Shino remembered the day Naruto left to train for three years. For him it was a sense of reprieve, The competition was gone. He could finally be with the one he loved, Hinata, without worrying about that stupid loudmouthed blonde. Hinata got over Naruto leaving quickly, and dismissed it as a silly crush. She finally noticed that her teammate, Shino, liked her. The two got together and were a perfect couple for those three years. But, in one day, it all changed.
Guess it wasn't just a silly crush after all.
Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Shino watched her sadly. She had left him in the dirt when Naruto came back. He didn't show it, but it killed him on the inside. She was so perfect, the two were inseparable. He felt stronger, and more proud. He felt everything was right in the world when she hugged him, and when they kissed, magic. Nothing could change that. Or so he thought.
Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
It breaks his heart, now. Naruto and Hinata are now what they once were. His breath hitches every time he sees them, and he can't sleep at night anymore. He just thinks of how it used to be. Before Naruto came back. He thinks about how it was, before Naruto left. And he thinks of now. It's all Shino can do to keep himself sane.
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these shaded eyes
His team, himself, Hinata, Kiba, and Kurenai, walks down the street. Out of habit, more than anything, Kiba and Shino flank Hinata on either side. It throws Shino into turmoil, being this close to her again. He wonders how she could have changed her mind in an instant. He thought she was the right one, and still does, but all she sees, and apparently, all she ever saw, is Naruto. Deep inside of him, hi heart is shattered. But, on the outside, he is devoid of any emotion. Tears form in his eyes, but, with his incredible willpower, they do not fall from the safety of the dark lenses. No one will ever know.
I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that's left of me is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
He told Hinata everything, how he always had loved her, but never said anything because she had loved Naruto. He told her about how he hated himself, hated being the bug freak that he was. She had told him to never think that way, that it was okay to be who he was. It felt so right when he was with her. Now, all he is an empty shell, the husk that the butterfly leaves behind in search of better places. He was always a calm, collected man on the outside, but on the inside….
Cause I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Shino knows that he should move on, get on with his life. But still, the turmoil that is bottled up throughout the day is released in quiet sobs at night, but hard enough to keep him awake. Yeah, life is hard. Heartbreak is worse.
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these shaded eyes
Hinata notices that something is odd about Shino. He had told her he understood when Naruto came back, but something was off about him. He didn't seem happy. When questioned, he simply said that as long as she was happy, so was he. She accepted that answer, and danced away to chat with Kiba about Naruto. When their backs were turned, the tears behind the lenses that threatened to spill over finally did.
Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside anymore
Anymore
Finally, finally, Shino let the sadness go. But unfortunately, it was replaced by anger. She had toyed with him, then tossed him aside when the true object of her affections had returned. I found that he hated her. But it really was his own fault, if he wasn't so stupid, this may have never happened. Now, whenever Shino sees Hinata, it hits him like a blow to the gut. But, the tears no longer fall. At least, not on the outside. Not anymore.
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these shaded eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these shaded eyes
Yeah. It's hard. Shino sat in his bedroom that night, knees to his chest, glasses in one hand, face in one arm lying across his knees, sobbing.
Wiping his eyes, he stood up and put his glasses back on. He straightened the green hood of his sweatshirt.
Shino never lowered himself to petty emotions since then. Hard and stony, they called him before. Well, he laughed to himself, that's how it will be then.
And he walked out into the morning sun to face the day in all its fury.
I don't know about this one. It makes Shino seem…I don't know. It was a good idea when I started, but…hmm. Tell me what your thoughts are, because I'm not feeling this one. Oh well, there's always one.
