And I know it aches
and your heart it breaks,
You can only take so much.
Walk on, you've got to leave it behind
-All that you can't leave behind- U2
There she sits, crying again. I long to comfort her but fear stops me. The fear that someday I'll be the reason she cries like that.
Poor Yolei, she's been dumped again, why I can't imagine. She is so perfect, so beautiful, so smart, funny and who the hell am I kidding, down right sexy. Any guy who would dump her must be out of his mind. I would never do that to her, I want to be the one that is with her forever. "She's single now you idiot, go talk to her," I tell myself. Yet i let the fear control me once more, and just stand there continuing to watch her cry. Suddenly she looks up and right at me, seeing so much pain in those eyes makes me want to cry. Our eyes are still locked and it almost seems she's willing me to come near, but she looks back down and begins to cry again, giving into the pain of heartache.
Suddenly I find myself walking over to her, sitting beside her. She throws her arms around me, crying against my shoulder. "Davis", she whispers my name so softly I can barely hear it. I stroke her hair softly, "It's ok Yolei," I reassure. I continue to hold her in my arms, on the bench, in the park, by the pond, no one around but Yolei the girl I love, and myself. Even after she stops crying, I hold her, until she lets go of me. She looks at me again, but this time I don't see hurt in her eyes, I see happiness. Then as if magic, I find myself kissing her. Yolei finally breaks the kiss, and hugs me happily. "Thank you Davis," I hear her say as the initial shock of what has just happened wears off. "Um.... Yolei.. I..I um..."I fumble for the words, but Yolei cuts me off with another kiss. "I know," she whispers, "I do to". I realize that in our own way we have just confessed our love for each other. All the emotions running through me right now make my head spin, but one thing I know is that I've never been so happy.
As the sun starts to set I walk her home. Standing outside her door, she kisses my cheek. "I'll see you tomarrow," she says as she shuts the door. As I walk home I realize that I overcame my fear, and I couldn't be any happier that I did. Sometimes you have to leave it all behind, sit back and enjoy the ride, and then walk on.