Death Eater to Spy to Potions Master to…Father?
Rating: T (for mentions of abuse.) Rating may go up for future slash
Summary: Voldermort was killed the first time around by Dumbledore, not Harry Potter. With the war being over and Severus is no longer a spy (he only spied for a year or two), he can finally do something he's always wanted to do: become a father. Warnings: does not follow the books, mentions of abuse, good Malfoys, eventual slash.
Disclaimer: No, I don't own it!
AN: This is a rewrite of Potions Master, Ex Death Eater, Ex-Spy…Father? The concept's still pretty much the same. There are just some things I wanted to change. And it's definitely OOC, but it's not like Severus just changes into this whole other person just because the war's over. It's more like him being who he truly is, but couldn't be because of the war. Well I hope you like this changed up version better than the other one because I don't think anyone was reading that.
Severus Snape stared up at the muggle orphanage in both nervousness and anticipation. Lord Voldermort had been defeated for good a few years ago by Albus Dumbledore, man of many titles. Harry Potter was not a well-known name throughout the wizarding world. James and Lily Potter were just two among many of the witches and wizards who died fighting against Lord Voldermort and his followers. Severus had only been forced to spy for a couple of years before the mad man was defeated. Now he was finally free to do something he had always wanted to do: become a father. Which is why he was standing outside of a muggle orphanage. He was about to adopt a child. Now he could have gone to magical orphanage and adopted one of the many children orphaned by the war, but he knew that there were a few magical children that somehow ended up in muggle orphanages, and when they get adopted, the family has no idea that they're magical.. So he was going to check the muggle orphanages for a magical child.
But while he was excited at the prospect of finally having a child of his own, he was also extremely nervous. He was afraid that he would be in over his head, or worse, become like his own father, who was cold and abusive. As stood outside the orphanage, he tried to reassure himself with the memory of the conversation he had with his good friend, Lucius Malfoy a few days ago.
Lucius Malfoy was sitting in an armchair enjoying a glass of wine and looking at a photo of his deceased wife, Narcisssa when Severus stepped out of the floo and into the Malfoy sitting room.
"Hello Severus," the blond man drawled, "what do you need? You only seek my company when you are in need of something."
"I seek your company because you're my friend, Luc. But I am in need of your help. I need advice," Severus said, taking a seat in the chair across from the elder Malfoy, "This is concerning the matter we spoke about a few weeks ago."
"Ah yes, your want for a child."
"Yes, do you still think it's a foolish idea?"
"I never said the idea was foolish. I just don't understand where the sudden urge came from."
"This isn't a sudden urge," the dark-haired man said quietly, "I've always wanted to be a father. I've always wanted a child of my own. It just never was a possibility for me."
"Odd. I've never seen you as a father, Severus."
"Do you think I'm incapable of being a good father?"
"I never said that."
"Then what are you saying, Lucius," Severus demanded, "because I plan to go to the orphanage this weekend, but I am terrified that I won't be a good father. That is why I came to you. I really feel that I can love a child, but loving a child and raising a child are two entirely different things."
"Yes, you can love a child with all of your heart but still be unable to raise them properly."
"And that is exactly what I am afraid of. I do not want to fail any child the way my father failed me."
"Severus, if that's what's bothering you, then you have nothing to worry about. You will never be like your father. I know I said I never saw you as a father, but that doesn't mean you won't make a good one. I believe you can be a great father. You just have to believe it as well."
"Thank you, Luc. That means a lot to me. I know you wouldn't say that if it wasn't true."
"Yes, you know I'm not one to spout false platitudes," the silver-eyed man said, a smile playing on his pale, pink lips.
Severus felt much better about his decision to adopt a child after that conversation. Lucius seriously wasn't a man who spouted false platitudes, so if he said he believed Severus would make a good father, then he really meant it. So, taking a deep breath and ignoring the nervous feeling in the pit of his stomach, Severus Snape walked into the orphanage.
AN: Hope you enjoy this! Please review! And I am not abandoning The Lily That Poisons The Snake. I'm working on the next chapter right now…kinda!