand on his hip and his other hand in his hair.

"Tell me Stefan. If you're happy, I'm happy." Plus who was I to judge anyway? I was with Klaus. I caught myself smiling at the thought and shook it off.

"Rebekah." He said and I looked at him.

"Rebekah?" I asked, surprised.

"Rebekah." He confirmed.

"How? I mean, what the hell, Stefan the originals have been gone from Mystic Falls for about a month or something!" I said.

"I know, but she came here a couple times since they left and.. I don't know.." He replied. He looked away and paced around again. "Do you hate me?" He asked when he stopped and looked at me. I looked at him intently. Hate him for liking someone? I sighed and sat down.

"No." I replied simply. "I have a confession to make." I said, no way I would tell him about Klaus, but there was something else I wanted to tell him. I stood up and walked around, taking deep breaths and thinking happy thoughts, motivating myself. "I'm leaving." I looked up and him then quickly began packing.

"Leaving? What do you mean? Where are you going? Why are you going?" He asked as he watched me pack.

"I don't know, I'm trying this new thing called being spontaneous." I replied, not looking up and continued packing.

"Caroline, look at me. Where are you going? Do you mean leave Mystic Falls or leave College?" He asked.

"Both. I want nothing to do with this place, as in College and Mystic Falls." I replied. Was that true? Did I really want nothing to do with this place any more?

"But Caroline, what about us? Your friends, your mother?" He asked, I didn't know how to reply. "Caroline." He said firmly and gripped both my arms. "Talk to me. Why are you leaving?" He asked. I sighed loudly and walked out of his grasp.

"Because Stefan," I said slapping my thighs, "I feel trapped here, I feel suffocated, I don't want to be here, I'm doing college for no reason. Like, when in the world would I actually need a degree if I'm a vampire and if I'm going to live forever? Like, it serves no purpose, I'm wasting time here when I could be out seeing the world, like I've always wanted." I blabbed.

"Caroline, you have so much time to go see the world." He said.

"Yeah, well, I have so much time to get a degree if my compulsion ever runs out." I pointed out.

"Who will you go with, where will you go, have you ever thought about that?" He asked. I huffed and turned around, continuing to pack.

"By myself, and no I haven't, that's why it's called being spontaneous. I'm going to go wherever I feel like going and meet new people and see new cities. I want to have adventure and I want to travel!" I said getting excited. I could go anywhere I wished.

"Caroline, what will you tell Liz?" He asked.

"I'll take her with me. She works to much, I'll convince her to quit and we can go travel the world together." I said, thinking about it, it would be such an amazing idea.

"What if she won't go with you and what if she'd want you to stay?" He asked.

"Stefan, she can't keep me here. I'm going either way. I don't want to be here, I'm sick of here. I'm sick of everything here, I'm annoyed with almost everyone and almost everyone bores me." I said, turning around to look at him. I had so much bottled up inside, so much I needed to get off my chest.

"Like what and who?" He asked. I kept my mouth shut and looked at him. "Caroline," He urged "Tell me."

"Elena, okay?!" I yelled throwing my hands up, "Everything is always about Elena, 'how will we keep Elena safe?' 'I love Elena more' 'what if Elena never speaks to me again' 'It'll always be Elena' 'Elena is the key'!" I said getting louder and louder. I was exasperated. Tired of all of it. "Just incase you haven't noticed Stefan, this is the first time we spoke properly together for about a month. You went all MIA on me basically ever since Elena and Damon happened. And don't get me wrong, I completely agree with you that what they did was completely wrong, and I'm on your side about it 100% but it's always about her. Remember when I first got turned into a vampire? Before I had my daylight ring?"

"Caro-"

"Bonnie hated me. She didn't even want to make that daylight ring, she burnt me once on purpose, she didn't look at my face for weeks and she didn't speak to me, but when Elena became a vampire, 'poor Elena, she didn't want this, I'll always be there for her, here let me make you a daylight ring' was basically what she said. No one cared about me, except you!"

"That's not true, they were just in sho-"

"Shock? Don't you dare, Stefan. Why was everyone shocked that I became a vampire? It's not like I asked for it, it just happened!" I said. "I'm done here. I want to see the world."

"Caroline, wait!" He called but I was already in my car and driving. One thing I loved as a vampire, the speed. It was so useful. I turned up the volume and made sure the windows were up. I opened the air con in the car and sung along to music on the radio.

I finally came home after driving around and thinking clearly. I really want to do this. Leave and just enjoy myself, I want to be free and explore. Get cultured and learn new things about the world. I craved it. I wanted it so badly. I unlocked the door and saw my mum point a gun at me.

"Mum, it's just me." I said. She sighed and lowered the gun. She came up to me and hugged me tightly.

"Caroline, honey, what are you doing home?" She asked. I smiled at her.

"Mum, we have something to talk about, come on." I lead her to the living room and we sat down on the couches opposite each other.

"What is it?" She asked.

"I'm dropping out of college." I blurted.

"What?!" She yelled. "Why?!"

"Mum, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I just.. I don't want to be here any more. I don't want to be in Mystic Falls. I feel like I'm drowning here. I wake up every morning slightly wishing that I hadn't. What good is a degree going to do for me if I'm going to live forever. I know it's going to sound weird, but it's the truth, I have compulsion. I know, I know, you might think I'm crazy and you might think it's wrong, but it's who I am. I can't change that any more. I want to travel mum. I just want to be free, I want to see the world and go to galleries and music bars, I want to go for boat cruises and walks in new cities and explore places." I said. She sighed.

"I know, honey. I know you want to explore and travel, but like you said, you'll be living forever. You can travel after you do a couple of years in college." She said, trying to reason with me. I shook my head.

"No, we have to leave now. I can do college another time, somewhere new, with new people!" I said excited. "I want you to come with me. Mum, we can travel together, we can see new places like we always used to talk about. We can be together." I said pleading with her. "Please mum. It'll be so fun." She looked at me in silence for a couple of minutes.

"It does sound fun. But I'm not ready to leave Mystic Falls Caroline. This is all I've kno-"

"That's my point!," I said cutting her off "This is all we've ever known, and there's a whole world out there that we don't even know about! So many places to explore! New people to meet and new memories to make! Please, come with me!" I said. She smiled sadly.

"I can't leave here. I'm the sherrif. They need me here." She said.

"I need you, mum." I said quietly.

"You're pretty keen on going aren't you?" She asked and placed her hand on my cheek. I nodded and smiled. "Then go. Explore, have fun. I can't come, but I'll definitely come and visit you, wherever you are." She said with a sad smile.

"You're not going to get mad that I'm going?" I asked her. She moved her hand and hugged me.

"No. I'm not angry at you, I want you to be happy. Lately you haven't been your usual self. I just really want you to be happy, and if you're happier not here, then I'm happier." She smiled only a way a mother could. I felt my eyes tear up and I nodded. "But I swear Caroline, if you don't call me three times a week, I'll hunt you down and drag you back here." She warned. I nodded and her phone rang. "Sorry I have to take this."

"Mum, I'm going to leave today. I'm not waiting another day here." I said standing up and she followed.

"I love you." She said and hugged me. I hugged her back tightly and she let go. "Three times a week!" She called as she ran for the door. "I'm serious, young lady!" I nodded and waved. I quickly packed my essential belongings and put them into my car.

Once I got into my car I did the same thing I did before, I made sure the windows were up, the music was blaring and the air conditioner was on. I pulled off the kerb and began to drive. I began singing along to Miley Cyrus' song 'We Can't Stop' and my mood lifted.

About four hours into the drive I felt so free. The smile on my face grew wider and bigger. I felt like a big weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. Elena and Bonnie would forgive me later. Maybe in a couple years, it didn't matter seeing as we would live forever. I pulled out my phone and took out the sim card once I got to a red light and snapped it in half. I threw it out the window then went on google maps. I closed my eyes and the first place I wanted to go was… New Orleans? I mean.. What? I wanted to go to New Orleans. I wanted to see Klaus. Was it wrong to want that? Was it wrong to actually want to be with Klaus? Not be with as in, boyfriend and girlfriend.. I wanted to take him up on his offer of travelling the world. Who else would of known the world better than Klaus Mikealson? He's 1000 years old, he'd know where all the great spots to eat and visit would be. I hope he wouldn't blow me off because if he didn't I might die of embarrassment.

"Please spontaneous move, don't let me down.." I prayed aloud, quietly.