THE LITTLE TAN COUCH

(WILL'S POV)

I remember the endless talks we had, so many memories we shared, and here I find myself back sitting on this little tan couch again... We just arrived from the hospital after a night of bitter-sweet waiting to make sure my daughter was going to be fine. I was a complete mess, with nothing left to give me hope when he came rushing in...Sonny. The minute he found out about my daughter, he came to be by my side. A true friend, even if I don't deserve him, he as always been there for me. I really miss him so much.

The first time I sat on this couch, I remember we talked about my coming out. We talked about our hopes and dreams about having a family someday, and never in a million years imagined that he would be the one I would want to share this with. I feel in love with him on this couch. And now I find myself sitting here again, but this time, things are different. He want's to talk to me...

He found a letter I wrote him a few months ago at the hospital. It shared my deepest fears and regrets, but I will always regret not telling him the truth. I cost me the most important thing in the world. It cost me him. I have never felt so alone without him. I watch him at the counter making coffee for us, and all that flows through my mind are memories. Our pinky sware at the counter, where we promised to tell each other everything... Our corner booth where we held hands for the first time...Our little round table where we made up after our first big fight. These memories were ours... And yet I sit here in trying to find the words to say to him, but my letter said them all. He looks up at me and smiles, as I admire him from a distance. Those gorgeous deep brown eyes, that I remember once upon a time, looking only at me. I take a deep breath as I see him coming my way. Guess it's time to find out what he wanted to talk about.

Sonny: I'm sorry I had to stop by here this late, I needed to make sure Holly closed up alright.

Will: That's o.k. It's still early, It's like 3 am right?

Sonny: Yeah, If you put it that way. (laughing)

Will: Well Sonny, I wanted to thank you for coming at the hospital last night. You have no idea what this means to me.

Sonny: Will, I told you before I'll always be there for you, but we really need to talk.

I put my head down in shame. The shame of ever lying to the wonderful man. The one person who has been by my side through everything.

Sonny: Will, look at me. We really need to talk this out.

Will: What is there to talk about. I'm an Idiot, I lied to you, and I lost the one person in this world I truly loved.

Sonny: Will, did you mean what you said in this letter?

He pulls the letter back out and give it to me.

Will: Yes Sonny, every word of it.

Sonny: Why didn't you give it to me before?

Will: For the same reason I'm such an idiot. I was afraid to loose you. And look how good that turned out. I lost you anyways.

Sonny: This letter Will changes everything for me. I had no idea how you felt about everything, how much pain you had and how scared you were. Why didn't you come to me, We could have talked. I could of helped you.

Will: I don't know Sonny, I always mess up everything.

I get up and try to leave. I just can't talk another moment of Sonny being hurt by me. But I can't move. I feel him holding on to my arm pulling me towards him.

Sonny: Will, stop running away, talk to me. I'm here, stop hiding your feelings from me.

Will: What do you want me to say Sonny, that I love you? That I want you? That I can't imagine my life without you? That I want to be a part of my daughters life?

I lost it...My emotions took over my body. I felt his arms holding me tight. I forgot how good it felt being in his arms. I was afraid to look back up at him. At his beautiful face that I missed so much. I finally got the courage to and the only thing I could think to say was...

Will:I love you.

He was quiet for a few seconds. Still recovering for the shock of those three little words I had just expressed. Finally he responded. I felt my heart pounding in my chest.

Sonny: I love you too Will.

And that's where he took me in his arms and kissed me. A kiss like no other. It was ever better then the first kissed we shared. I felt forgiveness in this kiss. I still didn't know what to think of what to expect from this. My mind wondered if this was us getting back together. I had to stop my mind from wondering, because in this moment nothing else mattered but his lips on mine. I missed this. I pulled away for a moment, looking at him... Trying to find a confirmation or something to tell me we were gonna be us again. Before I knew it, he was pressing against my body. Pulling me in closer to fill in the gap between us. We kissed each other for minutes, rubbing our bodies against each other, caressing the back of his neck, running my fingers through his perfect dark brown hair. Our tongues battled each other while tasting his sweet mouth that I have been longing for these past few months. I Felt like loosing control, but I wasn't going to push as he was the calling the shots. I was at his mercy...

Sonny: God I have missed you so much baby.

Will: Sonny, you called me baby...Does this mean...

He called me his baby. He used to call me that all the time before when we were together. His baby... I paused and couldn't finish my sentence.

Sonny: Will, you are always going to be my baby, I love you, I never stopped loving you.

Will: Sonny, I...I

He cut me off, by laying his finger on my lips.

Sonny: Will, please stop. We are going to have to work at this very hard. We will have to put everything into this relationship. I will admit that I still can't forget the fact that you lied to me for months. Honesty is very important to me and will always be. But my love for you has been there the whole time. I tried to get over you. I tried to move on. But the only thing in my heart was you...It's always been you...

Will: Sonny, I will do everything and Anything to make this work. I love you so much.

Sonny: Good, because I can't take another day of not being with you.

Those were the last words he said to me that night. He took me in his arms and showed me just how much he loved me. He slowly lowered me down to the little tan couch, were just a few moments ago, I was remembering our best memories here. Our kisses, our stories, our laughs, our tears, our dreams...And now, we were about to make a new memory...Our reunion, our love...

That night we made love...We touched each other as if it was the first time we were together. Savoring each and every caress, tracing the lines of our bodies as we moved in unison. I remember feeling his breath on my face, with each and every movement, it would get deeper and warmer against my skin. He slowly removed my cloths, looking at my body with his eyes, the eyes that were now mine again. He was so beautiful, as he always was, but the lighting tonight just made him look more perfect than he already was. He lifted me off of the little tan couch and turned me around so my back would face his chest. Gripping at my hips to pull me in closer as he got ready to make his entry. I felt the warmth of his body bursting into me. A feeling I dreamed about each and everyday, thinking this would never happen again, and yet it did... We made love for hours, never wanting to let go of each other, but all great things come to an end. I couldn't hold it any longer. We both released at the same time, leaving our moans and cries to be heard from miles away. Nothing could ever top this moment, this was the start of our new chapter in life...our forever...

We got up from the little tan couch and got dressed. The night was now over. We had to leave as the daylight was about to rise and face reality. I looked over at him and smiled. He looked over at me and responded the same way. He was happy again... I walked over and gave him a soft kiss and wondered where do we go from here? I never thought he could surprise me more than he did this evening, but yet again he always does. He took me by the hand and whispered three more little words to me. Three little words that I never wanted to hear more in this exact moment, three little words that confirmed each and every doubt and questions in my mind...

Sonny: Let's go home...

Will: home?

Sonny: Yes, home...I'm not going to spend another night without you.

As he said those words, he opened up my hand and placed the key inside. Confirmation that I was going to have a home again. A home with Sonny. I never felt more amazing and loved in this very moment. As we got ready to leave, I turned around one last time and looked over at the little tan couch where just a few moments ago, we were making love on. I smiled at the memories once again, and all the happy moments we shared on that couch, as I turned to Sonny and said...

Will: Let's go home Sonny...

He closed the door and we left hand in hand to go home, to our home... leaving the little tan couch behind as a memory I will never take for granted...