Fear is the Worst Enemy
"The Only Thing We Have To Fear, is Fear Itself"-FDR
Disclaimer: I own nothing! The quotes used in this episode are from Swan Song.
"You got to promise not to try to bring me back." Those words still haunted Dean to this day. He couldn't accept it. Sam was gone. Gone for a year and a half, and everyday, all Dean wanted to do was run back to Lawrence, claw his way into the cage, drag Sam out, and give the damn devil his due. I tried Sam; I tried to find a way to bring you back. I broke that promise too. So many broken promises to you baby brother.
"You go live some normal, apple-pie life, Dean. Promise me." How could he have made that promise? How could Sam expect him to give up everything that made him Dean Winchester: Hunter, brother, protector and go live a normal life? Sam, I am so sorry. I failed you.
"I let him out. I got to put him back in." Sam, with his damn conscious, blamed himself. Dean had blamed Sam too, for a time. Had he known that those years he had been angry with Sam, would be his last with his geek little brother, he would have treated Sam differently, tried harder to reconcile their broken brotherhood. It's my fault Sammy, not yours. I broke the first seal; I made the demon deal to bring you back from Heaven. You were at peace. I should've left you there.
"It's okay, Dean. It's gonna be okay. I've got him." Sam, however the hell he did it, beat the Devil. Sam, the strongest person Dean had ever known, pulled off the impossible. Sam did it. Sammy, you should never have had to do this. I shouldn't have let you do this! There could have been another way.
"Sam, it's okay….I'm here. I'm not gonna leave you." Dean had broken so many promises to his brother. He had failed him so many times. I tried not to break this one Sammy, but I had to leave. I need you to understand. I didn't want to leave, but I had promised you I would live an apple-pie life.
Dean relived the moment before his little brother jumped. The one last mournful look Sam gave him, a look that said everything that they should have told to each other: I'm sorry; I love you; I forgive you, for everything. I should have told you that myself Sam; I'm an asshole for not having a small chick-flick moment. I am so sorry Sammy. I failed you. I am so sorry. I love you little brother.
Dean opened his eyes to the bright light around the small bedroom. Lisa was laying next to him, still sound asleep. He slowly rose from the bed, trying to push the thoughts of Sam back into the little box that they resided in. It was becoming harder and harder. Some cliche, time heals all wounds. What bull shit.
It was time to live another day without his brother. He didn't know how much longer he could do this whole living the apple pie life thing without Sam. Maybe it was time he gave Bobby a call...see if there were any hunts in the area.
A/N: New story. Hope you liked it! I feel like it's going to be a good story! I promise the chapters will be longer; this was just the best place to end the prologue. I am going to try to review within the week and stay to that schedule! (: Please review, good or bad!
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