DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR THE CHARACTER THOSE RIGHTS FULLY BELONG TO STEPHANIE MEYER.

Chapter 1: The Beginning

BPOV

Looking back at the worst day of my life makes it all that much easier to bear. I remember it still like it was yesterday instead of the 150 years it has been. Everyone has said that you don't remember your human memories very well but I remember all of them as clear a I had all that time ago.

*Flashback*

Edward leaned against a tree and stared at me, his expression unreadable.

"Okay, let's talk," I said. It sounded braver than it felt.

He took a deep breath. "Bella, we're leaving."

I took a deep breath, too. This was an acceptable option. I thought I was prepared. But I still

had to ask. "Why now? Another year–"

"Bella, it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass

for thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."

His answer confused me. I thought the point of leaving was to let his family live in peace.

Why did we have to leave if they were going? I stared at him, trying to understand what he

meant.

He stared back coldly.

With a roll of nausea, I realized I'd misunderstood.

"When you say we–," I whispered.

"I mean my family and myself." Each word separate and distinct.

He took a deep breath and stared, unseeingly, at the ground for a long moment. His mouth

twisted the tiniest bit. When he finally looked up, his eyes were different, harder–like the

liquid gold had frozen solid.

"Bella, I don't want you to come with me." He spoke the words slowly and precisely, his cold

eyes on my face, watching as I absorbed what he was really saying.

There was a pause as I repeated the words in my head a few times, sifting through them for

their real intent.

"You… don't… want me?" I tried out the words, confused by the way they sounded, placed

in that order.

"No."

I stared, uncomprehending, into his eyes. He stared back without apology. His eyes were like

topaz–hard and clear and very deep. I felt like I could see into them for miles and miles, yet

nowhere in their bottomless depths could I see a contradiction to the word he'd spoken.

"Well, that changes things." I was surprised by how calm and reasonable my voice sounded.

"You're not good for me, Bella." He turned his earlier words around, and so I had no

argument. How well I knew that I wasn't good enough for him.

I opened my mouth to say something, and then closed it again. He waited patiently, his face

wiped clean of all emotion. I tried again.

"If… that's what you want."

He nodded once.

My whole body went numb. I couldn't feel anything below the neck.

"I would like to ask one favor, though, if that's not too much," he said.

I wonder what he saw on my face, because something flickered across his own face in

response. But, before I could identify it, he'd composed his features into the same serene

mask.

"Anything," I vowed, my voice faintly stronger.

As I watched, his frozen eyes melted. The gold became liquid again, molten, burning down

into mine with an intensity that was overwhelming.

"Don't do anything reckless or stupid," he ordered, no longer detached. "Do you understand

what I'm saying?"

I nodded helplessly.

"And I'll make you a promise in return," he said. "I promise that this will be the last time

you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can

go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."

My knees must have started to shake, because the trees were suddenly wobbling. I could hear

the blood pounding faster than normal behind my ears. His voice sounded farther away.

*End Flashback*

He lied I never forgot about him. His existence changed my life even after he left. When he left a big part of my heart went with him. It took me several months to be able to function again. If it wasn't for my father Charlie or my best friend Jacob Black I probably would have just died that day in the forest. But now looking back to that time in my life I can smile and remember the happier times. I am glad that Edward left me that day because it would have happened eventually.

Now that I think about it the relationship was too one sided. He never planned to make me his equal I was always and would have always been the helpless human that needed him to protect me. I need someone who is going to treat me as their equal in every sense of the word. When I figured that out it was much easier for me to dig myself out of the whole that I was living in.

My dad and Jacob helped me piece back together my life and my heart so that now it was healed and healthy again. But it didn't last long. Shortly after Edward left so did Jacob for a while when I finally got him back I realized that my best friend was a werewolf the one and only enemy of vampires. When he told me that Victoria was still after me I was worried about my dads safety when who I really needed to be worried about was myself.

One night after I got off from my shift at Newman's store I walked in my front door to run into the red haired devil herself. Victoria, and she had my father by the neck. "Well, well, well. Finally little Bella I home with no one to protect her this time." Victoria said and with that she sunk her teeth into my father neck. But instead of letting him die she stopped and changed him instead.

"Your little Edward didn't want you to become one of us so the perfect revenge would be to change you, and since I know that you wouldn't want your father to be changed either its my revenge to you as well." She said as she ran over to be and sank her teeth into me. I was afraid of what I was going to do I could feel my life draining from me. Then the fire started. The worst pain in the world.

When my father and me woke up we were surrounded by wolves and Jacob in his human form. It was obvious from the tears in his eyes that he knew what had happened. "Jacob what happened to Victoria?"

"We got her but not before she got you. We are so sorry we should have been here we knew she was after you but we never thought that she was here we never found her scent anywhere around here." Jacob said. I just hugged him.

"Its okay Jacob and all of you guys," I said looking at the other wolves. "I am sorry that it happened but I can not blame you for this. What are you going to do with us?"

"We are going to let you live of course, we wouldn't kill you. As long as you can follow the Cullens diet." Jacob said. Sam barked in agreement.

"Thank you but we are going to have to go away for a while its not safe for us to be here around humans as newborns I need your help in faking our deaths." I paused and looked at Charlie he looked fine but I knew that newborns had only one thing on their mind that is blood. "Dad?"

"Yes Bella?" He said looking at the wolves instead of myself.

"They wont hurt you unless you hurt them dad, you already know them anyways." I paused, "Dad, how are you feeling?"

"I am feeling very confused but other than that I am fine. What happened to us Bella?" Charlie asked.

"Victoria changed us into vampires." I said. My father any I had great control over our thirst so it didn't take us long to be able to interact with human again. I was glad not that I didn't like my father it was jut being able to be around other people again made me feel a bit like my old self again.

Now here we are 150 years later, getting ready to go out for another performance as my counterpart Belladonna. I discovered that I have a great singing voice after I was turned and discovered that my power was to change my looks into anything that I wanted it to be. Makes it easier for me to continue my singing career as long as I would like. I just change my name and choose a new record label. This time I am Belladonna, my manager is my father Charlie.

"Belladonna, you are on in five." shouted someone outside my door.

"Thanks." I said putting on my final touches to become Belladonna.